I’m tired
of being unsure
Of not knowing
What’s on the other side
I saw once a monster
And I called it a demon
And with  the help of an angel
And his love I exorcise that demon
I said these words in fear:
Remember your origins remember who you are, remember your family
And the demon left the body of a man
It was very very scary
And now I wonder how crazy can it be
To believe in what I saw
What I heard
What I wrote
To believe
In fables
To believe in stories
Of demons
To believe I can believe
That evil as that one could exist
But there it is
Evil is the lack of love incarnated

Bring me a flower to find beauty in it’s decay
Show me your scars
Tell me your secrets and your fears
Your flaws
And I will tell you that I like you more
Because you are real
Not because you are perfect
I have tried to be perfect and I became a looser to my eyes
I don’t want that anymore
I want a rest of those restrictions of my mind
The dogmas and the lessons I received
Have been a waste of air and time
And I want to sleep in calm
Enjoy my breath and think of nothing
For I know no truth
I can’t change the world today
And I defenetley need a break
From everyone

Say hello darling I love you means  a lot to me
Your touch your smile
The details that you bring
Sometimes unnoticed by my selfish self
The one that cries for more
Like a child by a window
Looking at the stars
Could I reach them all
And come back to you
Never loose your face
In my intrepide ways
I want to run and I keep static
Not to bring a walll apart
I want this closeness
But I need the freedom of the heart

Today I said good bye to you
And I saw you weren’t as strong as I once thought.
We all said good bye.
We all cried,
I want to think I cried the most,
To show you how I cared for you.
Does it matters
Now that you are gone?
Back in my house
I will put your memory aside and it will feel so wrong.
How a long life so quickly gone
Could mean so much to me,
To anyone?
You were among the blessed
You were a good man
Some people say you still are
That you will be happy without us
Do you see us,
Now that the length of your life is gone?
Do you remember us?
You went so quick
So sadly
So alone
At least you felt like that,
If only we could have stop you
From seeing yourself so little
And life too big for you?
I have to live with the thought
That I’m leaving you behind
and wonder if I could I have stop you
From taking your own life