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Mr Quiet Nov 2018
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You love to fall for people that you know you barely even know,
Yet you get upset when you don't get all the cuddles because your brain is slow,
Ain't that funny though?
You fall only to feed your ego.

Miscommunication which lead you to feel feelings for someone you know isn't into your charm,
Now you're confused when she told you she don't want your affections 'cause she knows she don't want any harm.
You romanticize the feeling of your loneliness which creates this void for the hopeless romantic,
Which was all just you and your narcissistic conscience and now you've just redirected your own tactic.

Exaggerate your friend's intentions to convince yourself that they only want your love,
You only cared for them when they cared about you because them caring for themselves, for you, isn't enough.
Don't be surprised now that you're on your own,
You knew you were a snitch,
Because you crave for anyone's attention and affection 'cause you're too hollow to have yourself fixed.
i have no idea wut im writing about... Well i do but im not entirely sure.
Mr Quiet Feb 2019
Car lights.
Sunday nights.
Backseats.
Swing set.
The smell of you hair.
Familiar scent.
Your eyes.
Our stares.

Love you to the moon? I'd give you the universe if I could.

4 AM.
Late texts.
Birthday note.
Lying to my parents.
Self-harm.
Your face.
Our break.
Silence.
Self-hate.

Car lights.
Sunday nights.
words are images that is in your mind, here's a few words that makes 2018 mine.
<3
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
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Mr Quiet Sep 2018
Been walking with you lately in the dark,
It seems as though we're gonna have another start.
Yet this time without each other, yes,
I'm very self aware that we're gonna be apart.

And I know that you notice how you made me worried,
'Cause I want you to know,
How much I genuinely care about you.
'Cause your loss of hope is beating me down,
So I'm sorry that I keep trying to move that frown upside-down.

At least that temporary smile will still come around,
And when it happens I hope you enjoy it as,
As much as I have now.
Depression feels eternal again,
Now nothing bothers you anymore.
People say "Only you can save yourself.",
But you lift my soul when we talk just because we're "bored."

'Cause when you say you're "fine" I just want to hug you tight,
Until my heartbeat reaches your spine,
Until it makes you smile.
Now I lie awake until 4 AM,
Because now everything reminds me of you again.

And I know you don't want me to care so much,
But I just want to let you know,
You deserve the love you've given to me too.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 5/14
Mr Quiet Nov 2018
"No one will accept you."
Said my conscience to myself.
So what's the point of not being alone?
When no one's there to say you're not going to hell.

And you define my identity as a tragedy,
You don't want my truth so you just deny.
So for once in your ignorant life,
Please have an open mind.

And if you decide to stop your fight,
Maybe we can settle this conflict,
And have a good time.

"You're just confused, you're too young for this."
Yet you expect me to give chocolates to a girl,
And give her a kiss.
Double standard at it's best,
Just accept me as myself.
Don't think I'm perplexed,
I know who I am and you can't change who I am and tell me to be someone else.

You say you worship Him,
You say that He is LOVE.
You say He washed my sins,
Stop acting like I'm a criminal.
Stop saying that we'll go to hell,
You're like the Pharisees.
You spread the opposite of what He tells,
Hypocrites,
You homophobic, extremist wannabes.

And I'm a Christian kid,
I believe in Him,
And if you think He hates me for my sins,
Then go ahead,
Let's settle this.

Let me believe,
That He still wants me.
And let me see,
From your actions,
He still wants me.
The "You" stands for every homophobic people i know
Ate
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
Ate
Well I guess that you were the one that was home for me,
I'd stay awake at late nights staring at the walls back when you left for Uni,
Wasted my time trying to fight over petty things when all I could've done was loved you back then,
'Cause now I'm realizing that I've missed you more than I could've been.

All those times we made memories,
For me it was history,
A monumental time that made me who I am today.
Now I catch myself reminiscing,
Those days where we played hide and seek,
And played with dolls and stuffed bears as we made them houses.
We stacked up all the cassette tapes,
Piled them up to make a domino gate,
All around the living room and we'd clean it before papa came...
home.

You are home.
To me.

Purata,
Wag ka magalit sa akin,
Kapag naiinis ka sa akin wag mo nalang akong pagisipin,
Isipin mo lang ang itong kanta,
At wag ka na magalit.
Matulog ka na lang habang pinapakinggan mo ang itong kanta na para sayo,
Ate,
Wala ako dito kung hindi sa buhay mo.
G, A7, F#m, DM7
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
It's funny how this idiot I'm trying to keep alive is still breathing, yet for some reason I think I'm only letting it breath for you.
another short one I thought of while I was taking a shower lol
Mr Quiet Nov 2018
Love isn't something you trade, it's something you give.
don't get upset when someone doesn't love you back, you're just giving it to the wrong person.
Mr Quiet Dec 2018
This hollow feeling that I want to erase,
In which leaves me to the temptation of every distraction I have yet to face,
I want answers and I want faith,
I want to believe.

