My very most honest mistake

Is that

    **I loved you

I should tell you I pull away from hugs that last longer than 3 seconds.
I should warn you that my anger gets the best of me when I start to feel something.
It takes me awhile to adjust.
You're gonna have to be patient with me.

I know it may be hard to understand but my heart lets go before it even gets a grip.
I may not talk alot about my life but know that I am trying.
I  have been hurt so much before.
Try to be patient with me.

I've been down this road before and it left me with scars
so don't fret when my body tenses up when you grab my hand.
I'm starting to learn that the touch from a man isn't always full of empty promises and hurtful intentions.
You're gonna have to learn to be patient with me.

There have been too many nights
Where I lie beneath my sheets
Hoping you still care

if i was given three wishes, the first would be to forget every word he's ever said.

the next would be for my parents, even though they haven't gotten everything right.

the last would be eternal happiness for everyone else, because mine would be attained with the first.

i've never let go of your hand, even when you don't have the strength to hold mine