Diana

Diana Oct 2022

Can we say we love someone
If we haven’t seen their shadows
Their relationship and expression of emotions society paints as “negative”

Diana Oct 2022

I hope so

Do you think that if you spend enough time at the beach
You would be able to smell the ocean
In the seams of your clothes and pockets of your jacket
Do you think it can linger and permeate
Like cigarettes and bitter goodbyes

Diana Aug 2022

to quiet the noise, even if for just a few seconds

how am I supposed to be gentle with myself
when all I know and am familiar with
is how to be destructive and cruel
in the most abusive way possible

is there a guide I can use
because I have nothing
and when the voices are this loud and dark
the hope within diminishes
day by day

I can honestly say that I am in the lowest point of my life. I am so fragmented and worn out. My friend mentioned how I deserve a break from all the pain and abuse, but it is as if they have become synonymous with my name. My therapist tells me to be gentle but how do I do that when I am so unfamiliar with the concept and am barely learning how to.

Diana Jul 2022

You are worth it

I hope you know
You are worth it

You are worth the time and energy needed
To gently break down the walls you’ve built
Protectively around yourself

You are worth the quiet moments
You are worth the noise

You are worth the rage
You are worth the laughter

You are worth the painful tears
You are worth the face splitting smiles

Inspired by a dark loophole my mind went down a few days ago where the most prominent thought running in my head was, “you are so pathetic, who would love you”? I then had a conversation with that thought and it ended up being this poem.

Jul 2022

shatteredpoet

shatter me

i never intended
to take apart
all the pieces
you glued back
together

#poem #poetry #love #heartbreak #shattered #broken #pieces

Diana Jul 2022

What do you fear more?

I wish someone had told me
when I was much younger
To befriend
Rejection
Constructive criticism
And tension or discomfort

Most things are a balance of fears
So what do I fear more
Rejection
Criticism
Discomfort
Or missed opportunities

I hope to lean towards
The rejection
The criticism
The discomfort
The tension
In hopes of encountering more opportunities