There is so much beyond my bedroom door.
But for too long I stay,
Pacing along the same old floor,
Until my world turns still and gray.

I ask myself, am I ready to leave?
So long my peace of mind.
But for my past life, I will grieve
As I  leave it all behind

I climbed the highest mountains, saw the greenest trees.
Walked along the lonely trails.
Counted fish swimming in the bluest seas,
As I leaned against the ship’s billowing sails.

To settle down again will be tough,
But for one life, I’ve experienced more than enough.

I thought it would work.
But the darkness inside,
Took control of my hands,
And built a wall,
That kept you out.

I can take the blame.
I was far away from,
The girl that you deserve.
My voice never worked,
When I was with you.

Honestly I thought,
That you could break those walls,
And save me from myself.
But that’s my fault too,
Because you’re no hero.

I've gone numb
The waves might crash,
but they fall 20 miles from shore.
I might hear gun shots,
but they're just echos in my mind.
I want to change
but the sad truth is
I'm numb.
But after all
isn't it just a drop of water in a flood?

Maybe I'm happy,
deep down below.
Covered by miles and miles of snow.
But down here it's cold,
and dark,
like night, sixfold.

So, I'm stuck down here
with my fear,
of winter never ending.

But when I'm with you,
and I am mending,
I smile,
a real one for awhile.
And the snow is melting,
my joy, overwhelming.

So, maybe I'll sit in the trees
underneath the summer sun, feeling free
with you. Maybe.