i never really liked the color yellow
so protuberant
kinda theatrical
too blithe
but it just so happens to be your favorite
and that's exactly what i need

deep calls to deep
with the roar of your waterfalls
see as i weep
i don’t trust you in the falls
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me
i’m with all the fakers
let me drown at sea

Tower of Silence - Track 12

Verse 1
Oh oh, I’m fearful when I play our song alone
Oh oh, I’m careful when we wear our rebel clothes
Oh oh, I’m ready when we sing this on the low
I’m lonely when I forget about our revel, oh oh
I’m zealous when we go marching in our yellow, oh oh!
I’m steady when I’m covered by my fellow rebels

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Verse 2
There’s something that we need to say
Something before the end of the day
One thing before you go back home
You need to know you are not alone
You need to take it from these lines
There’s an army of us by your side
For you my stomach churns, my lyrics burn
I can’t sleep until it’s heard
So let’s take a walk and join the march
My Kind, my muse, there are many but we are few
Fighting for our minds, my Kind
Aiming for your heart, BANG our hope in view

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Verse 3
Fall out of formation, rebel recognition, oh oh
They keep us in line
Follow the vibrations, come and find your place in, oh oh
We’ll find our incline
We’re all searching for something new
So I’ll go through with you
My lungs, are tired
But my hope, has not, retired

Bridge
( They won’t know ) (( About our revel ))
( Just keep low ) (( Marching in our yellow ))
( They won’t know ) (( About our revel ))
( Just keep low ) (( Marching in our yellow ))

drums Hey! (x5)

Verse 3
Each of us has our own trench
A black pit we must bare before we can breathe the morning air
Fire proves the proof in bullets
Ideas you should go show prudent
With growing numbers and flying colors my sisters and brothers
Tested and oppressed by the vendetta
Except’a He took the death to get me outa
The government of suffering that hovers
A masked assassin I tend to question
Our trench which is tended by depression
It’s a human condition, along with anxiety and suicide succession
But we must take a stand to enter in, to find our way within the dim
We’ll be up here on the ridge
As you walk across your bridge
We’ll cloak you with hope and encouragement
All of us as we face our tench
Receiving the yellow letters you sent

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Bridge
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!

Verse 4
Our minds can be violent
In a world surrounded by sound, we’re worn and beaten down
But when our flow goes quiet
And our brains aren’t occupied, we can find the silence in our mind
But often we make an attempt to hide it
Day-to-day life chips away at our bones, caught up in the touch-and-go
So when our lives go vacant, our thoughts become blatant
We recognize the darkness behind our skull
Applying a little more pressure than usual
But I’ve found there’s another sound, I know of
For when we feel this far from home, reminding us we are not alone
We must not let each other go under
We’ll recover in our cover
Listen to my message, it’s dire
Because many of us are losing our fire
So take your time to cover and let someone know
We must band together to take them whole
Blinker, Sleeper, or Heaver
I promise you, we’ll make it though
I am a Dreamer and so are you

Outro
I am a Dreamer and so are you
I am a Dreamer and so are you!
I am a Dreamer and so are you!!
I am a Dreamer and so are you!!!

I am a Dreamer and so are you

I'm fearful when I play our song alone
I'm careless when wear our rebel clothes
I'm ready when we sing this on the low
They'll try to make you give in, but
The demons don't control us
I'm lonely when we forget about our revel
I'm zealous when we go marching in our yellow
I'm steady when covered by my fellow rebels

The most beautiful thing
I've ever seen
was a room full of mutant kids,
putting our hopes in our fists,
our souls set on fire
as we hold our hands higher.

