Today I went to the public gardens

surrounded by people,
surrounded by their whisper,
surrounded by their sins.

I should have headed to the woodlands

surrounded by myself,
surrounded by my thoughts ,
surrounded by the wind.

I wanted to see the sunrise.
Instead I laid in bed and watched
as my windows slowly let in
more and more light. Maybe tomorrow,
I'll watch the sunrise. Maybe tomorrow,
I'll crawl out my window. Maybe tomorrow,
I'll take pictures of the sunrise and
it'll be worth it.
I'll always want to see tomorrow
even if I dread every second of today.
I want to see tomorrow
and capture it.

Do you see
what I see?

Do you see
A friend in
me?

Am I
What you want
me to be?

Am I
enough for you
to be heard
or to be seen?

Is there anything
wrong with me,
if so will you
tell me?

Am I green
or am I grey?

Am I
good enough
for you to stay,
or will you
leave me astray?

Reverting back
To childish games
Retaliatory
Crazy claims
That I’m to blame,
You’re not at fault
Within your pride
You still exalt
Delusional
Not worth your salt
Destructive tendencies
Must halt
Across the hall
Your stride aloof
Above your head
I’ve kept this roof
And all I get
Is more vindictive
Actions, but take care
To listen
To the sound
Of my not caring
All I hear is your
Despairing
Barely can afford to eat
So back into your room
Retreat

Laid a path, only for you to leave
Won my heart, only for you to bleed
I saw blood through your sleeve

Set a trap, watching you fall in
Grabbed a mirror, only to catch you starin’
If love was a sin, i’d be willing

To bring a knife to a gun fight
Bow and arrow, instead of missiles
If the ****** weapon was me
It’ll prove love can be guilty
To break you out yet still keep you alive
Your getaway ride would be a tandem bike
If your alibi was me
It’ll still prove love can be guilty.