maybe you are not the one
a karmic partner rather
lesson for me to learn
an alarm to reality

flattery words you said
delusional lies to love you
with hallucinating action
made me enter the blackhole

hugged a cactus
clear cut pain
passing it to me
for you to be okay

With a sweetest smile of yours
In every strum of your guitar
A closer look into your eyes
Another color added into my life

Who are you?
Why are you like this?

Tingling feeling
Butterflies in my stomach
Heart beats
Faster than the usual

Strange feeling towards
A strange person
Loving and trustworthy
Is this love or what?

Nope, hopefully not
Never again, please

Fragile heart of mine
Still mending as time goes by
You suddenly came into my life
Hoping for real not fantasy this time

SHH! Heart... are you okay?
SHUT UP! Mind... don’t overthink!
WOAAAH! Self... do you even know him?

With all the doubts and worry
About what I feel towards him
Eagerness to know you well
Snapped by the reality of everything

Heart got broken.. ONCE AGAIN...
Shattered in pieces and everything
Mending it back again is hard
Unrequited love story with bittersweet ending

That little string that connects us
The rhythm of the songs we dance
The notes that we tried to hit
This fast beating heart of ours

Took a little step towards you
Yet, moved one step backwards
Ran to you with eagerness in me
Suddenly decided to play hide and seek

Anxiously looking after you disappear
Left me wondering why are you doing this to me
Too late to realize, you said goodbye
Before you left my side and hide

Hide and Seek, yet I only seek—
For the reality of this fantasy
A little string that never exist
Story of us is now on its ending

I said “I give up” nine times.
On the tenth, “You can do it”
Eight people told me once—
“Art won’t give you stability”
Seven times doubting myself—
“Is my passion enough to prove?”
Six people believed in me—
“I know you can be successful someday.”
Five talents that I have nurtured
People find me as their inspiration
Four times, I let people bring me down
Three years of depression and anxiety
Two years of recovering with challenges
One, a story of a person, that person is me

A guy that has endless charms
Have captured my heart
He is always on my mind
That makes me smile endlessly

He had never disappointed me
He always exceeds my expectations
He should not be pressured, for—
His works will still be appreciated

Why is he so adorable?
He doesn’t have to act so cute
Simply doing things he loves to do
Can make my heart flutter

Looked at the mirror
Breakdown and cry
Looked at the path
It looks so hard to try

Tried to hold a hot drink
Like have something to risk
Tried to sustain the cold
Reminding myself to stay warm

Covered my ears and eyes
Memories replay on my mind
Covered my invisible scars
Letting the time to heal it

Climbing the highest mountain
To see the most beautiful view
Shows how hard our life is
Knowing we must face it

Will you look up to the sky?
I know you would not
Those stars are so tiny
Just like the possibilities
I long for happiness—
And fantasy of “us”
Got hit by the reality
It does not really exist
Even in the parallel universe
That we deeply believe
That red string, we held on
Hoping you would grab onto—
The hand or the pinky finger
You used to make promises
For us to meet someday
Hug me one last time
So, I can check one off my list
In this sad fantasy of “me”
As I move on with reality of “you”

I was your Wendy at first that became your Tinker Bell as time passed by, My Peter Pan
A mischievous, adventurous guy like you got me so curious what kind of person are you
I did my best to know every single thing about you because you are too perfect
Your charms and personality are unexpectedly outstanding, I wonder if you have noticed it

Every time I listen to your voice it feels like there is an angel singing and it is very pleasing to my ears
Every time you spend all night making new songs, makes me so proud as you explore by making in different concepts
Every time you stand on stage, makes me want to stand up and applause for all of your hardworks
Every time I see how passionate you are in achieving your dreams, keeps me motivated

I became your Tinker Bell for I will stay loyal as your fan who have seen you improved once in a while
A mischievous and adventurous guy like you deserve everything you want in this world
Let us stay together as long as we could like how Tinker Bell stayed loyal to Peter Pan
I want to be with you throughout your journey in your career, to my one and only Peter Pan