I’m sober yet I want to die
I am numb depression hurts internally
I miss you but I hate you but I love you more than the lungs I need to breath but I know you can’t just love me yet I know I could still spend eternity loving you
I’m gaining in friends but I’m losing myself it was you but 2 of us and it was all I ever needed
I hate my mind and my heart they fight a lot

I am worth a million
I don’t deserve to be wailing
I now understand, I can’t keep this broken heart from breathing
I am capable of recovery
Thank you for the tears, they taught me all i need to know about your kind.

I want to know
what it is
that occupies your mind when the light of day has faded and you are left alone
with your thoughts

everything you say ends up being the opposite
I’m getting away , it’s hard I’m still trying

it’s okay , I’ll always see you in the next loop

my love doesn’t love me anymore
he hasn’t for a while
I’m lost
now what
you started over so do I
how to feel
it’s numb every day
I’m lost

how do you fall out of love is the big question.
do you ever fall out of love or do you just forget.
do you know what real love is ?
do you know what true love is ?
do you know what fake love is ?
do you know what hate love is ?
someone help me

too bad I don’t know how we got this way
the pain the hate it’s been too late

for this to work I don’t know how I’ll funciton without you

I’ll be better off the next life will show it

I can’t fall asleep at night tossing and turning until ..
4:18 I read the clock
you really corrupt my mind

I hope you know how much you’ve broken me
A piece of my soul where feeling is , is no longer there
Thank you I am dull

I’m gonna miss our endless laughter the most
my heart aches for answers upon why
Is this permanent or just temporary
Maybe in the future we will meet again


What am I saying this is it.

anger .

I love the way you make me feel

I know you don’t miss me much
But I’m missing you like crazy
I’m trying to not feel numb
But that’s the only way I feel
I can’t sleep at night , my thoughts
My heart hurts it misses you at night
And in the mornings
And all of the times in between that makes you my day