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Jun 2021 · 119
Acoustic Feelings
Patty P Jun 2021
I fall apart....
not wanting to pick myself up for the billionth time.
i'm fed up by all of it.
i lay in a puddle of me,
not feeling any part of me...anymore.
Most nights i'm  being consumed by the memory of you, and lately I try to fight aganist it, but it feels like i'm swiming against currents, making me tumble underneath and drown.
Love fell over me and i fell head over heels for it.
I was drugged by it, and became a hopeless addict.
you took everything i had.
i gave you my heart, & body to cherish, to love it, to respect it.
In return, you made me feel like nothing.
it all meant **** to you.
what did all those nights meant to you?
those times when i gave myself entirely to you,
Was any of it real?
Did you ever felt the way i did?
i hate you
i hate that i still dream with you
i hate it all and you!
i wish i could forget you ...
Jun 2021 · 291
recollection
Patty P Jun 2021
we loved each other like we never did...
it was like we never happened.
*
Come se non fosse stato mai amore
Mar 2021 · 421
Unraveling Alter Tones
Patty P Mar 2021
Her eyes were filled with emptiness when she looked at him
no hint of any love left
she was done with all his lies
she cut them with a butcher knife
setting them aside

she was done with her too.
but she'll get hers real soon.

she twisted the knife
while smiling at them
she won't return
she won't be there anymore
she would leave them there to bleed out,
until there isn't left to mourn.

but the menacing voices hanuted her.
everywhere she looked
it was just fragmnets of memories being dragged away by past ghosts.

she would close her eyes, dying everytime.
imaging visions that would consume her.
her hunger for vengence, for revenge, ate her alive.

she was seen standing amongst the shadows,
watching those cowards suffer...
at every hour, she grew darker and darker...

the creature rosed up besides her and whispered,
"when do we begin" it hissed, as it tucked a lock of black hair behind her ear.
she smiled "whenever you are ready my king"
......
hope you enjoy!  ;-)
Nov 2020 · 130
ǝɹnʇɐǝɹɔ
Patty P Nov 2020
𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓼 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓶𝔂
Nov 2020 · 99
Creature
Patty P Nov 2020
I rose, just to watch you fall.
Some would say, I am filled with darkness,
that's because nothing compells me to feel anything.
I turn to watch a black haired beauty walking down the hall, making her way to me...she whispered to me...
"I will return, Creator. I will return to you. One day, one night... I will show you the monster you have made."
through the reflection of the mirror, she smiled wickedly. as she disappeared, leaving me in an ocean of sweat and nervousness.

all I whispered was


" what have I done?"


.
Aug 2020 · 109
Whiskey confessions
Patty P Aug 2020
In between drinks he whispered,
“I just know, if you’re ever going to leave me, look me in the eyes and  just rip my heart out.” You said to me with your whiskey flavored breath.
-Close encounters
Jun 2020 · 183
1111
Patty P Jun 2020
I trust the next chapter, because I know thee author.
Jun 2020 · 78
A broken spirit
Patty P Jun 2020
The silence is killing me
gathering the elements
but its hard to breathe.
steer away
the crow and hour
the voices are getting louder.

stuck at home, with no where to go.
I'm gone, please pick me up off the floor.
mend my heart.
I've had enough.
because, I fell right  from the start.

only the bravest, get in my way.
you spoke the words '' saying that your gonna stay."
but you never did so I backed away, fell backwards and spiraled into a dark, dark cave.
Jun 2020 · 70
'Astro-Dreamin'
Patty P Jun 2020
No dreams
it's a glacial glow.
fell down through a river hole.
pink sunsets, candies, and lullabies,
Rituals and trials, say your goodbyes.

Another dark hour
fills up my day.
Touch my heart,
it's made out of clay.

Astro travel
a glacial wave,
my ideas are filled with rays.
Silver and gold
heart made of stone.

No dreams
I'm fighting sleep.
I cut you off
because you went,
into deep.
I saw and felt my body flaoting away.... into the further I go!
Patty P Jun 2020
You light up my soul
Setting it, burning ablaze,
with fiery flames
Consuming me….

You’re the hunter of my dreams
Chasing away those shadows
Clearing the way, eliminating the battle.

I think of you day and night
Wishing you were by my side.
Your name lights me up like Venus.
I’d wish you knew that.

Last night, I told the moon about you,
And the stars laughed, and the clouds huddle all together.
I told them how special you are to me.
I told them the moment I fell in love with you.

I know he probably doesn’t know how I feel.
Because I’m so guarded with my heart.
I’m good at hiding my emotions..
So I know he must be confused as hell.
But I wish he knew how I really feel about him.

The beauty of it all, even if, he might not feel the same way…
My heart flutters and butterflies invade my insides
And my cheeks turn rosy red, and my dimples make an appearance on my face. But that lingering smile, of mine…stays there, his souvenir to me. A token of happiness, a kiss to my heart from his….