I encountered you for some time,
Felt the Spirit but the doubts still intertwined,
Coincidences and Feelings are what I thought entered my mind,
Or atleast that's what I thought.
But then again who am I to say that,
I am lost.

I constantly find a way to disperse myself from finding the truth,
And I want to know it but I'm in disbelief of You,
I feel nothing but feelings that is chemicals in my brain but I still want to believe it's your calls that makes me question my faith.
Is it You?
I want to know but I feel like I'm being pulled when I get closer to the truth.

I want to believe,
I'm lost and I beg and I plead,
And I just want You to cleanse my belief,
Make it all stop,
I want to feel redeemed.
here's me questioning my faith in God yet again. Yay
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
And at your last smile,
Nobody will replace you,
You are my paradise,
My love,
You are my whole life.

And you will be drunk by my love for you.
Even at night or at the scorching sun,
I will walk along aslong as you're with me.

You are holding this heart of mine,
Be cautious with it.
My brain said, you will just drop it.
Can you say that he is wrong?
this is just the english version of "Sinta" incase you wanna know what it means hehe
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 2/14
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
You are,
The joy in my life,
I feel,
Only comfort & delight,
With you.

You are,
Like a blanket,
That keeps me warm in my,
Cold room.

Please let me have this feeling longer,
Even though I know,
We're gone soon.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 7/14
Mr Quiet Jul 2018
I'm sorry,
I cannot ease your pain and cure your sorrow,
I cannot give you enough love for your bottomless heart,
Nor enough hope into your fragile life,
But that is not an excuse for you and I to give up,
I will still try,
Even if you still cry to sleep,
Late at night.

I will never fix what you hate in yourself for only you can do that,
But I will always be there if you want someone to listen.
I hear the echoes of your agonizing mind and I can feel the pain through your eyes,
I know the screeches of your soul and tears inside your lies,
I know and feel your emptiness every time you say, "I'm Fine."

And I hear you laugh,
I see you smile,
I hold those precious memories for I know those small periods of time is still valued,
Never forgotten,
Never denied,
For I remember those times and know for a fact that you'll still be alright.
Because I will never give up on you,
For you are just in a cocoon right now,
But I see within you,
A butterfly.
Hello! This is a poem that I made for my friend that is suffering from depression and I just want to let her know that I'm here for her, don't worry though, I'm still gonna try to comfort and help her no matter what so she'll be okay. Also this is the first poem I published in this website so feel free to criticize and leave a comment, thanks.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 9/14
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
Look into the ceiling,
Watch me go all over the world with you.

Hands held tight till we bleed and
Hopefully we'll make our scars have a new
Meaning to the stars that we'll sleep in.

Cherry blossoms raining.
We can turn our lives into a film,
Where we dance in the planetarium.
The petals in your eyes that's falling
Tells me that the seasons going into an end,
But i know you'll come back again,
I'll make sure i'll be there stronger than a stem.

Well hello
Again.
Is this the end,
Or the winter that spring can't seem to comprehend?
to be honest i dont even know what i was saying
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
I know you're moving on and I know that you'll be so strong,
If you can overcome your grief then hopefully you'll get over me,
I hope to see the day you'll pass by me and I won't even notice,
'Cause I'm not so used to seeing you so completely filled with focus,
On the joy you have received and all the life you've yet to see,
So hopefully you'll realize,
You are actually all you'll ever need.

Yes, I am a fool,
And yes, I have made many mistakes,
You won't forgive me, so I will just be on my own way.
'Cause I know the things that I know I used to say,
"You deserve the best."
So I should know you don't want me anymore,
You're happier when you see me less.
So I'll just go away,
Never again will I give you my mess.
I'll just go away and hope that you won't ever experience this again.
Be blessed.



























...and at this moment, I realized..
...that you and I deserve to be happy...
...and now I know I shouldn't empathize,
the demons that live in you and I,
I guess we both need to say goodbye,
and I promise this will be the very last time.
I'm done feeling this load of guilt and self-hatred,
hopefully you too.
I guess I'm done.
I'm done with the thought of you.
To the person that used to love me, you deserve someone better than me, I hope you find that person.
Mr Quiet Apr 2019
A lonely soul,
Isolated star,
An introvert,
With a solitary heart.

