Whenever I revisit this
Finding myself frozen stiff
Free of time, where is my mind
Sickened by the simple fact that
You lied.

Giving you my tedious sympathies
When you thought I didn't know
While still revealing parts of me
That let my colors show

I watched it all from your backstage
Drawn to the drama, such intrigue
I can't deny, it felt sublime to be on your side
But then the clock was ticking...

For not too long, we weren't too strong
Before you started to bare your teeth
To show the world how cruel you are
Yet you are dull and bald and desolate.

At no moment was I surprised
So before you think you were a threat,
or some kind of warning
I hope you know it took not even one whole morning
To mourn losing
The idea
Of you

Assuming you were hidden well
Behind a curtain that you crafted
With thick fabric and the smell of smoke
Magic tricks and beanie caps
Actually turned out to be
Vacant and transparent spells

So don't you forget
I have stepped into your dark
Stuck and sticky with your tar
When your concern left you smitten
Thinking that you would stay hidden
Saying you could never lose me
Well I have seen the jejune you
And if I tell you my truth

There is simply nothing there.

here I am
supposedly waiting
no idea what for
getting distracted by
silly sentimental giggles
tickling what I keep inside me
serenity spinning on the merry-go-round
surrounded by love reaching out
pass the hits by fingertips one by one
I close my eyes
barely surprised
as a kiss touches my lips