Trish

Trish Dec 2018

With a sweetest smile of yours
In every strum of your guitar
A closer look into your eyes
Another color added into my life

Who are you?
Why are you like this?

Tingling feeling
Butterflies in my stomach
Heart beats
Faster than the usual

Strange feeling towards
A strange person
Loving and trustworthy
Is this love or what?

Nope, hopefully not
Never again, please

Fragile heart of mine
Still mending as time goes by
You suddenly came into my life
Hoping for real not fantasy this time

SHH! Heart... are you okay?
SHUT UP! Mind... don’t overthink!
WOAAAH! Self... do you even know him?

With all the doubts and worry
About what I feel towards him
Eagerness to know you well
Snapped by the reality of everything

Heart got broken.. ONCE AGAIN...
Shattered in pieces and everything
Mending it back again is hard
Unrequited love story with bittersweet ending

it was inspired by the guy that i met in the broadcast station i visited for a msuic show. he was the invited guest while i was the extra person for their performance that was chosen from the audience who gave me mixed feelings.

#lovestory #love #bittersweet

Trish Sep 2018

I'm used to it

I sighed, it feel so heavy
"I'm tired." my body says

Mountain range of burden
And pressure everyday
Soul floating in the wind
A broken glass-like heart
Marathon of thoughts
Waterfall of tears

"I am so done with life"

A smile turned upside down
Tripped in a whole of anxiety
Memories of past says hello

"I just want to be happy"

Inner self screaming for help
Every color faded turned into gray
Lowkey asking people to stay
But urgently pushing everyone away

"Everything seems nonsense"

School is like a place of gamble
Going everyday is like placing a bet
Having unsure future after efforts been made

"I'm done with these hardship I'm going through"

Cutting ties with friends and family
Shutting people out is like a hobby
Getting used to all the moments

"I'm alone anyway so why bother?"

I still feel unsure for the title since I'm bad at coming up with titles for my poem

#self #pressure #burden #alone #hurt

Trish Jul 2018

Uncovered Reality

Right arrow goes left
Balance became unbalanced
Both eyes got blinded
Hearts unsatisfied
Worries starts to arise
Mouths covered by someone's hands

Tears fell like a heavy rain
Screams that sounds like a siren
Guns of hatred and anger surrounded--
Covered by the fear and lost feeling
As the eyes of greed and revenge
Inncocent people suddenly got affected

In every scream and fight for right--
Is heard like a wind flows in their ears
As they became blind and continue what they have done
Dead pilled up like mountains
Blood spread like oceans
Humanity and Justice went downhill

Grounds have shaken us to wake up
From the reality that we used to believe in
Hopes of others have shattered like ashes
People have been brainwashed by them
Prayers of each religions and unity
As we strive for humanity and justice for each of us

(This poem was inspired after reading some news about crime and issues about EJK and Fight against Drugs

#social #issue #crimes

Trish Jun 2018

Unfinished Page

tick to the tock
arms move in the clock
sheets of month
been removed from calendar

angel descends to heaven
people still remembers him
still sparkles in the sky
beautifully as it always seem

voice that still echoes in my mind
songs written still plays in my heart
life that became a novel we read
without doubt, he is still here

with all the unfinished page
they fill it up as they think of him
doubts visits from time to time
but as long as they believe, they can

pitched dark roads
lost motivation
a light shines upon them
they remember him, once again

I watched the newly released song of SHINee "Our Page" I got inspired as it was written for Jonghyun a member of them who passed away last December 2017. I read the lyrics and the mood in the mv got me inspired. I made the poem after listening for 3 times

#shinee #jonghyun #dedication #light #page #unfinished #friendship #family

Trish Jun 2018

Cold Season Reason

Pour a tea in a cup
To make satisfaction and love
Bring a warm blanket in a cold weather
To keep me warm and assured
A relaxing music to listen
To keep my mind at peace
Clothes that are thick
To keep me away from getting ill
A house with a fireplace
To make it comfortable to stay
A cold season reason nonsense
To make you look back and reflect

It's already rainy season here and people are feeling cold. Some look for cuddles in this kind of weather but alone with blanket is enough to make you feel warm.

#cold #season #reason #warm #relax #house #tea #fireplace

Trish May 2018

Hide And Seek

That little string that connects us
The rhythm of the songs we dance
The notes that we tried to hit
This fast beating heart of ours

Took a little step towards you
Yet, moved one step backwards
Ran to you with eagerness in me
Suddenly decided to play hide and seek

Anxiously looking after you disappear
Left me wondering why are you doing this to me
Too late to realize, you said goodbye
Before you left my side and hide

Hide and Seek, yet I only seek—
For the reality of this fantasy
A little string that never exist
Story of us is now on its ending

Inspired by the movie "Kimi No Na Wa" and Children playing hide and seek. Also, "Kathang Isip" by Ben&Ben, an opm song that I listen to whenever I look for inspiration and mood to make a poem

#hide #seek #string #rhythm #heart #love #feelings

Trish May 2018

Ten to One: A summary of someone's life

I said “I give up” nine times.
On the tenth, “You can do it”
Eight people told me once—
“Art won’t give you stability”
Seven times doubting myself—
“Is my passion enough to prove?”
Six people believed in me—
“I know you can be successful someday.”
Five talents that I have nurtured
People find me as their inspiration
Four times, I let people bring me down
Three years of depression and anxiety
Two years of recovering with challenges
One, a story of a person, that person is me

since today is my birthday this poem out of all the poem is good for this day

#ten #to #one #life #summary