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Helina Nov 2018
Love every inch
Love ever curve and scar
Love the body that carries your soul
The soul that thinks there should be a goal,
a goal to be perfect
Because the World has told it so

They say you're too skinny
Then they tell you you're fat
Your mind wants to blow
What have we done to our world though?
Why want us to suffer mentally?
living up to societies expectations
Fake photos, and photoshopped *******
Why make us all follow their fake idea of perfection?

I am more than just what meets the eyes,
No one else has my skin, my body, my hair, my mind and me all together
I'm unique as I am
I will ignore their definitions of "beautiful",
Not going to hide under pounds of makeup,
Not going to hate myself for not looking more like them,
and not going to hide from the world
I WILL BE BOLD AND GO,
Let them all see who i want to BE, instead of the mask they wanted to see
The mask covering up the real ME
I will stand up straight,
I will keep my head up high,
For me and all of society
Praying one day, this will all be over with
That we will stop defining "beauty"
I will fight for our right,
Our right to live as how we are made
No more being afraid
Helina Nov 2018
Giving me mixed signals
You keep getting in my head, and not getting out
Helina Nov 2018
It's because of you somebody's day is made
Your one smile could mean more than the Worlds' 7 billion
You're loved and cared for,
Even if you don't see it
Wipe those tears away
I'll always be here
Helina Oct 2018
You've been gone for four months, but it still feels like a dream
I know we weren't related
But you were like the brother, that was there to give me hope with the master pieces you created

I still can't believe it, that you're really gone forever
You'll never leave my playlist
Because you're the reason why I still exist
X, your words will always be in my soul
I'll praise you everyday
And scream your songs till my lungs give out
But there's still something I can't get out of my head
While you were still with us,
I wish I thanked you
For the gift you gave us all
May your legendary name be praised, and be known forever
XXXTentacion
I connected through his music. He gave me so much hope, and i was crushed the day i found out he was gone. It still doesn't seem real to me that i'll never get to see his eyes. It has been 4 months, but still feels like yesterday. I remember him everyday, and always will. R.I.P❤️☹️
Helina Sep 2018
"Please don't leave", I tell you everyday
I know how much suffering you go through
And that you can hide the pain with one smile,
So people get a whole different view
I can look into your eyes, and see the tears behind
I know I always tell you I'm here if you want to talk,
But I just don't know how to get the words out your mouth
You hide behind that smile mask you wear
Going through everyday like you're fine
Please let me help you
Please let me be there, and put a real smile
Instead of just acting like you're well
I don't know any of you, but talk to me if you need to. Each and every one of you are beautiful, and deserve the world❤️.
Helina Sep 2018
You’re Nothing.
No one notices that you’ve been a little bit off,
until you hit rock bottom,
until they see physical scars.
Putting on your smile mask everyday,
you’ve been so hurt you don’t want to play.
Everything in your eyes turns gray.
You think there’s no-one to catch you when you fall,
nobody to be by your side when you go.
You fall in a big hole,
you’re stuck there until you figure your way out.

You go to school,
laugh like everything’s alright.
They know nothing,
just keep fighting.
All by yourself, until you find the light.
Voices in your head telling you you’re not good enough.
You tell yourself, “Oh it’s just a bad day”, and try to be tough.

You‘ve finally made it home.
Nobody watching you.
You hide in your room thinking to yourself,
every thought that comes brings you guilt,
and you can’t go back in time, so you just cry.
Cry your eyes out the whole night.
Questioning your existence,
trying to get a stronger resistance,
with no assistance.

Anxiety comes and tells you you’re ugly, fat, and stupid.
You’re a disappointment to your parents, You let everyone down.
You’re worth nothing, you matter zero to anyone.
You hate yourself, you hate your body,
and that’s why you cut it all over so.

They ask you how you’re doing, you answer with just “fine.”
But You know nothing’s going right.
You don’t want to keep going,
because you’re hiding so many thoughts,
But, you can't just let it all out,
Because you don't know how the world around you would respond.
You want to end all of this now,
but somehow, the ones that say they can help you,
they expect you to make and keep a vow
A vow not to see another blood drip
Oh God,
What a great idea,
why didn't you think of that?
Yeah just don't cut anymore,
It's sooo easy,
just keep your hands tied.
But in all honesty,
you keep it only in the names of the ones you love.
So they don't blame your hurt back on you
What was happiness like?
You don’t remember, because you haven’t felt that in months
They say “be yourself”
But you don’t even know you, who are you?
you’ve been lost

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