So far away from the distance of the nearby galaxies,
A spectator of the universe,
A lonely, introverted, creature is he.
Just another speck of dust out of the limitless stars,
A small percentage of a timeless infinity,
"I am nothing of importance" is what he thinks,
Is what he sees.

The 200 billion lights that's light-years away doesn't seem to be helping,
With the thought that one day or one night they'll find me and understand me sincerely.
It's been over a million years and still no contact from anybody over here,
Although I can't blame them since I'm so far away from the distance of how I truly feel.

Lonely, lonely star,
A billion light-years apart,
Hoping one to search for you,
Hoping one to come from afar,
Does it hurt you?
Does it urge you?
To just end it all.

Writing his feelings alone in his room,
Secluded yet safe is his heart,
Bulletproof,
Although it cannot save itself from the world's gloom,
All he can do now is gaze at the moon.

Why can't I be me without anybody blaming me for being me?
Why can't they see that I am who I want to be?
Is it the way that I act?
The way that I lack a sense of masculinity?
Is it the fact that I listen to music that doesn't really fit what you see in my body?
Oh I'm so 'this' and I'm so 'that',
Why can't you just say that I'm so me?
You should know that you don't know me but you only assume what you have already seen.

Lonely, lonely heart,
So isolated it falls apart,
Hoping one to search for you,
Hoping one to come from afar,
Does it hurt you?
Does it urge you?
To just end it all.

25000 light years away yet we're the same and feel the same way.
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
And as I lay on my bed in the middle of the night,
It just never stops, doesn't it?
I have pushed away the memories and emotions like you wanted me too,
I haved pushed it all away for myself too.
But...



Deep inside....




I miss you...



I miss how you'd look me into the eyes as we told each other jokes,
I miss how we'd make each other laugh when we knew things would get worse,
I miss how you'd write hidden notes on my books so when I study I have a reason to smile,
I miss how you'd lay on my shoulder and forget about the entire universe just to have that moment with me,
And then you'd fall asleep,
Knowing you were safe on my shoulder.
And then you would wake up and gave me that look...


The look that no words can verbally describe for it has gone way beyond words and literaure for description,
But it felt like I was already in paradise.


But deep inside, no matter how much you hate me and have gone through such lengths to forget about me and wished how we should've never met and how you wish I would just dissapear....


And I wish I could hate you too and just regret every single memory with you so it would be easier to forget you and move on but.... **** it...



I love you.
I want to go back. Why can't I just go back?
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
The boy lost in love
Confliction and confusion
Yet truce still arise
a haiku of a character i made named Denver
Mr Quiet Jul 2018
To every sad songs,
To every sappy poems,
To every sentimental quotes,
Will you think of me?
And when you post those stories with all those heartbreaking words,
Will I think of me?

Have I ever made you happy?
And when I think that I've made you laugh and smile,
Are you just lying to me?
Because if I'm the reason why you're always breaking,
Please just tell me,
I am truly sorry.

You say you're a bad liar but then what does that make me?
A fool that wants to believe,
That you really are fine, that you really are clean.
You say you've already told me all your secrets,
But tell me honestly,
Do you really love me?
You told me so many times that you love me,
But do you love me?
Do you trust me?

To be honest, no words can explain the way I love you,
Have I ever I told you?
You're the only person I ever said "I love you" to.
I'd rather see you leave me so you can be happy,
Rather than you being sad with me,
I'd rather see you happy,
Than say you love me.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 11/14
Mr Quiet Oct 2018
Awake,
Driven by the rush of blood that flows through my veins,
Eyes wide open as the raindrops fall on my face,
The storms have stopped,
My hurricane.

Mundane,
Yet I still keep going,
I don't care what it takes,
I'm going to be happy,
I won't let myself make me prosaic.

My caricatured heart,
You made,
You put it on display,
Laughed at what you hate,
Yet it was yours anyway.
We got too satire,
A monotonous childish play,
That everyone will eventually execrate.
Nevertheless, don't be ashamed,
Because you're not the only one going through the pain.

As the sun shined through my dismay,
I lie awake at a commonplace,
The continuous mess that I used to numb away,
I'm leaving this abyss of heartaches,
I'll climb 'till I see the light of day.
just some of my final thoughts about my situation before
Mr Quiet Nov 2018
Reminiscing all the times,
You slept on my shoulder and tried to be my side.
Hit me with nostalgic feels,
Because I see only memories when you're coming near.
I never thought this would happen,
I might try to sleep but it's still you stuck in my mind.
Can't help myself.

I don't want to wish to travel to back in time so we can be just friends,
I just hope that we can have better days that we can spend,
But it confuses me because I still want to hate you for what we did,
What I did also makes me want to hate me for what I've been.
And I can't put my emotions aside,
It's who I am,
A kinda funny guy with a poker face but exploding with tears within,
And if I could say one word that describes what I think about you,
I'd just like to say "Feels."

