I'm done.
I'm done with the me
Well, the new me got infected with stress and all
And a fog took me over, Irish hills lost and walking
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I got stuck in my head
I'm sorry I didnt see the obvious in our world
I'm sorry that sometimes I'm not all here.

But **** that I'm done
I'm done putting up with nothing but fog smoke and mirrors
I'm done with letting my brain get ahead of everything
I'm done with hurting you.
I'm done with it.

Lets begin a new chapter
Of health and healing and love
Of warmth in winter and in sheets
Of nights filled with red wine and kisses all over
Of flowers and chocolate,  proof in love
Of letters and poems and movies of adventures
Lets make our own

I'm done with the current me, bring back the old with new and let's start together
We're in this together.

twenty one questions led to a hundred
and six months on i'm eager for more.
because baby half a year ago you touched my heart
like no one has before
and like no one will.
young and bold we leapt into love like nothing mattered
because at the time it felt like we had nothing to lose
but now
now we have the world to lose.
because we have each other.
my beautiful winter girl
you make me smile every single day.
you make me see the future as a goal to fight for.
i will fight for you.
fight to keep you safe and fight to keep you happy
til the day you hold me back.
i will protect you against every storm.
and make sure everyone knows of how proud i am.
to call you mine.
to say "she's here today."
you're here today. and you will be tomorrow.
with me.

so
with all that said
I love you more than time.
So when i go discovering the secrets of the universe
i'll be ready and willing to have you to hold my hand.
so here's to six, and many more.

bad days happen and thats okay
we make mistakes
but we learn
and i like learning.
so if that means i trip
and fall down
and maybe i might take you with me sometimes
for you, I'm willing to learn how to stand up again.
because you're worth it.
One bad day does not ruin a week
sometimes i fail at being the anchor i try so hard to be
and thats okay.
we're learning.
together.
because maybe today wasn't perfect
wasn't good
but with learning
with time, with mistakes.
we can make tomorrow that little bit better.

I saw stars
And every day i keep chasing them
So open your eyes my love and see me here
Maybe your stars lie in me
As mine lay in your eyes
I'll see them again.
I promise.
I'll write it down so all can see
In songs in poems in stories
I'll make sure your night sky isn't so dark.

the bathtubs full with cold water - you place your hands on the inside of my ribs - the petals drop like last nights shooting stars - and you told me that was your first kiss - bang bang on my windows baby until i wake up - because no one can know that your in here baby no i don't want no fuss - nails scratching down your velvet skin - do you know how to make me spin? can you make me spin? baby i need you to make me spin - was it really your first kiss? - why do we always lie like this - cry like this - staying awake late in the night to feel your lips - on my hips - make me forget

i know, its hard.
it's hard to accept
it's hard to even comprehend
the fact that you deserve a love greater than both of us.
that you deserve me.

like mountains we climb every day is a challenge and i know for you
most days are everest.
never ever ending as if every everlasting thought seems to linger that bit too long
i can see
i can see that you're hurting.
i can see that you think you're a lost cause, stuck.
like valleys we descend sometimes into pits of darkness
and i know you may feel like you've been placed there that little bit too long
its hard
its hard to accept you're not alone anymore.
because truth is i would rather stay up all day and night talking to you about your mind than sit idle as you rock back and forth
hoping that the rug you swept it all under never gets raised

i won't raise that rug. i won't force you to. but ill sit patiently, waiting, nudging you forward until you decide to open up.
before some monster comes by tearing up the floorboards.
when hopefully you will see you don't save me from any false hell by hiding
because truth is

truth is.
every single heart string you pull in me.
every tear you shed onto my chest
every 3:00am wake up call
every help me
every morning hot chocolate to keep you warm
every kiss goodbye
every everything everyday evermore
is worth it.

its worth it.
and if you don't believe you are, think about every day i've spent by your side and ask yourself whether someone like me would waste their time if they believed
you
weren't
worth it

because truth is you are.
every tear is worth a laugh.
every frown worth a smile.
every week passes by worth those 30 minutes alone
every late night phone call worth your mind being that little bit clearer.

and so

i know

it's hard. i never said it was easy.
but I'm telling you regardless if you believe you're deserving of this love or not

I am here.
And i can't see that fact changing for a long time.
so while i am
fall with me.
ill hold your hand on the way down.
ill let you see my weird mind if you let me see yours
lets face the world one step at a time
lets love like everyday is a our new rhyme
a new line
for now this line to you
this time this part
you, are not alone. so do not be afraid, ill make sure everything's going to be okay.

i just finished it.
the book you gave me.
the story of someone who went from nothing
someone who felt nothing
someone who's life didn't seem worth living
someone who grew to become greater than the sum of their parts
and now i lay here
completely engrossed
and i see why you love this book so much

maybe the big bang made us closer than you'd think.
maybe me exploring the universe led the universe to help me find you.
again.
as if we were close before
as if that ache
is just physics doing its work.

the sky is falling
tumbling...turning
like you in bed
1:00AM lost in between your own two ears
"Like thunder with no lightning" restless.

i said the universe is testing us
today it gave me a hint.
24 hours ago you old me of the earth shaking
now i saw it on stage
i saw the sky fall
night fell
and monsters came out to play.

I've said i see images of the future
but sometimes the universe shows me snippets
leads me in the right direction
and tonight it showed me the direction where we stay, where we wish upon a falling star.

when the sky falls
hold me tighter.
for today and tomorrow it may keep falling but i promise you
I'll put the stars back in your sky.
night after night.

nothing can tell me otherwise that that star fell for a reason
and that play showed where it landed in the future.
where dreams are made of.
where wishes come true.
when the rain stops falling, and sun shines through.

i am no god
but nor am i powerless
for i promise you that i will make your dreams come true.
when the sky falls wish upon the cracks to the void
because i'll make those wishes come true.
We'll stand back and say, truly, we are happy with the life we made.

wishing upon a star seems old but recently i see it in a different view
the universe shook the walls of your house
but only as recognition for shaking the ground beneath my feet
because baby
the sky is falling
and so am I.