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V Apr 2017
what if
why
how come

sentences
words
letters

all don’t matter, all aren’t able to affect you unless you give them the power to

drugs
love

they don’t differ much

I’m completely sober yet I’ve been feeling like a drug addict ever since I fell in love with you

you
7 billion other people

oh but they don’t come close to what you mean to me. you’re astonishing, completely out of this
world; you differ from anyone I’ve ever known

scents and smiles and many other faces
I find enjoyment in observing art, in staring at beautiful faces and structures and movements
but you, God. pretty is not the word, you’re way more than that. personalities and looks, but your soul is way beyond that

dreams
fantasies
illusions

I find you in my dreams, fantasies and illusions
I find you in book shelves, on each letter of my favourite quote
I find you in people’s eyes, on each iris I pass by
I find you in deep poems, in messy paintings, through art galleries and museums
I find you in my mind, on each thought, in every corner

everywhere
anywhere

yet I choose to keep you locked in the deepest parts of me

two
ten…
seventeen years passed by and I wish I knew you earlier
I wish I carried you on my shoulders and held you tightly, closely to the pulse of my own heart
V Jun 2017
Straightforward;
An adjective so simple, but can only be suited to a few people
It makes the world flow easily
If we could just tell each other what's on our minds
If we could tell the people who are head over heels for us that they have no chance
If we could tell the people who are in love with us that we're in love with someone else
If we could speak our minds more often,
The world, would not be a better place, but perhaps it would be less awful
It would be less painful to exist in this wretched reality and consider our fantasies the only way to escape it
You see all I ever wanted from you was the truth, nothing but that, no matter how much it hurt, I could take it. All I ever wanted was for you to tell me how you felt and what you were thinking and whether or not what we were doing was right. I promise, out of all the things I wanted, that's what I wanted the most. Or maybe even needed. I needed you to confront, to confess, to communicate. But you wouldn't. I gave you all the patience and kindness that I could offer, even though what you did wasn't exactly kind. But still, nothing came out of you, nothing. And it wasn't disappointing as much as it was devastating. So the next thing I needed from you was for you to go, to leave, if there was no effort, I was surely not interested. But of course, if we're talking about what I truly needed, then it was you. I needed you to fight for me, to stay for me, I needed the willingness and persistence you had when we first met. I desperately needed it back but there was, as always, nothing. And so I left you. After a few attempts of leaving, I left you for good. And believe me when I say, as much as it broke my heart, I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. See, being away from you meant being in hell, but being around you meant being in emotional death. My so called friend, I wish you the very best, if you met someone new, I hope you're as happy as you could ever be. It was good, but it was temporary. And so were you.
us
V May 2017
us
it's times like these where I need you the most
but you're never around, no where to be seen
I haven't wrote anything since you've left
I can't function properly without you
my mind and soul were set to depend on you
to rest on your shoulder
there are 7 billion people in the world which means that there are enough shoulders and enough people that would rather hear me talk about what hurts but I refuse to open up to anyone other than you
you were what people would define as a 'soul mate'
you were actually more than that, I was too **** attached
never again.
how could you abandon me?
is it because i'm too ****** up that you failed each and every attempt at trying to fix me?
I wish you'd knew that you being by my side was the only thing that was holding me back from my anger and rage
having you around was the only thing that was keeping me from being on the cusp of insanity; now I'm the furthest thing from 'sane'
I know you're aware of my heavy thoughts that keep me down at times of my broken mind and my shallow soul
we used to have what everyone spent their whole lives searching for
we could've wrote marvelous books
the ones you'd get lost in
we had a strange ability, you and I
we could've been whatever we wanted to be
whenever, wherever, we wanted
we were the furthest thing from perfect
but I promise you, we were something special
V Jun 2017
I feel like I write the most when I'm hurt
which makes sense because
after all
a person must be pushed past their limits to
create
fight
struggle
bleed
live
and create some more
V Apr 2017
I want to talk to you; I want to tell you that you deserve much more than someone who constantly hurts you.

But I'm starting to think that you live for the idea that it's the pain that reminds you you're alive and functional and capable of doing so many great things.

Because you once told me that whatever we do, we must do it with pain, because that's when it's done perfectly.
V Jun 2017
the land of my mind breaks into two
just by the thought of you crossing it
it rebuilds itself with a home just for you
just by the steps of you approaching it

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