'Cause it feels like I'm alone,
'Cause it feels like you were my home,
'Cause it feels like you took me away,
Now I can't seem to escape,
You really made me feel this way.

Don't think that I'll be acting reckless,
I'm just letting out this mess so I can be myself for once without you making me feel all depressed,
And all hopeless,
I can't help but change my mind every time I think about you 'cause it changes all the time.
Oh NO I hate you,
Oh NOW I love you,
Oh just please keep your distance so I can put everything behind.
Because once you've left,
I felt my heart beat for myself for the first time in awhile.

And I don't want to confirm that I despise you,
Because I know there's a part of me that loves you,
But I hope you don't mind that I bury it away since all that feeling does is make me go insane.
And I really hope you feel the same way,
'Cause I'm losing myself.
And I can't think anymore.
I don't want to feel anymore.
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
Time flies by so fast,
It feels like a heart attack.
Each second I spend with you,
Could inevitably be my last.

But is it ever going to change?
This feeling we have,
Will it last forever?
Even though we know someday we'll stop,
Stop talking and forget our names.

Why can't we just spend our days,
Talking about our life,
Our dreams and our ways.
Or why can't we just spend our nights,
Gazing at the stars,
At the ocean skies,
Beneath the moonlight.

Someday we will change,
Hopefully...


Just not today.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 4/14
Mr Quiet Apr 2019
I found myself sleeping on my life,
A reluctant and dependent soul was I,
I need to learn how to be by my side,
Inside my mind is a beast that's dying to be on the spotlight,
Inside me is more than what you have yet to see with your eyes,
A flower blooming so high it can reach up above the skies.

It took me months just to figure out what I have to decide,
I need to let our memories go because I don't want to live a lie,
Don't want to be anchored down with your voice and your smile,
I need to realize you don't want me anymore and I'm just in denial.

I've got to stop crying and I don't want to whine,
I don't need to drink wine just to get you off my mind,
I can no longer see you in sight,
I now just see the past I have once left behind.

I'm more than a romantic with no other purpose deep inside,
I want to break free and find what I have put aside,
My ambitions and my passions and my goals in my life,
I'll show you my other side.

Good morning, and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!
Inspired by The Truman Show
Mr Quiet Aug 2019
Hold me tight
My memories.
Don't let go
Don't fade away.
Hold me close
Till infinity.
The ending feels so short.

But era's will begin and will end
Is it so bad to make it last
Last for eternity
I don't want you to let go of me

Hold me tight
My memories.
I won't let you fade away.
I'll make you last for infinity.
Even if I know I'm moving away.

Don't say your goodbyes to me
This is not the end
I will walk with all of you
One day again
Don't say goodbye
I know I will cry
One day we'll meet again

So goodbye for now.
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
Waking up,
To just feel all the regrets in my head,
I didn't know where it lead,
Now I'm waiting for the world to end.

Seeing you,
And all the things we used to do.
And remembering what I did to you.
I caused this and now I'm seeing you,
With somebody new.

It's all my fault,
I hurt you and I broke your trust,
We shared our souls and I ripped it apart,
We promised we'd make it and now here we are.
Here we are.

I'm dancing in the darkness to distract my pain and sadness,
And you're probably in your room,
Crying and hoping it'll all end soon.
Oh how I was so stupid and I could've done something,
To prevent all of this from happening,
Now I'm just lying down in silence.
Wishing to travel back in time and make everything alright,
And I know it's just a fantasy but I'd rather dream than waking up and feeling this guilt inside.
This guilt inside.
I broke your heart and now you're feeling "fine".
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I don't want you to cry.
i never thought thought i'd break her heart and now i hate myself more than anybody else.
hm?
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
hm?
But if I loved myself, will I leave me too?
just a thought
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
And how well would you sleep at night, knowing you're the reason why someone wants to die?
Mr Quiet Aug 2018
I could give you the entire universe but then I would just be giving you yourself.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 14/14
My new EP "s e r e n d i p i t y" is out now on Soundcloud! Hope you enjoy it :)) https://soundcloud.com/user-630763630/sets/s-e-r-e-n-d-i-p-i-t-y
Mr Quiet Aug 2018
Suffocating from the hatred you keep giving yourself,
I'm so worried sick about you, don't want you to feel unwell.
Just here trying to make you happy as much as I can,
Yet you always end up depressed,
But **** that,
I'll always love you even after the end.
I'll make sure that you're really fine,
And if not I'll give you a billion reasons why,
Why I'm ******* glad you exist and why I don't want you to die.

