i found home
in the gentle blue of her eyes
as she found home
in the crevices of my hands.
maybe i wasnt meant for love,
but you sure as hell made me feel like it
i would die in millions of life times
if it meant i got to spend one with you
and I dreamt of her
even in my dimly lit room
wrapped in the arms of my lover
I dreamt of the way her lips fell apart
and as i woke
I reached out for her
only to be met with the dull hum of my lamp
and the idea of what could have been.
I know you think that in a room full of people i've ever loved, I wouldn't choose you.
but you're the only one that has ever given me the love they claimed I deserved and made me feel whole.
id choose you until my lung's collapsed and I cant do anything but mumble your name.
id write your name over and over until my fingers became fused with the pencil.
id climb any mountain to you until my hands and feet bled.
id choose you.
in every lifetime.
in every moment.
i'm so in love with the idea of you in my head it's driving me insane.