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14th October 2012
Tori Jun 2013
14th October 2012
There it was again.
What is it about you that I can't resist?

There it was again.
You nudge me and smile, like the first time we kissed.

There it was again.
Friendship like no other, haunting me forever.

There it was again.
Tears in my eyes for everyone to see.

There it was again.
A seed of thought growing in its own fantasy.

There it was again.

There it was again.
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Always
Tori Jun 2013
Always
She dreamed of the day and the promise of 'Always'.
Infecting her mind with beauty and love.
Opening her heart to a fate worse then death.

To fall in love; how scary.

What if it didn't work out?
What if she lost it all?
Then she saw him smile,
And felt how wrong she was.
Forget the what if's.

I love him, the crazy *******.
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Balcony
Tori Jun 2013
Balcony
I stood on the balcony

In the dead of night.

Cold air on my skin

And the glow from a street light

I took a deep breath and

Thought things through.

Why should I stay here being tortured,

By you.

One jump, and it would be done.

No one can save me.

I just have to run.

Run from my friends and

my family too.

Run from my mind

and run from you.

Calm my breathing

And stop the tears.

Relax my muscles

Forget my fears.
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Feelings
Tori Jun 2013
Feelings
your lips against mine.
Linked.
Your heart beating, and mine;
Not.

Open books, and close them.
Memorise the words,
Recite.
Use words to hide emotions.

You don't need those, emotions.
Emotions, emotions.
Tell your self to block them out.
Forget what you feel.

Feelings are weak.
You need to be strong to survive.
Survive the storm, just the storm.
Feelings are weak.

Feelings are loud. Demand to be heard.
Echo through your body.
Through your life.
Through your mind.

Turn up the music.
Drown them out.
Turn off your phone.
Drown them out.

Feelings are weak.
You don't need them.
Tell yourself you don't need them.
Feelings are weak.
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Hotel Room
Tori Nov 2013
Hotel Room
I stood on the balcony
In the dead of night.
Cold air on my skin
And the glow from a street light

I took a deep breath and
Thought things through.
Why should I stay here being tortured,
By you.

One jump, and it would be done.
No one can save me.
I just have to run.

Run from my friends and
my family too.
Run from my mind
and run from you.

Calm my breathing
And stop the tears.
Relax my muscles
Forget my fears.
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If you try to get close
Tori Jun 2013
If you try to get close
I lost control, with music in my ears
Sweet voices claiming my soul

I danced alone. For I am alone.
And it is chaotic yet beautiful.
And it is lonely yet comforting.

Calm down. Calm down I scream.
Forget the ghosts that haunt you.

And with winter on your tongue
Cut loose your heart.

Forget.
Forget.
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Ink Stains
Tori Jun 2013
Ink Stains
Tea drips on pages filled with your thought,

happy and pensive, and demons to be fought.


Tears fall on pages filled with hopes,

stupid boys and breaking hearts, strung together with ropes.


Ink stains on pages, mapping out your life,

your triumphs, your failure, your pleasures, your strife.


Write your soul,

Sing your pain.

Forget your critics

and just watch what you’ll gain.
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Renco
Tori Jun 2013
Renco
Your name is everywhere
Written in graffiti
On the walls of my mind.

Reminding me of your touch, and that smile.
Renco on the streets and
Renco in my poems

Whispering secrets of lost love and
Forgetful pasts.
I see you everywhere for
You are my world

My sky in the morning.
And the fresh cut grass.
The tears from my eyes on
A lonely night

When I breathe, I breathe
Renco
When I listen, I hear
Renco.

Renco in every sigh and
In every drop of blood.
Renco graffitied on the walls of my mind.
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- Request -
Tori Jun 2013
- Request -
Engulf me in your fire,
Set my eyes aflame,
Don't take me for a liar,
Kiss me in the rain.
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Silence
Tori Dec 2013
Silence
The waves are ceasing and the
Sky is grey and unfrequented through the window.
Hold your gaze, forget this room.
Silence so loud it echoes
Through my mind.

Say something.

Tell me you love me, even tell me
You hate me.
Forget it, it doesn't matter,
It's fine.
Dismiss our feeling, act like it's alright.
We don't know what we're
Doing.

We're stumbling.

There is a world out there, I'm sure.
People living their lives,
Oblivious, I'm not really looking.
Glazed eyes.

I know I love you.
I should tell you, but
I can't.
You should tell me, but
You won't.

I should,
You should,
We should just,

There's no way out if this.
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stumbling
Tori Nov 2013
stumbling
The waves are ceasing and the
Sky is grey and unfrequented through the window.
Hold your gaze, forget this room.
Silence so loud it echoes
Through my mind.

Say something.

Tell me you love me, even tell me
You hate me.
Forget it, it doesn't matter,
It's fine.
Dismiss our feeling, act like it's alright.
We don't know what we're
Doing.

We're stumbling.

There is a world out there, I'm sure.
People living their lives,
Oblivious, I'm not really looking.
Glazed eyes.

I know I love you.
I should tell you, but
I can't.
You should tell me, but
You won't.

I should,
You should,
We should just,

There's no way out if this.
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summer was
Tori Nov 2014
summer was
We don’t kiss.
But that night we did.
Crawled into the dark and shared a long embrace.
Unexpected. Unprovoked.

With your hands rediscovering my body,
And your eyes rediscovering my soul.
I told you I loved you, but I didn’t say it out loud.
Neither did you.

We turned to the past,
And expected the same.
Sharing our minds,
Sharing our beds.

You had me,
You owned me,
You stole me from myself.
And you left.

I see you with her,
I see you smiling.
You don’t see me.

*You never saw me
#love #kiss #ex #sad #past #summer #him #*** #unrequited
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The Man With Flowers
Tori Jun 2013
The Man With Flowers
Holding flowers in his hands and regrets in his mind,
He made his way up the street.
'Im sorry I was wrong' he whispered
Rehearsing his lines , like a boy in a play.

Knocking on the door, his heartbeat audible.

She opened the door with mascara streaks from her eyes.
'Im sorry, I was wrong. Can I come home?'

He waited and could see her biting her lip.
'Of course' was all she said.
And they embraced.
And fell in love all over again.
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The Poor Poet
Tori Jun 2013
The Poor Poet
He turned her into literature,
As he often would.
Poetry echoing the memory of her smile,  her laugh, her eyes.

It had been a month and she burned brighter in his mind then ever before.
Like a trail of photographs tracing through a storm of thoughts, always revolving around her.

If he was Earth she was his Sun.
She brought life, she brought light.
And as he sat by his desk, he thought;

The poor poet, alone again.
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Untitled
Tori Jun 2013
Untitled
My mind falls back, thinking of days before.
Your eyes,  brown and beautiful, hide stories you'll never tell.

Tell me your lies, and I'll believe.
Hopelessly wishing away all those tears.

Find new stories, get lost in them, live them, breathe them.
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With Optimistic and Pessimistic Tendencies
Tori Jun 2013
With Optimistic and Pessimistic Tendencies
Call me optimistic, tear me down for being naive.
Tell me I’m wrong, “living in a wonderland”

Or call me pessimistic. Write it off as hormones.
Laugh and say “I’ll understand when I’m older”
But I understand right now, in a way you never will.

I call myself a realist. I see things as they are.
I strive for perfection, knowing full well
I will always fall short.

Is it optimism to believe that
people should be good?
Better then what I’ve witnessed too often.

Is it pessimism to speak your
mind?
Express your opinion to your very soul.

There are different definitions of ‘living’ to different people.
And I will create my own, I won’t live by your rules.
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