i fell for your dreams even your most convincing lies i fell for your truths your vulnerability at nights i fell for your curious smile and your wicked mind i fell for the honesty and the words you rhymed i fell for the wrong reasons and now i fear to confess
i cannot bring myself to hate you, not even when you're the reason i feel blue. i should bring myself to hate you, but with each glance at you, my love only grew. i must bring myself to hate you, at least that much, i knew.
yet every time we talk, my heart would flutter and dance. yet every time we text, i savor it like it's my last chance. yet every time you cross my mind, a smile plays across my face, ever the romance.
my first crush committed suicide. i remember the hurt at a young age from chasing him around his living room begging him for a kiss. from my young age i knew i wanted him in my life forever. through his weaves and gagging running around the furniture and up the stairs, losing him sounded foreign then and having lost him now, still feels the same. our fathers drank and our mothers giggled born three months apart our future planned together both saying "i do" uniting us all together. life flew on by us both fighting with ourselves and downing the bottles underneath the bed loaded and silenced family portraits painted in red long life memories all put to rest. only one made it out alive but it's hard to breathe out of us how was it me and you in a little box where a diamond ring should be. my mind keeps wondering when will i stop chasing you then my heart replays every time you turned a corner you looked over your shoulder and how you smiled at me.