Somehow that night the blacked haired beauty feel asleep, under the vigilance of the moon.
it all explains by itself.
Patty P May 2020
Were they even dreams? I felt the sand between my toes. I whispered my hellos, and carried your seed.
But you made my heart bleed. All I needed to do, was breathe. Everything for the baby. You came back with an apology and some daises. Baby you’re crazy.
It’s been your mood lately.
So I go on walks and feel you trail behind me.
Now you act so kindly.  
If I were to leave you, you would find me…..
Feb 2020 · 158
Amor
Patty P Feb 2020
y ella se cayo
se fue cayiendo en la profundidad de su amor.
ciega y sorda,
solo la vista de el.
su amor era como el mar,
la ogaba ola tras ola
sin respiraccion.

Ella se dejo consumir.
a ella se le conmieron el corazón.
y ahora esta vacía.
ella dio cada onza de gota de ella.
pero ni el la pudo atraparla.
a el se le fue.
mientras caida,
ella cayo en las tinieblas.

solo voces y luces de siluhuetas miraban.

Unos anos despues...

ella lo conocio
de nuevo, pero en otro cuerpo,
en otra cara,
en otra alma.
en un lugar donde nacio ese nuevo amor.
y de nuevo pero diferente....comenso.
pero esta vez...
ella no lo sabe todavia..
pero el es su alma gemela.
su otro pedazo de corazón.
Feb 2020 · 109
J<3<3M
Patty P Feb 2020
when I'm with you,
the weight of love
lays heavily on my mind.
it lays heavy on my heart.
the words feel like pouring out of my mouth.
this is directly written to you J.
Hahaha
May 2019 · 546
Sol
Patty P May 2019
Sol
The sun is alone too

But it still shines all by itself.
May 2019 · 1.5k
Reality
Patty P May 2019
The thing about relationships is that
They only look prettier on the outside.
Feb 2019 · 585
Chemistry
Patty P Feb 2019
They watched eachother like no one else was in the room with them
Jan 2019 · 208
milestone...
Patty P Jan 2019
i've been in a love/hate relationship with myself for the past 25 years...
Jan 2019 · 1.9k
selfcare
Patty P Jan 2019
scars on her body.
skin isn't clear,
stretch marks,
discoloring,
roaming eyes, they peer,
it's not perfect.
still, she covers up,
layers of clothes,
to hide away the imperfections
that many other girls
show off in mid-sections.

black veils
black everything,
so they won't know.
years of years of self inflicted damage
don't worry sweetie cover it up with a bow.
As a women, learning to value, care, and love yourself, is a must!
Jan 2019 · 335
A...
Patty P Jan 2019
Beautiful women on the outside
But twisted on the inside.
#me
Dec 2018 · 3.9k
Confession
Patty P Dec 2018
I’m scared to let Love In.
Nov 2018 · 488
riddle
Patty P Nov 2018
a kiss
sealed lips.
sunset; streamy fountains
the girl, the boy
the love.

Shakespeare's essence
magnifying the words, bring meaning and volatile to youthful emotions!

Venus's stigmatic traps
the viewing art of love making.

unforgettable sins that took place in its current state.
no regrets

how could he ever save her from the devil its self?

this is why the sun and moon never sleep.

one of the them always needs to keep an eyeful on the other one.
let's see if anyone understands this riddle....
Aug 2018 · 1.4k
affair; side one
Patty P Aug 2018
These Saturn stones
          filled up your bones.
                     the quiet moon, gently cries.
                                the sun's many liabilities.
                                        your lies soar like spirit wings
                                                how you've fed your lies onto this ring.
                                                  the seeds burst into the earth's ground
                                                          ­       let me hear your inner sounds.
                                                         ­             i want to see the sprouts
                                                                ­            for i...
                                                            ­                   will in doubt.
                                                          ­                        can't wait until
                                                                ­                        you start.
a poem from "the affair series".
Aug 2018 · 399
Affair.
Patty P Aug 2018
i never view it the same.
it's just quiet.
i simply closed my eyes.
and wait to feel what he makes me feel.
forbidden lust.
an act of sin.
a betrayal of a old friend,
a good ******.
he penetrates,
then sends me ascending to hell.
a
w
       i
          l  
             d
        r
               i
                     d
                            e.
without any stops.
but i can't get enough.
it
e
   a
        t
           s
at my brain.
and i'm
uns
        t
             a
                    b
                          l
                                 e.
During dinner, his hand restfully lays on my thigh, caressing me back & forth.
my body itches and warms up to his touch against my skin.
At the slightest touch of his hand toying with me,
i disintegrated.
my mind is fixated at his contact.
he plays with me underneath the family table.
as the evening progresses, they continue their conversation.
my r                                          his                                  r
             i                          &                                      i
                    n                                                 n
                               g                              g
weights down on our respectfully spoken matrimonial status.
leaving us with the wrath of guilt.