The sun seems to fall with such gravity
Don't feel like the earth as it turns from sanity
Night brings gloom as the day comes to an end
But you must know dark is not your only friend
Shortly you feel the truth of being saved
Until your hope is burried in a midnight grave
In this moment you must let shadows burn
Rise and stand your ground waiting for the night's return
We might not all make it out but please try
We will win so find hope in what's promised to die

there's nothing like
Guatemala
   there's nothing like
waking up to the sound of roosters
   there's nothing like
sitting up in that rickety bed, ready for another day of building a house, even though i went to bed like four hours before
   there's nothing like
slipping on an old hoodie and stepping out into that crisp morning air
   there's nothing like
Guatemalan coffee
   there's nothing like
the early morning conversations, consisting of lighthearted laughter and wise councel
   there's nothing like
simply sitting there, sipping my coffee, watching the sun slowly climb up the trees
   there's nothing like
how i miss these mornings
   and there's nothing like
how God uses that to remind me to serve His people in the mornings where i miss Guatemala

I'm scared of my imagination
I'm scared of my own creation
I don't know what to do with my right side brain
It's the addict that I can't keep contained
I'm just stumbling around
Wandering if I should keep him bound
Or if I should take off the chains
I desire to help others through what I write
But I fear I'd be returning to my dark plight
Because every time I go jot something
I feel like I'm just stumbling
I need to take a careful pace
Careful not to put myself in a hazy place
I still have a bad taste
Of what I've gone through
I need more time before this can help you

There are other artists who haven’t bought it
They caught it, and I hope I’ve taught it
But I can still feel so alone in my discovery
Pleading that this isn’t another dream
That some deeper form of darkness has got us in
I feel like I’m always missing something, so I ask
But still there’s that someone shunning
So I hope to plunge in
Because I want you to think
Because I think when you do,
You’ll begin to see the Lord show through

I don't really know what's behind my skull
They talk too fast, and that's all I know
Whatever it says, I'll take it slow
I'll take my time to write, like I haven't been
Sitting here, I must let the silence seep in
Until I find the problem

Tower of Silence - Track 11

Hook
I’ll keep on going
If you keep on showing
Yeah I’ll keep it going, for you
If you keep on showing, up to
I can’t see it no, oh oh
But if you deem is so, oh no
I will go, oh oh
I will go, oh no

Verse 1
An ode to the darkness
I owe it to who fought this
To the One who saved me
And no, it wasn’t just a daydream
I prob’ly lost a lot of me
But thanks anyways—you set me free
I won’t consider it a loss—made it out to be the dark that has lost
My mind buckles in shotty, the darkness taking over my body
I’m sorry, but I’m taking back what belongs to me
I’m taking a break from these things where I stored my emotion
It causes too much commotion
I’m putting my mind on cruise control
I’m letting the Lord above take it all
But the truth is, I can’t cut ties with the silence
The dangerous are those who face the violence
It will always be here
My mind will always tied to the side that’s easier
But I’ve found a way to fight it
Take the darkness as a weapon and light it

Chorus
There’s still silence admits the sound
Determined to wear me down
All around, I’m srround–
–ed, and pound–
–ed, into the ground
I’m hounded like those long dead
Found, now I’m grounded
And surrounded
By something far more profound

Verse 2
I started the car, but I never got that far
I stayed until the air drew thin, even then
I waited for my death, stripping myself of breath
But then my Savior opened the garage and saved me from my *******
See how you’re alive—it’s for a reason
Though you may be barely breathing
So it’s time for us to drive out and pet the Lord direct our route
Because we’re all writing suicide notes, just for the fun
But to forget what we wrote, we must first put down the gun
Please hear this—it’s okay to come before in submission
With hesitation and opposition
Chamber loaded while holding the ammunition
Because if you’re like me, your brain is bloated with floating questions
I must warn you of my condition
Could it really be anxiety and depression?
It’s a disorder I have yet to oblige
For now, for you, I’ll call it a thorn in my side
But I promise you everything will be alright
I’ll get through and I’ll be just fine
It’s a blessing I’ve come to realize
So don’t be afraid of what I feel assigned
This thorn in my side may give me some fear
But I’ve come to understand why it is here
This weakness is not something to hide behind
But a way for me to finally find
Those who are going through the same exercise
Learning with these people how to empathize
And teaching me that I must learn to consign
My thoughts and fears to let Him guide
May these sufferings be scars of my loyalty
And strengthen me in God’s sovereignty
I will endure the thoughts I face all day long
Because it is in the Father that I belong
Were it not for Him, I would have given to the grave
But in His power and goodness, I am saved

Chorus
There’s still silence admits the sound
Determined to wear me down
All around, I’m srround–
–ed, and pound–
–ed, into the ground
I’m hounded like those long dead
Found, now I’m grounded
And surrounded
By something far more profound!

