I forgive myself for that weak moment.
When I wanted nothing more than to decieve you, to hurt you.

I forgive myself, cause I didn't.

I forgive you for your lack of words, for your absence.
Cause deep down I know.

I'm sorry that I even have to be sorry..

"You can talk to us"
They say

Duct tape in
Hand.

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

I've had a cold
For a week

I got mad at my body,
"Why dont you just heal yourself or die at this point?!"

I realized
I've been saying the same thing

To my mind
For years.

i wish i could get you
out of my head;
but how does one forget a love
so sweet it
left a touch of sugar
on the tongue


sometimes the simplest
most innocent things
become so beautiful.  

i left behind your ocean
hued eyes and found
myself in the arms of a new
kind of love.
i guess i didn’t want to feel
any more rooted than
i already was.

lately i’ve been catching myself
reminiscing about little moments
without looking at the big picture.
i see the blue ocean tint in my
rear view mirror,
although leaving is bittersweet
it’s best we go our separate ways
explore, grow, learn
maybe we’ll meet again some day.

For Valentine,
I gave my wife,
A plain 14ct gold ring.
It was gift wrapped in a diamond
box from Blue Nile,
I ended up in hospital,
Black eyed, unable to see her emotions.

Dated a fool once
Made me fall in love
I believed he was
An angel sent from above

He might have been
For someone besides me
Left the day before
The date of our first anniversary

Time was going to **** us
As does nearly everything
I knew that at the time
It didn't stop the sting

This girl I became
Because what you said
Was reluctant and hollow inside
Emotionally but not physically dead

You are born with loneliness
But when you find
Someone to hold hands with
It is hard to break the bind

Things that were good
Now are not there at all
Spinning down, down, down
You are why I fall