Ask me why I care so much about you?
Well you've given me a reason to smile,
You were there for me during my loneliest nights,
And you gave a whole new meaning in my life.
How am I not suppose to love you and hold you tight?
'Cause you were there for me, so I'll always be here for a laugh or a shoulder to cry.

Maybe I care too much,
I don't know,
I don't care.
I'd rather have thoughts of you more than anybody else,
I'm afraid of losing you,
I'm scared.
I fell to fill in your empty heart,
And I knew the risks and consequences I dared.
I care.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 13/14
Mr Quiet Oct 2018
I've been spending all this night alone,
I've been giving all this love to myself,
I hope you're not just on your own,
But I'm still giving all this love to myself.

I could say the thoughts of you in my head my farewell,
I could say I'm alone but I'm still gaining happiness from myself
I'm no longer bothered with the thought of you with someone else,
'Cause my mind is focused on me for once,
I couldn't care less.

So this is my goodbye,
To all the troubling thoughts that entered in my mind,
Don't get me wrong me wrong though,
I don't hate you,
But having you in my head seems to make me upset,
But no more,
Not anymore.

You are not the problem,
It's my head,
I keep making myself sad for pointless reason in the end.
I don't want to blame you and myself,
Mistakes happens even if you are or aren't perfect.

You don't deserve all this hate,
My mind & soul tried to make,
You are just human,
It's okay to have mistakes,
But we're through,
Because I'm not letting me and you,
Do the same things we used to do,
I hated that cycle so it's better if you also try to move.
im gonna stop myself from being pathetic for once
Mr Quiet Dec 2018
How do people expect me to move on if everytime I look at you, all the memories of us punches me in the face.
smh
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
I find myself in the middle of the classroom, surrounded by all my friends, I am quiet.
I find myself in a living room with my family, I am quiet.
But why?
Is it the laziness to speak to others and waste their time over an episode of awkward silences?
The fear of talking about something I am interested in and them disagreeing about it and proceeding into an hour debate and argument?
The awareness that my opinions aren't the same with their's?
The awareness that my opinions doesn't really matter to them because all they want me to be is to be someone that just follows along in their rules and their humor and their interest and will instantly brush me off if my opinions doesn't go with their's?

I live in fear of the consequences of my thoughts that is in need of a voice outside of my skull, thoughts that were meant to be talked about and acknowledged yet it is now belittled and pushed away.
I live in a world of blasphemous people and hypocrites, claiming that they welcome everyone, accepting of all voices and people, but I have seen their true faces and their hidden smirks behind their fake compliments.

I am not quiet but I am cautious.
Introverts are not flaws but are a result of a loud society, unacccepting of voices that doesn't compliment their thoughts.
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
Deep into her wounds
She has never found herself
Nor will any man
But only pain will free her
She said to herself
another haiku.
My new EP "s e r e n d i p i t y" is out now on Soundcloud! Hope you enjoy it :)) https://soundcloud.com/user-630763630/sets/s-e-r-e-n-d-i-p-i-t-y
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
I just want to be an adult.

I don't want to pay taxes.
I don't want to pay bills.
I don't want to book my own appointments.
I don't want to buy my own pills.

I just want to be an adult.

I don't want to pay rent.
I don't want a 9 to 5 job.
I just want my parent's money.
'Cause I don't know how to apply for a job.
I don't want my own kids.
I don't want responsibilities.
I don't want to do groceries.
I just want to do as I will.

I just want to be an adult.
can I be an actual 9 year old again? those were peaceful times.
Mr Quiet Apr 2019
Wala,
Walang magpapalit sa mahal ko sayo.
Naalala,
Naalala ko yung bata pa ako,
Maliit at masaya,
Englishero pa,
Pero naalala ko yung mga panahon na lumalambing lang ako sayo.

Lola,
Ala mo ba na mahal kita?
Kahit na,
Nakatira na ako sa ibang bansa,
Kahit hindi na tayo nagkikita,
Alam ko naman kung saan ka nakatira,
Sa loob ng puso ko.

Mahal kita
Bbmaj7, Dm7, D#maj7, F7
Mr Quiet Apr 2019
Matanda'ng katawan pero malaki and puso,
Tahimik lang,
Masayahin pa.
Walang ginawang mali sa aking kabataan,
Bumabasa lang ng kanyang Biblia.

Lumilipas na ang oras niya,
Pero wala siyang pakealam.

Lolo,
Marami akong natutunan sayo,
Kahit hindi ka nagsasalita,
Kahit tahimik ka lang sa sopa.
Lolo,
Alamin mo lang ito,
Na influencia mo ako nung bata pa'ko,
At dahil doon,
Marami akong respeto sayo.