Hook
I’ll keep on going
If you keep on showing
Yeah I’ll keep it going, for you
If you keep on showing, up to
I can’t see it no, oh oh
But if you deem is so, oh no
I will go, oh oh
I will go, oh no

I must warn you of my condition
Could it really be depression?
It's a disorder I have yet to oblige
For now I'll call it a thorn in my side
But I promise you everything will be alright
I'll get through and I'll be just fine
This thorn in my side may give me some fear
But I've come to understand why it is here
This weakness is not something to hide behind
But a way for me to finally find
Those who are going through the same exercise
Learning with these people how to empathize
And teaching me that I must learn to consign
My thoughts and fears to leave them behind
May these sufferings be scars of my loyalty
And strengthen me in God's sovereignty
I will endure the thoughts I face all day long
Because it is in the Lord that I belong
Were it not for Him, I would have given to the grave
But in His power and goodness, I am saved

Resolution is the first step
Deft to the cleft of what’s kept
Realization but then we question
So I’m afraid the questions will be our demise
And I’m afraid which side I’ll take pride in
By the time I realize but I’ll be seeing His eyes
Neglecting the last day that’s left
I know I can’t be apart from His breath
But will these attempts honor His death?
Will Nige profess His love or scare them off?
Is this thought or is this a cough?

Does it work?
To shove light down their throats?
Apparently it does, praise be to God because
But does it feel short? Like a buzz a bit?
Short of our suicide notes
Tell me if I’m wrong
But I feel like I’ve been placed here to remain
As a different form of worship song
To drive with you in your lanes
Not to take the blame but raise His name

“Time travel is a very dangerous thing,”
they say.
And I agree.
I sit at my desk, and put my earbuds in,
and there I am,
in that room again,
in that state if mind.

They say I’m introspective—to a fault
And they say I got a lot to say
But I’m not sure I quite know what’s at bay
Like there’s more I feel that’s delayed
And I’m afraid of the decay if it comes out
If it comes out, it would be my fault
I’ve been making my own cult
And if they go down, it’s my toll
Cursed with the smarts to carry it all
But is it wise if it’s their demise?
Is it wisdom to have this freedom?
Is it beyond boundaries to feel contaminated?
Is it wrong to feel so gone?
Look, I’ve stepped out in a world that can’t go out on a branch
But that doesn’t seem to make a change or give me a chance
Why must these things be published, if it tips them over their brink?
Is it all just some *******—all these things I have to think?
Why is there always doubt within my creativity?
Does it reflect me?
Is it terrifying to speak freely, to God and Him back to me?
Or is it these tricky schemes, playing me?
How does all this doubt advocate the pearly gates?
How will anyone enter in at this rate?
Can it be applicable to their plate?
Can my belt help with the cards they’ve been dealt?
Or am I a fool to stand up on a stool?
Is it a rule in us to try to be cool?
Using tools we forge to scourge our duel
And I can’t tell if this war is actual
Because I can’t feel what’s factual
Or that I’m going back to the walls

Tower of Silence - Track 14

Verse 1
The blind can’t learn to see
By opening their eyes
I can’t abolish the gloom
By putting putting in a disguise
But through faith and obedience
I can find my Lord
I will remain in prayer to Him
And abide in His Word
They live by faith, not by sight
Live in the dark, but step in the light
Guided by our noise, follow the path of His voice
The blind dance in step to what they hear
They walk in the fog, but their path is clear

Chorus
Oh
You save my life and pay my crime
So take my life and use this rhyme
To praise my name and not my line
Father I want it to be You that I praise
And through my craze, they see Your face
Hope they see that though we’re flawed
Still we’re called into Your endless grace
So I hope these words are testimony
To what You save and what You’ve shown me

