Do the masses know what its like to hit bottom
To have so many pains
To be forgotten
For the only thing that dulls it to be in your veins

From down here I can't look any one in the eyes
Even the people here can't as hard as they try
We have all done so much
Told so many lies

Every day I wonder
If my life is enough of a blunder
That I can finally give up
And let my self go under

I can't take a step forward without going back
Even if I try and get my life back on track
And climb out of this hell
It'll Just be a higher drop if I fell

Rock bottom isn't that bad
I tell my self its just a fad
I'll just dull the pains
By putting fentanyl in my veins

Нерушимая стена теперь развалена
Где море было, там сухая впадина
Цветы погибли под вороньим облаком
Наполнен мир противным воздухом

Сложатся птицы слабые в едва дышащий круг
И тихо напоследок песнь горести споют
И тень последней тучи, как чёрный обелиск
Безжалостно крадущаяся прервёт молящий визг

RUSSIAN

Красивый  но жестким

(Beautiful but TOUGH)

Papá, I’m sorry for all the wrong turns I’ve made along the road,
When help and support was all you showed.

You tried to warn me that the world can be cold,
But I become weak and so I fold.
You teach me to be righteous and bold,
But I find a way to cope.. and you know the rest.. it’s the same old..

And I know it’s not fair,
I can’t let you see me this way even though you say you’re always there.
Please, be aware.
I’m smiling now, I don’t want to give you a scare..
Papá bear.

"Living life like
Russian roulette with an automatic."

You're gonna leave,
I hate you for that,
But I love you for it too.
I'm gonna miss you,
God..I'll miss you so much.

Until then,
And most likely after,
I'll live life
Like I'm spinning a cylinder
With the Reaper.