Turn Off The Lights

Sep 2014

Bella

Pain

You do not know pain
I repeat
You do not know pain
Not until you have watched the words "I do not care"
Fall out of the lips of the person you hold most dear
You do not know pain
Not until they look at you and smile
While you fall apart
You do not know pain
Not until they act as if the world is well
As yours comes crumbling around your feet
You do not know pain
Not until they have nothing left to say
Letting you pour yourself into apologies you have no right saying
You do not know pain
Not until they ignore your very presence
As you walk around turning into the ghost they want you to be
You do not know pain
Not until your love and your heart belong to such a cold soul
A cold soul that once warmed your insides and reminded you of hope
You do not know pain
Not until they steal your last ray of sun
And give it to someone who once meant nothing when you meant the world
You do not know pain
You do not know Pain

I need to stop writing such sad stuff

#love #pain #loss

Sep 2014

M

aestheticism

i would like to watch your heart beat
and your chest move up and down
as the breath that is partway mine
flows in and out of you

Sep 2014

Jack

Because of you

~

Because of you
I learned to live
I learned to breathe
I learned to give

I learned to write
I learned to read
I learned to want
I learned to need

I learned to sing
I learned to talk
I learned to dance
I learned to walk

I learned to look
I learned to know
I learned to listen
I learned to grow

I learned to dream
I learned to care
I learned to hear
I learned to share

I learned to gain
I learned to teach
I learned to find
I learned to reach

I learned to smile
I learned to grin
I learned to love
All over again

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

Torn

I am torn between
Running to your door
And telling you I love you
Face to face
Or
Crawling in my bed
And whispering I love you
From far away

**(I wonder which one you would hear better)

I want you to do the same

I want you to love me better

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

I always wonder

I cannot help but wonder
How often I saw you
And if I had stopped and said "hi"
Would it have changed anything at all
I always wonder
How close we were
How often we almost met
How many times we may have passed each other on the streets
And I had no idea you would become my sunlight
I always wonder if I ever bumped into you
And brushed it off as if destiny was not intruding in our lives
I cannot help but wonder
How often I dreamt about you
When you were sleeping a few feet away
I always wonder
If we ever shared my dream but woke up disorientated
And forgot about us until the next time
I often wonder if we'd met any other way
Would I be with you now?

Or would she be the first one on your mind?

#love #dream #away #i #you #wonder #fate #destiny

Turn Off The Lights Sep 2014

You left me 5 days

You have left me 5 days
And I cried for 3
You have left me 5 days
And I downed 2 bottles
You have left me 5 days
And I choked for 4
You have left 5 days
And you have no idea
What your heart did to me
You have left 5 days
And it has felt like an eternity
You have left me 5 days
And you stained all the happy
By making me cry tears of heartbreak
I met you 4 weeks ago
And fell the 1st second

*(Sometimes I enjoy the fantasy
That, maybe
You too, fell for me)

And then she took you away from me

#love #heartbreak #heart #alcohol #cry #days #idea #left #5 #choke