Verse 2
Gulping down the morphine
Except it didn’t stop the bleeding
My emotions seeping out of me
Left feeling like a zombie—paralyzed
Because rolling down the windows only works for so far
Until I debate rolling out of the car
Found a new drug to help me sanitize
Maybe even help my polarize
Here lately it’s been chlorine
In hopes to keep me clean
But it does well to keep on killing
Now I might just need adderall
That’s why I like darkness and take cold showers
I stand up on high places to give me the power
I’ve had too much coffee, and I think way too deeply
Should have bought decaf, but I did it again
Got it black and cold to reflect my soul within
I want it all but now I’m relapsed
In an effort to take back the reigns
Of the One who overcomes the thoughts and pain
I’m thankful that my God continues to intercede
Because I’d be dead if I chose to proceed
I know it’s a lot of metaphors
But take a look at your source
And I hope it helps direct your course

Chorus
Oh
You save my life and pay my crime
So take my life and use this rhyme
To praise my name and not my line
Father I want it to be You that I praise
And through my craze, they see Your face
Hope they see that though we’re flawed
Still we’re called into Your endless grace
So I hope these words are testimony
To what You save and what You’ve shown me

Break
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Verse 3
How many times must I take it into my own hands
To accept the test of seasons of sand
Thinking I can manage it empty handed
Wondering where He is every time I panic
I pry at the terrain, clawing at my brain
To throw my mind inside like Moses decided
But the hole in my soil is far too shallow
I’ve killed a man then denied it
I’m on the run, dying and prying
So when the night comes and the rain falls I’m feeling hallow
Why don’t I turn—I don’t have to run back to
I look down at my palms, what I’ve written in these songs
Thought I was flying straight, until I take a step back to dilate
And I find my ****** bones have resurfaced
And my mind it surges
Do I not see how I walking’s urgent?
Do I not know His love is enduring?
Am I writing what’s pertinent?
Why have I not laid down my shovel and given it over
When Christ has already etched in His tombstone
That His love overflows and my sin is dead
But I like the company of what’s in my head
And I rather my heart be led than His Spirit lead me free
I can’t avoid the night
I can’t outrun the rains
But I can give my sight
To the one who sustains
And send all my thoughts and sin His way

Break
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Verse 4
So I hope you can take a rhythm
Use these shadowed songs and listen
Because not everything’s exactly bright
And there’s a blur between what’s wrong a right
Because Satan twists the picture
Using the fine lines of Scripture
Because it’s a fair question—is it enough?
Can we still have these thoughts and claim that we’re in love?
Well, without darkness what else could we write?
There would be no delivery to day from night
So I encourage you to take these raw emotions
And offer it to the God who restores the erosion
Because we have a Father by our side
The All-Knowing who guides the blind
So there are those who choose to see the apocalypse
But if you take His rest you’ll step in the glimpses
I pray you can take my graves
And see the path that I pave
Take this stone He has rolled away for your own
Dig deeper and know He has shone for your soul
Because I serve the God of transformation
And I want that to be your destination
So what do I want written on my grave?
I don’t want the fame, I won’t be a slave, so please don’t praise this stage
No I don’t like my name, I wouldn’t have this face if it wasn’t for His grace
Because God works everything our beautifully
For our good and for His glory
For those who obey lovingly
In His perfect timing, be patient and see
For He is the Lord of Sovereignty
Let that be my eulogy

Bridge
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Outro
So I will fall inside
Of You
And fill up all my wounds
In my hands
Revive all the graves
Within my mind
I give You all my plans

How many times must I
take it into my own hands
to burry my sin?

I pry at my terrain,
digging up graves
to throw my mind inside.

But the whole in my soil
is far too shallow,
so when the night comes and the rain falls,
I look down at the dirt
I've scrapped from my palms,
and find that my
****** bones
have resurfaced.

Do I not see
I am digging holes in my hands,
a trench within my mind?

Why have I not
laid my shovel down,
when Christ has already
etched in my tombstone
my sin, that's dead?

I cannot avoid the night.
I cannot outrun the rains.
But I can send all my sin
His way.