Walang galit ngunit ako'y maingay,
Madaldal na bata pero ika'y walang problema.
Kahit mahirap and iyong buhay,
Ngumingiti kapa at tumatawa,
Kasi katabi mo ang Diyos kahit kung saan ka lumalakbay.
G, C, D.
Em, D, C.
Am, Em, D.
Inspired by : Sweet Creature
Mr Quiet Jul 2018
Hold on to me.
I cannot even bare the thought of losing you,
For you are already a part of me,
You are the sole purpose of why my heart beats.

Loving words,
Caring heart,
Breathtaking presence,
You tear me apart.
You love me so much,
As I also love you,
No words can measure the weight of my heart.
Where do I even start?

I'll always remember those times,
When we kept talking about our lives,
We talked and talked 'till past midnight,
We talked and we felt love inside.

You were there for me,
At my loneliest times,
During those depressing nights.
I thought no one would be that nice,
But then you proved me wrong,
And held me tight.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 12/14
Mr Quiet May 2019
Stayed up late to see your face
I hid behind the door
You'd pretend to be shocked
Even if I've done it a million times before

So many familiar faces
Yet I could spot you for miles
You're the only person
That can make my nightmares smile


I'll close my eyes
If I ever feel alone
Then I'll fantasize
About when I was 8 years old
And you would hold me close
To your side
I know I'm not alone
Then I open my eyes
I know I'll be alright

Remembered those times you always came home with a surprise
You know me so well you bought me Jollibee gravies with fries
I knew you'd be the best mom I will have ever since I was a child
Yes I was dumb but atleast I knew you were mine
This lovely mother of mine
Am, Em, Cmaj7, Gmaj7, D
Man
Mr Quiet Apr 2019
Man
An introspective voice within my mind have made me who I am today and in these days it gets harder to adapt and understand what our society and normality keeps spooning in our hats which overweight our minds to execrate what we can't understand.

In life we know we can't always have what we desire but despite the feeling of envy we should respect others and be inspired by their wealth and health to lead us into better paths of life which is only handed once so why not use it to help the tired and homeless and also the hopeless who you see at school but don't know they cut their wrists when they're alone in their room.

Sometimes you gotta realize depression exists, not only through shows that makes it look so legit and cool which we should not tolerate and we should put a stop to this, mental illness ain't a trend or an aesthetic and now its making me ******, I can see your IG stories, stop glorifying the things that made people cancel their existence. And so many people have gone through this, through anxiety and therapy and medication, and it don't help them if they were born with homosexuality 'cause their parents are part of the reality that they'll kick you out or beat you down if you were LGBT and I'm sick of all that nonsense if you're a Christian just like me, if you believed that God is love then why are they facing inhumanity.

I'm so sick all you Christians acting like the Pharisees,
Claiming you worship the God of love and then go curse the LGBT,
You really are a homophobic, hypocritical, narrow minded freak,
Go ahead and spread the Gospel even if you can't act what you believe in,
And please do read Romans 12 if it's the truth you wanna seek,
'Cause after all your lies, love should be without hypocrisy.

I'm just saying, I'm sick of society and all the hopeless things that they have done to me. I'm a slave for money and to the economy yet I know deep inside none of it benefit me or my dreams. But I won't care, nobody will mind 'cause I'm just another one of your "typical" guys so who am I to say such things like "love yourself" and "spread peace" when the world makes arrogance and ignorance its centerpiece.

Be kind, work hard, have respect and be decent.
How is that so hard for people especially to those who believe in God who's love and the model of perfection and correction and is supposed to teach aggresion is wrong but they keep raising their banners saying "HELL TO THE GAYS" and all that we can do is pray for better days.

But I won't take it anymore I'll use my voice as fire, hitting every ears that hears me and hope that this will inspires to make them think and make them realize the truth of the liars, the world is far from perfect but it can be decent if we tried harder. Man...
man...
m e
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
m e
I am still depressed but there's no need to hide,
Atleast now I know the real reason to survive.

I hear the clock move forward and it mocks my postponed life,
My ears will bleed knowing that all it hears is the success of all my friends lives.
I wish I could stop doing nothing but what can I improve?
When breathing becomes exhausting and my mind gets bored of everything I used to do.

I know I'm not living in black and white,
I can see all the colors and all the light,
I can feel the heat of the sun in the day,
I can say I'm happy a million times but I know that's not the case.

Why can't I smile?
I can rearrange the muscles of my face but that doesn't define,
The true serenity that my soul left behind.
I feel as if my life has given me nothing to satisfy me.
I feel as if I'm alive just to unsatisfy me.


