There are days when she calls
And I just don't wanna talk
There are days when I wanna talk
but she doesn't
I just realized maybe she gets tired too

Tired of being a mom

They love to see you cry,
They would sing praises for you
and jump around with joy.
But only until their thirst is quenched
and belly is filled.

They all pretend to love your tears,
Until the moment they realize
you aren't gonna stop soon.
Why are you crying, They would ask,
Don't you know your tears bring us pain?

When your tears overflow,
They would curse you out for your existence.
Some would beg the heavens above to make you stop,
Some would cry along with you,
Clever ones find a way to sell the pain you caused.

And if you suddenly decide to stop crying forever,
When you realize its not worth wasting your tears,
You will still be cursed.
You will be condemned for the attitude you put up,
You will be criticized for the lives that you destroyed.

Still there will be some,
Who would try to please the Gods to see your tears,
Who would make news out of your unshed tears.
Lives are lost either way,
You will be blamed either way.

You can choose a middle ground,
Cry until when you are needed to
and then stop when they ask you to.
But the tears are yours alone,
So should be right to decide.

Oh dear world, hear me preach!
You asked me what are we, Let me tell you
There isn't a word that can summarize us
We are best friends,
We fight together, dance together, party together, play together
We steal glances, the world becomes air when we are together ,we hug, we steal kisses too,
Friends don't do that,
But we aren't just friends,
You aren't just a boyfriend too
We aren't just a gay couple like the world calls us,
We are each other's best partner, each other's home and comfort,
Each other's everything
Now tell me a word that explains it all
I couldn't find one in the dictionary
So we would rather remain in a no definition-relation
Than one which doesn't do justice to it

A walking disaster,
I was named
From birth, it's all I ever heard
They feared being with me
What if I pull them all down with me, Cause of this cursed luck of mine?
Anyone who ever came near said the same

You were the first who asked,
"Will you ever be you if you changed",
Instead of the usual words they threw at me, that cut straight through my heart
You bandaged that bleeding heart and held it tight,
Within your strong embrace

With you I was no longer a disaster
You told me I am so much more
Than what they all ever said
If that's true, then why did you leave me too?
Was my bad luck too much to bear, that you had to runaway from me without even saying a goodbye?
Didn't I deserve a goodbye from you atleast?

I belive we were meant to meet
If not today then tomorrow
If not this week then next week
If not this month then next month
If not this year then next year
And so on....
But someday somewhere we were meant to meet.
Meant to be each other's comfort
Destined to be each other's best
Made to be each other's forever.

Miss your hugs
Miss your touches
Miss your consolations
Weren't you ever tierd
hearing me complain,
Cause thinking back
I realize that's all I ever did
Iam sorry I never asked
How you are doing
Iam sorry I never complimented
When you shared your success
Iam sorry I never cared
When you cried for support.
Iam sorry mom
That I never said I love you
Even though I have never loved anyone as much as I love you.

They knew it was hard
But they still kept pushing
When will they realize
That I can't even breathe anymore
I have nightmares
I no longer live
Will they stop if I go away
Far away from them
Will others be saved?
Is that the only way?
Please show me other roads
I don't wanna leave yet