I want to fall inside
of You,
and fill up all the holes
in my hands,
revive all the graves
inside my mind.

So many songs and I don’t know which belong
So many songs and I don’t know which go wrong

I'm burning, but still cold
Is it concerning
I'm tending to this fire
But it never grows much higher
All I want is a spark
An ember in the dark
You are my torch in this dry space
Be my light between two places
I don't want to walk alone
As I find my way back home

I've had the touch of Your torch
Is it enough of a touch to make me much?
I've touched the tough of Your torch
And I feared I wasn't of the sort
It isn't enough to sort of touch
Is it enough of such to stand on Your porch?
Is it enough, Your torch, to make me such?
It isn't enough, a touch, I want that much
I've touched and You are much, You are my torch
Now I'm such to have the touch of Your torch

Tower of Silence - Track 8

Verse 1
I’m burning
But still cold, Am I learning?
I’m tending to this fire
But it never grows much higher

Hook
((( Darkness is a room, one of many in this mansion I call my brain
I’ve left, I assume, but still I hear those demons scream my name )))

Pre-Chorus
Deep calls to deep with the roar of Your waterfalls
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
All Your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea

Chorus
My heart, is so black and white
I think that you’re right
I’m just black, I’m going back
It’s a heart attack

Verse 2
How could you say everything’s alright
When I’m not even putting up a fight
I’ve created my own religion
A world in which I’m barely living
Within walls I’ve just written in
I’m working my way through this system
As I’m dreaming but it’s not my vision
All I want is a spark
And ember in the dark
You are my torch in this dry space
Be my light between two places
I don’t want to be alone
As I find my way back home

Pre-Chorus
Deep calls to deep with the roar of Your waterfalls
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
All Your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea

Chorus
My heart, is so black and white
I think that you’re right
I’m just black, I’m going back
It’s a heart attack

Bridge
((( A lifeless light, luminous, yet so dark
     Surrounding and cold
     Deep of night, with thoughts so stark
     I could not break hold )))

Verse 3
I am burning down my hometown
Send your fire and flames to reign down
Burn these strongholds to the ground
But still You hide your face
And I am forced to look away
I’ve had the tough of Your torch
And I feared I wasn’t of the sort
It isn’t enough to sort of touch
Is it enough of such to stand on Your porch?
It isn’t enough, a touch, I want that much
Just give it a touch—you’ll see He’s such
I’ve touched the tough and You are much, You are my torch
Now I’m such to have the touch of Your torch
Standing on my porch, I’ll show You His worth, the tough He endures

Bridge
My heart, is so black and white
Deep calls to deep with the roar of your waterfalls
I think you’re right
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
I’m just black
All your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m going back
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea
My heart, is so black and white
Deep calls to deep—(waterfalls)
I think that you’re right
See as I >weep< — I don’t <falls>
I’m just black
>all Your waves<  <over me>
I’m going back
>sleeper<  <drown at sea>
It’s a heart attack

Verse 5
Please excuse me, how could I write something so contradicting?
I’m sorry, I don’t know who it is I’ve been depicting
Disappearing into my own sung theories
I hope it’s not confusing, I know it’s tongue-twisting
How conflicting, is it wrong to write what I’ve been thinking?
I’m not sure what it is I revel—is it God or the devil?
Looking back, I must be careful
Not to be dragged back—we are rebels
Sometimes I rather just wallow in my sorrow
But I don’t want you or me to be ****** into the funk
So I will try to testify the sky
With the introspective thump of our hearts’ rhythmic hum
My fingers the gates, this pen the flood
Singing as there is nothing new under the sun
What’s underneath—is it flesh or is it blood?
If I told them exactly what it is I do
I wonder if they’d say we’re through
I think you’re right, they just might, turn away from You
It’s hard to find a balance, so ignore my talents
I don’t want to be heard, I want you to listen
To this session of introspection
Look a little deeper and you’ll see what’s written
Take apart my art and you’ll find what’s written on your heart

What's wrong with me?
What's my problem?
I want you to see
I need you following to the bottom
No, I am not enough
No, I am not enough
I cannot dig as far as I need to
Whithout them being here beside me too
But will I tell you?
I know, I'll fall if I don't
So why don't I let them know?