I breathe with boredom
Inhale exhaustion
And always feel the weight of my eyelids.
I know I'm hollow,
My motivation's shallow,
But I'm still curious if I will live to feel,
What the chemicals in my brain forbids.

I am still depressed but there's no need to hide,
Atleast now I know the real reason to survive.
Mr Quiet Aug 2019
It all started to hit me, all those faded and unnoticed memories that I would have never thought would come back to my consciousness. Sometimes life could happen to you in a blink of an eye, in a glimmer of a star, in a flicker of a street light, and you wouldn't even have the time to comprehend it all.

Five years. Five long, outrageous, adventurous, painful and beautiful years of my life was spent in this place. A place that I never thought would eventually be calling home.

When I knew that in just a short amount of time I would leave my newly found home, newly found friends, there was a moment that all my emotions was crumpled together like a forming blackhole. It was one of the first times where I had absolutely no idea how I was feeling in me. Sadness, relief, happiness, anger, hollowness, it all felt the same to me.

It took me awhile to understand where I was in my life. I was in an intersection. An intersection between two different chapters, eras and paths of my life. I never thought that the day would come. But it did. And now I finally understand it all.

Thank you. To everyone I met, everyone I loved, everyone I hated. We'll meet again soon one day eventually, so just for right now, goodbye;
from a short film i made of the same title
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvuJIMsArgU&t=4s
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
You and I,
Need to make you realize,
The worth in your life.

You are loved,
And I love you.

Trust me,
You don't want to die.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 6/14
Mr Quiet Feb 2019
Dying romantically over a bridge,
Taking snaps on our phones as we cut our wrists,
Let's go make fun of all the suicidal kids,
Mental illness is the trend,
Let's make money out of this.

Post tweets.
Tell them about you wanting to end your life.
Click. Send.
Now lets brag about how many people retweet and like.
IG stories.
The highlights of the night,
Show them your depression.
Then delete before sunrise,
Pics of sad poems,
Then pics of memes,
#relatable, right?

We're like a sponge filled with heavy solemness,
As we sqeeze our anxieties and drink our stress,
We all use drugs to treat our mess,
But we ain't redeemed yet,
Sweet Jesus, please make the pain less.

Drink out of misery,
It all turns out fine,
The first thirty minutes will be heaven for your mind,
Enjoy what is left,
Ignore and leave your problems behind,
They'll come back for sure but atleast you had a hell of a time.

Put the chemicals in,
Snort the*******,
If you're not gonna shoot in your school,
Atleast destroy your brain.
Put the chemicals in,
Enjoy what is left of your sanity.
Crystal ****.
Amphetamine.
A minor inconvenience that leads your death into ambiguity.

Our insecurities has never been more expressed or shown,
From all the popular kids with all their Gucci clothes,
Go ahead, make money out of the things that you don't know.
Go ahead, make money out of us since we're the joke.

We are the joke.
kids don't want rifles, they want Supreme.
Mr Quiet Sep 2018
I don't want to be sad when I look at you,
But the fact that the world just wants us to be two,
It gives me gloom,
And I know it makes you depressed too.
I just want to lay on the grass,
While we look into the moon.

We can't change our fate,
Unfortunately,
A day will come where you won't have me.
A day where we say our goodbyes and be,
Drama queens.
Please don't cry on that day,
Because it hurts just as much,
As when I see you leave.

Oh, please don't cry...

Just cheer up,
Oh, please cheer up for me.
Oh, please don't cry,
Don't cry when you see me leave.

I'll always be there when you look into the moon,
Because by then,
You'll just be....

Looking at me too.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 4/8
Mr Quiet Jul 2019
Hi. How are you? Are you still holding on well? We probably haven't spoken in quite a long time, well it depends on how long I've been keeping this note. Today is June 25, 2018 and surprisingly I haven't grown tired of you yet. Shocking though, I thought you were extremely annoying back then and yet now I cannot even imagine a day where you don't send me a message or a dank meme or especially a vine that I have yet to see. Pretty weird, right?

I'm writing this letter so that one day, in the vast future that scares both of us to death, I'll find it and give it to you as a hell of a throwback. Well there is a possibility that it could work... or I could totally forget about this note in a week and never see it again.
WE SHALL SEE!!!

But for now, I'm just gonna say and ask a few things to you that I've been wondering alot lately. Are you actually fine now? You're the worst liar I know and that "i'm fine" crap that you keep blatantly saying to me is kinda making me worried. Are you still sending me those vines??? 'Cause if not then I'm probably going to miss out on alot of hidden references and that would be a disappointment. Are we still keeping that stupid pinky promise? I understand if one day you're going to break it, believe me I know how tough life can be sometimes, but I really hope whether you decide to keep it or not, you'll still wake up breathing and have something to live for, even just the tiniest bit of reason to live I hope you'll still have.

