Anger and misery have deserted me
I'm hanging in limbo again.
I hate this feeling of not feeling.
I search for an emotion, but all elude me.
I especially miss self-righteousness and self-pity too.
Two of my favourite pals.
I seem to always need something to moan about.
I even moan about not having anything to moan about.

Hang on.....is this self disgust?
Aha! I can still feel.
Oh, here comes relief and self deprecation.......
Yes,yes...my yearning for acceptance has arrived too.
Coupled with dissatisfaction, anger is rising too.
Misery is chasing away delicious numbness
****! But I'm a fool!

Miserable and hate full
That's what you've turned into.
You look at others and see only your losses.
Open your eyes fool!!!
Every day, you **** happiness in others to fuel your own feud.
You oppress those around you to feed your self inflicted misery.
I wish I could tell you to go to hell.
No point..you're already there.

Playing with your toys
Enjoying your games
Laughing loudly with joy

Move your pieces around your board.
Grin at the consequence of every roll of the dice.

You make the rules.
You have no restraints.

Epidemics, Earthquakes and Hurricanes.
Your fingers on the strings of the marionette that is man.
Poverty, ethnic cleansing, maniacal leaders.

And let us not forget your maniacal followers who blow themselves up in your name.

Playing with your toys
we exist for your amusement.

Amma remembers your smiling face.
Dad only sees the young boy you once were.
Me....I see the brother I love.

I don't know how I'll get through a week without your hello.
You were my dialysis.

Selfishly helping you made me feel better, stronger, useful.

I wish you hadn't gone.
I'm not ready to accept it.
I've raged at god, at fate and the unfairness that is life.

It makes no difference, you're gone.

the sky this very day
did don a cape of dull grey
so drab the display

by morrow's morning
there'll be a brighter dawning
with sunlight spawning

She comes to him
  while he dreams
     floating down
       upon
         moonlit
            beams
to lay upon him
kisses so sweet
for she loves him
so very deep.

              With her loving
               embracing light
                  she wraps
                around him
               holding tight
                    within
                  her eyes
            he sees her love
          as the stars witness
         from the skies above.

He reaches for her
to gently place
the sweetest kiss
upon her crying face
he caresses
her body
while touching
her soul
as together they become
of one whole.

          The love they create
            so deep and true
        from the dusk of night
        til mornings first dew
when all is done and all is said
            upon his chest
         she lays her head
     hearing his heart beat
            for her alone
     a greater love
                     she's never known.