I’m not good at writing what i feel
because it’s hard to choose words that would describe
such a feeling that’s much more than just that word
i’m not good at drawing to show what’s in my head, either
because if i did draw to release my mind,
all you’ll see is a bunch of ugly tangled lines that wouldn’t make sense
i mean, it’s a mess in there
neither am i good at singing, dancing, acting, or anything else
honestly because i’m a loser who has passion for nothing
but i’m pretty sure you’re the perfect way
to pour my whole ******* soul
and everything I am into
and i’m sorry if this offends you
because you may find it insulting
that I want to use you as my stress ball
it’s just that
maybe i don’t want
to be good at writing
or drawing
or singing
maybe i want you to be all that i pour myself to
because you’re so ******* special and amazing
you deserve all the ‘worked-******* this, stayed up late last night’ things
and the last piece of pizza and the best coffee in the world
and that expensive first-edition leather-bound book
and everything
everything
i want you to have every ******* thing i can offer
every good thing left in me
because i swear
i’m turning bad
and i don’t want you to leave
maybe
i want to give you my heart
it’s yours
take it
it’s yours
i don’t want you to leave
Written on 24/3/2014