Each time, we swear
it'll be the last time.
but we're both liars of the conscious mind.
we come back to it, giving in
falling in deep
trapping ourselves more into the  further.
we are consumed by each other.

i want more then what is given....
this is the affair of a forbidden couple.....


to be continued.....
love has no absolute control. the heart wants what it wants, and the brain is a guilty partner in crime.....
the affair series
Jul 2018 · 1.4k
.
Patty P Jul 2018
.
He was the weeds
                                            standing next to a Rose.
                                                           ­                           @)--'--,---
    
                     ­                                                                @)--'---,----
Opposites attract
Jul 2018 · 1.4k
Snippet
Patty P Jul 2018
a snippet of a memory
still tries to pick lock my thoughts.
leaving me with a jealous sea of unwanted, played emotions.
it's all a paradox.
a senseless act.
its like a bipolar mechanism that my mind plays and sets to record.
there's nothing more than what I extremely hate on those memories, or what i like to call them. "the hurtful files".
why does my brain punish me this way, no matter what i do, they always find ways to come back, like magnets.
Jul 2018 · 2.0k
Au revoir
Patty P Jul 2018
The planes in the sky look dwarf size, compare to the large skies.
Swallowing the blue atheist clouds
all spotless
as the ocean sparkles, flirting with the blazing sun, flirting with sailing ships as they smoothly take their leave.
Hypnotizing the captains onto their long journey on this massive 70% part of water they are on.
they are seen somewhere along the lines of the horizon
in the Atlantic ocean leaving with the sun at 7:52 PM  with 17 seconds.
The black haired beauty is seen, with a beige round hat wearing a long black dress, fleeing into the black hole sun.

                     ***************                 
­Les avions dans le ciel ressemblent à la taille des nains, comparés aux grands cieux.
Avaler les nuages ​​athées bleus
tout impeccable
alors que l'océan scintille, flirtant avec le soleil flamboyant, flirtant avec des voiliers alors qu'ils partent tranquillement.
Hypnotiser les capitaines sur leur long voyage sur cette énorme partie de soixante dix pour cent d'eau qu'ils sont.
ils sont vus quelque part le long des lignes de l'horizon
dans l'océan Atlantique laissant au soleil à 19h52 avec 17 secondes.
On voit la beauté aux cheveux noirs, avec un chapeau rond beige portant une longue robe noire, fuyant dans le soleil du trou noir.
Jul 2018 · 517
Cancer
Patty P Jul 2018

Under the cancer star
i wish you well.
under the cancer moon,
i bid you adieu.
under the cancer sun,
you better run.

*********
*Debajo de la estrella del cáncer
te deseo lo mejor.
debajo de la luna del cáncer,
Te digo adiós.
debajo de la estrella del cáncer,
ama a dios.
May 2018 · 2.0k
with love, from patty
Patty P May 2018
my own happiness is me

i make myself happy.

no one relys on my mood.

it's all me.

i'm my own partner

my own soulmate.

i celebrate me.

i don't need a man to complete me.

i complete myself.

i choose myself over anyone.

i am enough.

i love me.
Apr 2018 · 378
Drunk
Patty P Apr 2018
I walked stumbling around in this city, that's still awake.
mumbling my poetry out to the moon.
with the star lights mocking me, laughing at me, while i drool.
mixed faces.
twisted minds.
the sun is gone.
I found a pond.
dizzy and unstable.
believe it or not.
evil world.
it's hard to sleep.
the fog.
the quiet.
it all repeats.
the strange boy's breath on my neck, hot and heavy
can't think straight.
a long sad epilogue to my virginity.
faith has a way, been keeping score.
track your games and i'll track mines.
don't show your face, cause i don't wanna see it.
makes me sick, makes me wanna die.
like they say, I don't **** with you anymore.
so don't come back for more.
Emotional word full poem. Hope you  all catch the meaning behind it.
Mar 2018 · 523
The Quiet
Patty P Mar 2018
the sounds we make
the sounds i hear
the waves of the sounds
prolongs in my whisky ear
the quiet in my living room
is my favorite of them all.
red glasses peak from the tops of the book covering the black haired beauty's face.
tiny flips of the pages is heard, from inside the study of hers...
long night it was, the hours mocking at her,
as she signed throughout the night.
tired, and heart broken.
with all of that
she felt overwhelmed.
every memory she remembered
of him.
it hurt.
but the quiet was driving her insane.
he isn't communicating as much...
it doesn't feel right
something is off, with him.
she holds her book as she tosses it to the side
hearing it slide across the wooden floors, eventually stopping
against the wall.
it was the quiet
the space between them both.
what is happening?" she questioned in her mind.
she got up, kicking off the covers onto the floor
she paced her study, rubbing the temples of her head.
back and forth
is the how she illustrated her thoughts.
uncanny and apprehensive describe her issue with him.
but the quiet
where was her music?
where was her sound?
who muted her?
who took her words away?
who took her voice away?
.............................................
it was the quiet.

— The End —