Are we even still even friends? It's strange to ask that because we're like super close at the moment and we're "bEsT FriEnDs" but I hope we still talk to each other alot when you read this. Do we still hang out in the cafeteria at the balcony? Am I still sitting on that same spot beside the door (****)?  How's your family? I hope things really do get better with all that's going on right now that I don't know in your life.

Welp this note is getting long so I'll end it with this. No matter what will happen in the future, I hope you read this and know that I care about you. I'll always be beside you and will always want to help you with whatever you're dealing with. I know I can be extremely annoying and who knows maybe I'll be abit clingy (i sure hope to god I won't) and will be a complete ******* to you and for that I'm so sorry. Istg if one day I'll be a bad person to you and not treat you like a human then I hope you beat my *** infinite amount of times 'cause I deserve that. Anyway, I hope non of that ever happens and that we'll still be friends and will still be talking to each other. Always remember that you are valid and loved and you're not who your anxieties tell you to be.

Your stupid filipino dude,
Dave
Found this in the deepest part of my closet as I was packing a few days before I leave Indonesia. Decided to post it here.
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
"**** politics, lets do some dancing."
- Matty Healy
i love him so much
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
Ever since you left me,
Been watching Youtube lately,
Been watching Netlfix shows,
BoJack's on,
If you don't mind I'd rather be alone.
There's no need to stalk me,
All I do is love me,
Play that Joji song,
Lights off,
I don't care I'll be dancing on my own.


Ever since you've gone away,
My life has been so fun.
Now I'm here all alone,
But I don't really mind at all.

Just to think,
I'll be sad,
Crying on my bed,
And to think,
You'll come back.

I've been fooled,
I've been played,
So hard but I will always re-spawn.
I'm alone,
I'm a joke,
But at least I can make me laugh.

Ever since you left me,
Been watching more movies lately,
Been watching Endgame nonstop,
Go ahead and laugh 'cause I'm a joke.
There's no need to stalk me,
'Cause all I do is love me,
Play that Joji song,
We used to dance along,
Nvm i'll dance on my own.

I just think I overthink about you too much before,
Now I'm free and I'm still me,
Looking at spicy memes and watching pewds because his content is galore.
this is just a lyric to a song i'm making hehe
Mr Quiet Aug 2019
Does it hurt? Loving someone you will never meet?
And i oop-
Mr Quiet Jul 2018
She has a pretty low self-esteem,
"Talentless and disappointing",
She said to me.
She hates herself for what she has become,
For she lost herself when she tried to care so much,
It broke her heart.

Now she blames herself for everything,
And hates it when I try to be,
So nice,
So kind,
Because she knows I'll take the blame for her every time.
And it's not like she even did anything wrong,
And to be honest she's hiding the fact that it's all my fault,
Because she doesn't want to lose me,
Yet she's losing herself for me.
Please love yourself, at least, for me.

She loves to paint her mind in black,
Just as she also paints her words in lilac ,
Although as she tries to drown in her lies,
Her heart's getting too heavy that she'll have a cardiac attack.

Though if only you could see,
How much you mean the world to me,
Your existence is more worth it than you said it to be.
So when you say you're always ******* yourself,
I can give you a list of why and how that's *******,
I'll give you a list why you make me feel,
So happy.
When You Used To Call Me Mine
Part 10/14
Mr Quiet Mar 2019
Your life hurts and I can't save you,
And I feel like hell for promising better days,
You're depressed and I'd I hate to hate you,
I know my love won't fix you so I prayed.

I tried, I tried and I tried.
But you still cry, cry, cry and cry.

I feel so selfish for leaving you,
I knew you were hurt and broken.
I knew you had family issues,
And then I made you not believe in love again.

Promises were broken,
We were going down,
We knew where we're going,
I guess we're both criminals,
And victims at the same time,
We were both too young,
But deep inside I know it was my fault all along.

Please forget me.
Mr Quiet Jun 2019
I've come so far
Bent down to the stars
Hoping they'll release
The peace of it's heart

I've fallen down
Like the leaves from the branches
Will I wither on the ground?
Will You not help me up now?

'Cause if I stay
Will You calm me down?
And when I awake from this night
Will I still feel the incompleteness of my life?
Will I still feel this heavy heart of mine?
'Cause if I stay?
Can you shed me a light?
If I stay.

I'm lying down on my bed
I've been lying to my friends
I want to see them happy even if I got no emotions left
So I lay on my bed
Weeping from exhaustion
Waiting for an end
End of this distress
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