When everyone you think you know
Deserts your side, leaves your fight
I will stay with you, I will go
I'll be there, I'll stay the night
You're caught up in your darkest thoughts
Believe me, it's not just you
And you think your mind is all you got
Trust me, it's not your only way through
Stay with me, we are not alone
Our brains sick and our minds prone
It may not feel like it at times
'Cause there's many of you, but we are few
Yet there's an army of us at your side
We're fighting for our minds, our hope in view

You may be conviced
You'll like it better when you're sleeping
But please hear this
Don't give to the blink
When I did, I found myself sinking
I fell asleep, internally bleeding
Don't start thinking
You may believe your sea is far too dark
But redemption is not that far
From the dark I turned to pleading, repeatedly
Asking desperately
"Come save me!"
And now I'm free

I am a ghost,
one that the closest people
can see straight through.
But I'll deflect them,
transmute into someone else,
that way they won't know.

Each of us has our own trench,
a black pit we must bare
before we can breathe in the morning air.
For those of us who fear the silence,
our trench is tended by depression.
But we must take a stand to enter in
to the pit of fear and silence.
I am not asking you to go to the bottom,
but to help me problem solve my problem.
No one can face down my demons for me,
but I'll need you to face me from the ridge,
as I cross over this silent bridge.
Cloak me with hope and encouragement
as I plummet down to dwell in my trench.
And I will sit here in the dark,
receiving the yellow letters you sent,
until I find what has me torn apart.

When the sun and the moon bid their goodbyes
And the monsoons will break frozen ocean-sides
And our emotions no longer change like the tides
The only thing left will be the true light
The thing we’ve seen since the beginning of time

People pour out straight light
But that doesn’t seem exactly right
I don’t believe that’s straight truth
Because there’s truth in the night
So I’m going down to help you out

You’re barely keeping your head above the water
Why don’t I try something new and craft a boat
And maybe it will work and you can climb aboard
Because what’s the point if that’s not floating you

it's quiet now
silence gives me space
i crawl back inside my mind
and see how far my thoughts will go to lie
like my noose, i strangle the truth
uncross my t's, un-dot my i's

I’m turning around the cube
To get a different point of view
I’m in a different field now
And I know exactly how
When I don’t really think about it
But when I write it out
I can start to go back
But then I see the pact
That God has my back
And He has my front
And each side of the line
Knowing where He wants me to go
So I’ll be staying on the low

Dipping into the ripping is crippling
I lean towards the twisty, it can get me kinda misty
But I simply, need a little twisting
Fitting, for the sipping I want printing
He’s witty, and can be a little slippery

I’ve been pressing ******* to my temple
Wishing it was a bit more simple
When I should be pressing them to my wrist
Just to know there’s a pulse within

How worthy am I
That You would go and die
And trust me enough to make the eye

There is a wall.
There is a light around this wall.
This wall will cast a shadow
on both of its sides,
because there is a light all around it.
It just does not see it.
And I will stand near this wall,
just beyong where its shadows lie.
I will speak to this wall.
I will bring up topics of rootless things,
but it's all to plant the seeds.
I will take another steps toward the wall.
I will tell it stories,
and I will make it laugh.
Then another step.
I will share with it my deepest fears,
and my greatest hope.
I will sit beside this wall,
and its shadow will not be as dim.

