Blue is the color
I see in your eyes
When they look down into mine
And I see how you've changed
My life upside down
A labyrinth I can't walk into
Without falling and tripping
But you know I don't care
About those little details
Because you've discovered
My heart
Is bigger than yours
Stronger than yours
Beating louder
Than yours ever will

He made me sarcastic.
He made me ironic.
Bitter.
I opened up to him and let him crush me like a ripe fruit
He stepped and burned and spit on what was left.
Then...
Last year I thought I would burn again,
Bring fire back.
But I am so *lost

I am sitting here thinking about how everyone leaves eventually and hoping to God you're the one to break the cycle
You see I love you more than the other who have come and gone and it was stupid of me to give more love to the one who is incapable of love or so you say
You could leave me in a heartbeat and never look back but my heartbeat would forever be changed because a portion of my heart beats just for you
While I know you could abandon me a part of me whispers to myself that you never will because you are not just my best friend but my sister too
Our blood was not the same when we were born and we do not even breathe the same oxygen that goes into our blood but somehow something deeper than that flows through our veins which we share
You see you hold a place in my heart that was empty before I knew you and that could never be replaced if you left
Your mind's beauty is oh so twisted but more magnificent than the rest
We are polar opposites an you hate me most of the time but I would love you to the end of time
Everyone leaves their footprint on the Earth but you've left one on my heart the size of the Golden Gate Bridge
In the most innocent form you are my soul mate. My heart rejoices when I talk to you and I feel more full with you in my life
My biggest fear is one day I lose you but I pray to God that somewhere in your heart I'm more than just a best friend but family too

Perhaps I
Was the first draft
And she
Was the work of art
You stained my face with your fingers
And left your print all over me
You never bothered to clean the edges
Left me in the rough
Left me in the dark
In the pages of a sketchbook you never open
Anymore and
I would rather be dead

My hands are frozen and my feet are ice
I never knew I needed your undercover
To keep me warm from the tornado of snow
Licking at my feet and burning my hands
I am in pain but I am not a weak flame
I am a universe
Made up of songs and poems
A lake of memories and depthless deepness
And eye seeing the future
And watching the present
I am a universe
Made up of the people I have met
In the end what matters is
Who I am
Where I have been
Where I am headed
                                   Does not mean anything at all

I am between the shadows of human bodies and those of ghosts
My skin is fire and my smell is rotten
My everything
Burns
Bright against the canvas of the dark night
Reaching its long black fingers into my hair of flames
I burn brighter than the moon
Brighter than the stars
I am not a Sun
I am my own dynamite.

**And I will explode.