Those thoughts in the light Differ in the night I think sometimes I might be right The future starts looking bright Until I indulge a little further Fruitless I discover Sensations are in constant change Enduring I haven’t yet uncovered Numbness fills my skull Losing all control God please save my soul I need you to hold me close Please make me whole I don’t know where to go All the roads seem to be closed My eyes are open but I can’t see you Immersed in black I’m screaming out to you I need your love to take me over I feel like I’ve never had any closure Sadness a disease The seed was planted in me Growing so violently Get this thing out of me Before it engulfs me I just want to be
A lone boat In the middle of the sea There’s nothing around to see Only the crashing waves That keep it afloat But when the waves crash against the bow It slowly breaks a little And the water seeps in Little by little From the weight of the water it carries It’s ready to sink Into the vast sea To no longer endure the harsh winds But to be rested at the bottom On the soft sand Fully filled with water And I am that boat Being filled with your love Wanting nothing more Than to be forever engulfed by it
Happiness. I’m basking in it. I can’t help but laugh. Happiness fills me to the brim and laughter spills out. It surrounds me entirely. I can’t frown around you. It’s impossible. Your love has captured me. And that’s all I wanted. To be captured by you. And never let go. Captivated. By your eyes. Your smile. Your touch. Your kiss. Your hugs. Your everything. .... You’re everything. To me.
my once solemn heart fades away into the glow of your rays you shine on me everyday even when your away you remain so close life is no longer gray instead it’s a reflection of warm bliss emotions so foreign to me this is happiness my once silent heart she’s been speaking to me and my ears finally heeded blindness to sight my wants at last take flight dreams to reality life’s the way it’s meant to be joy and laughter you do this to me
My brain doesn’t do what I tell it to It’s always making me doubt It makes me anxious It makes me scared But it’s something I can’t live without
I know who I am And what I want But it always seems to remember Exactly what I want to forget Anything can be a trigger Even something small It’s like a flashback in my mind
I try so hard to close those doors But sometimes those memories They slip out in a conversation Things I don’t even want to tell
My brain tricks my mouth It tells it, it has to get out Just to have more room in the storage Of the things I wish to forget So my brain has more space To close the door To the things I want to forget
Why do you do this brain You play these evil tricks I don’t like them at all
And after my mouth is tricked It hates my brain For the things I said
Brain, you really bother me I wish I could control you better You break my heart All the time And It doesn’t even phase you There are a lot of things About my brain I’m very thankful for But sometimes I really wish My brain would lock that door
I have felt love through a touch. Through a moment with you. Those moments we have together. I never take for granted. I replay them in my mind. Over and over. It is something I’ve never felt before. Something true. Something I’ve never known. When your forehead kisses mine. I feel your love radiate through my body. And when our eyes meet. Our souls are together. At last. You. Oh baby, you. My love. My life. My heart beats your name. Our love is a story. A story I’ve only dreamt of having come true. And now that it’s my reality. All I can do is smile. And vask in every moment.
Today I saw myself From other people’s eyes I realized all of the lies I tell myself everyday That I must obey And when I mess up I must apologize All the time Over and over Out of fear You did that to me Made me scared To make a mistake Even very small To you it was all the same A mistake I couldn’t make those I had to be perfect It was never worth it To live in fear With someone who doesn’t care About me or anything Just themself Why does this always happen I go back to this daily I’m afraid to be wrong Because of the yelling I’m so messed up I’m so afraid To make a mistake I must admit It makes me sick To think of myself And how I lived I have to learn How to really live again And that’s embarrassing