Aside from all these worries
When I think about my music, I’m excited
When I take a step back
To look at what God can allow it to do
I can’t wait to release it
And allow God to have it affect people
That sounds awesome

I remember the poem I wrote
Where I started talking about being on a stage
And since then
I’ve had a vision
Reading back through my lyrics
I imagined getting to talk to people
Between songs
And talk with them afterwards
And I really look forward to it

If I didn't know better
I'd think you look a bit dead
Like a zombie with a limp
Hands held in front just for the thrill
But you're just sleepwalking
Scared of the pace of change
Afraid to fall put of formation
Talking just to say nothing
Walk with a hunch just proves nothing
I can't be the only one prone
To saying something
We stay in place
For the sake of our comfortability
But for the sake of fairness
And in the spirit of awareness
Can we try out this new point of view
Step around the corner and out of place
Give your life to something better
It's time to wake up

Wax catcher, shake it out!
Catch all the gunk in my head
I rather stuff you in my ears
I prefer a wax catcher rather than Scripture
Because it’s a lot more simpler
There’s not much to it, and no chance I blew it

We have enough faith to say
That we do not exist
As we live every single day
If it’s a reality like this

Suicide no longer scared us
I’m afraid it’s not really awareness
Now it’s just coated with fairness
I blame it on the culture
We are the poachers
Swarming it like vultures

I went hiking yesterday
And I thought of a poem just for you
It may not rhmye
But I hope it helps you out sometime
With whatever you're going through
So here it is, without further delay ~

When you're hiking
Don't get so caught up on where your footing is
Stop and take a look around
Enjoy the scenery
Or else you'll get a spiderweb in your face

Verse 1
It takes a lot to not let a thought get rotten
Stepping into the distorting fortress and worship of conforming
It’s hard to not get caught, or get across what I sought
A believer believing the lies of the deceiver
Under siege of the one who heaves
Can you believe that? Can you believe him?
Is it possible to be a man after God’s own heart?
But if you read David’s part, it can still be hard
Doubt leading to seasons of spiritual amnesia
I wish I could shake this state but I’d like to take it
Called to become the Son except I worship the sun
But Jesus is in the boat with you and me
And holds the power to calm the sea
Then why doesn’t He?
Believe me please, it’s for a reason
I hope you’ll see, it’s just a season
If you begin to believe in the God who’s breathing
Listen for the whisper louder than the screams
I know it’s hard that we can’t fully conceive
But faith is in things we can’t see
And if we could see our will wouldn’t be free
Wait to hear how I’ve come to stand
Jesus is here so take His hand

Break
I don’t know why, I ignore what’s high
But He came to die, for the things I cry
Not all will fly but I will try
To point your eyes up toward the sky

So why do I cry when the light’s suppose to take my life?
Then why would I die if it seems so unsatisfying?

Verse 2
I see how seemingly lame it is
But what a radical change there is
For it won’t always be a distant engagement
We can find contentment in His tent
Trails and temptations but not worn and un-torn as the storm rages
This is the hope you’ll find within His pages
So get out of your cage and up from your basement
For the latent call will then be blatant
That His Word says He has overcome this world
Why would I try and it be a lie
If He cried before He even died
Pray where you are, not where you think your should be
He wants you further along where you belong
But He won’t leave, He meets us where we are
Don’t shoulder this alone—take our community
Notice the laments don’t end with despair
He is here but He won’t leave you there
The wrong can seem like it’s winning
So take the hand that we’re lending
This outlet to let it all out
Sing with me if you know what I’m talking about
See that we have peace in the tribulations
For He has taken our death and gifted salvation
He’s not asking for you to come before in perfection
Come here to take off your mask
Come with me and we’ll face this task
Because I can look like I have it all figured out
Running through this race in only one pace
But if you graze what’s behind my face you’ll see all this doubt
Built up inside so let it all out
For God has not forgot about us
It’s here, the land of our possession
So will you take it?—that’s the question

These thoughts aren’t worth nothing
These thoughts aren’t worth shunning
My mom and dad, and me they had
I *** born with this heart and mind
So these thoughts are worth trying
Grind them between my teeth until I die
Might as well, who am I?

You say You’ve died for my sins
But is it a sin when my thoughts begin
To bend in the wind, and then
I’m feeling all my demons again?
Is it that I’m denying the truth?
Is it my fault that I’m haunted by rues?
I know that You will not lose
Just why does this have to be my cruise?
I worship but still I feel so lonely
Is this something You’re showing me?
When I get close, I’m struck with apathy
Overwhelmed with emotions attacking me

I wonder if it's still you,
because no one else seems to fit.