How do I begin to tell you, you no longer have my heart.
We both know it, we've been torn apart.
It's unfair of me to stay, I can see I'm causing you pain.
It doesn't matter what you say, my minds made up I'm walking away.
The old cliche it's not you it's me.
All I ask is that you believe me one last time, for all the years that you were mine.
It's not going to work out and you are being blind.
All I can say is I'm sorry I've made up my mind.
I hope you find someone New, who will love you like I used to.
Yes grief is hard and it's a pain we all know.
but How do you begin to grieve for someone that you haven't lost, who is still here physically.
That is also one of the hardest things we have to endure.
I don't think my heart can take it anymore.
To see you and act like I'm not broken and that you haven't torn my heart wide open.
It's me that needs to grieve, for the girl that I used to be.
Nobody is perfect, because perfect doesn't exist.
I have many flaws and I am trying to embrace them.
Trying to ignore the haters and turn around and face them.
They aren't better than you or Me, I just needed to open my eyes to see.
I am stronger than all the things I have overcome and in that sense i have already won.
They say that insecurities are loud and that is true.
Yet all my insecurities were always down to you.
So watch me bring you to your knees it's only me I need to learn to please.
I'm standing here by your grave, as the tears slide down my face.
I know you are watching over Me, it's still not the same as having you next to me.
I don't know how others have managed to let Go.
Will I ever be able to i don't know.
You've missed watching my son grow.
I hope that you would be proud of the perfect man he's turning out to be.
All thanks to You and what you instilled in me.
We sit and look at your picture and talk about who you are.
We look for you in every single star.
If I let you go, will I remember how much you loved me so.
All of the places we used to go, the things we've done and still had to do.
The things I now do without you.
Every day, month or year that passes by doesn't stop the tears that I now cry.
Don't hide away in the dark, let the world see you shine bright.
We all need a little light, even though it can be a little hard to see.
There are better things waiting for you and me.
Somebody you have not met, is waiting to love you.
Love you in unimaginable ways, trust me there will always be better days.
My body is my journal, the tattoos are the ink.
So take the time to get to read my story.
They show that I have lived.
Time passes, but nothing has changed.
I still sit here waiting until I can see you again.
I feel every ounce of pain, I relive those moments.
The moments when you left, that fateful day that left me so bereft.
There are days when the sun can penetrate my icy exterior so I once again feel its warmth.
Then there are other days were I'm as cold and dark as winter.
They say time is a healer but time has slipped through my fingers and yet nothing has changed.