Its sad how a daughter can tell if her dad is going to be mean that day or not. By the way he stands. Or talks. Or eats. It's sad that she had to memorize the cycle of his good days and his bad so she could know when to make plans to get out of the house again. It's sad that she can't tell him she loves him on those days or she'll get yelled at. It's sad that her dad became the monster she didn't want to know.
What happened? What happened to the society we used to have? What happened to lovers still being lovers til the end? What happened to having fun without it being illegal? What happened to the only hurt we had was falling down when running while playing hide and seek? What happened to the smiles not being fake? What happened to finger panting? What happened to everyone getting to live who they want without being terrorized? What happened to society loving everyone equally, not just to the extent of their race? What happened to girls getting to love themselves before others? What happened to girls being called beautiful and lovely, not ***** and ****? What happened to boys being called handsome and sweet, not ***? What happened to boys getting to be Mommas Boys without being called a loser? What happened to the world we grew up in? What happened to us wanting to grow up? Oh yea... Society changed the world, our perspective, and us.
Anxiety is not a friend you want at your door giving you a high five and is excited to spend the night. Anxiety is that skin scratching, pencil tapping, binge eating friend that appears like snow on a summer day. It comes out of nowhere. And sometimes you know you're about to start breathing heavily and wanting to lie down. It's the feeling you get when the love of your life says "Can we talk?" when you lay in bed and you hear sounds when you're in the hospital room and someone comes out with tears in their eyes towards you. Anxiety is not that Christmas present you've been wanting all year...
have you ever loved someone so much you'd take a bullet for them? do anything for them? die for them? well sometimes you turn out like Bruno Mars and they won't do the same for ya. or maybe... they would. sometimes us as people give others our hearts without even acknowledging that they could throw it away in seconds. Some of us think they would never do that to us. And some of us just don't think at all. Be careful who you give your heart to...otherwise you'll end up on the bathroom floor, crying your eyes out and hurt.