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Mar 2016 · 998
No Song For You
Tomlinsonsgun Mar 2016
Have you ever had the feeling that it's all but right
Want to put in some music and turn the worlds volume down
Maybe it's day maybe it's night
But you are sitting here on your own

Thats not what you are like
It doesn't fit right

But there is no song for you
No one knows what your feelings are going through
Maybe it's about sexuality,love,bullying,hate
Maybe you just want to stay up late
But there is no song for you
Cuz your life is not like everyone's is too
I don't have a metaphor for you
Thats sad but you know it's true

There is no Song for you
Jan 2016 · 411
You
Tomlinsonsgun Jan 2016
You
You are killing me
But keep me alive
And you don't see

You are the reason I cry
But also smile
And I wish I would die

You make me sad
But also happy
And why am I not dead?

You are the answer
For the only question I have
Am I a survivor?
Jan 2016 · 908
Quit you
Tomlinsonsgun Jan 2016
I wish eyes could speak
So I could tell you what you do wrong
For saying it with words I am to weak

You are killing me so slow
Love is like poison
I wish I could let you go
Nov 2015 · 930
In my head
Tomlinsonsgun Nov 2015
I love her/him so much
It hurts
But the good kinda way
I'm at a loss of words

The pain keeps changing
From good to bad
When I realise
It was all in my head
Nov 2015 · 779
Sober
Tomlinsonsgun Nov 2015
It took so long to fall in love
Finally starting to trust again
Feeling these Feelings
Not known to men

But as great as it sounds
As soon it is over
When we both realise it
Because we get sober
Oct 2015 · 711
Not perfect
Tomlinsonsgun Oct 2015
She is smart
She is hot
She is desirable
I am not

She trapped you
Thats everything she's got
She is perfect
I am not
Oct 2015 · 838
Charlotte
Tomlinsonsgun Oct 2015
No matter how hard
No matter how long
I'm never enough
I'm not strong

I try to be perfect
The cutest girl can be
But I'm not even close
They all are better than me
Oct 2015 · 7.6k
Flesh Mask
Tomlinsonsgun Oct 2015
I'm empty inside
No one can See
Through the flesh mask
They wan't me to be
Oct 2015 · 1.1k
Useless
Tomlinsonsgun Oct 2015
I am just a useless body
With a useless mind
In a useless world
Offending it's kind

I'm a defect, used by this world
It's useless for me
I should be gone
So something better can be
Sep 2015 · 3.3k
I'm a loser
Tomlinsonsgun Sep 2015
I am a loser
I never do anything right
It's always bad luck
I lose every fight

I'll never win
I'll never learn
There is no money
I'll ever earn
Sep 2015 · 2.2k
Lost my pride
Tomlinsonsgun Sep 2015
I was born to lose
I was born to hide
This isn't fun anymore
I have lost my pride
Sep 2015 · 2.0k
Broken Home
Tomlinsonsgun Sep 2015
I feel caged
These walls try to break me
My own home is scary
Can't you see?

I try to get out
The walls crash in
Under them I am burried
Thats where I've always been
Sep 2015 · 2.3k
I'm a sinner
Tomlinsonsgun Sep 2015
Why can't I belong
Why do I not fit in
I am asking myself
Is being gay a sin?

Then I am a sinner
The biggest can be
I don't care anymore
Cause I am me
Aug 2015 · 17.5k
Fuck Society
Tomlinsonsgun Aug 2015
How would it be
In a world without hate
We will never know
**** Society
Aug 2015 · 2.2k
Hate me
Tomlinsonsgun Aug 2015
I sometimes think about beeing someone else
How would that be?
But I'll always be stuck in this body
I just hate me
Aug 2015 · 346
Blame me
Tomlinsonsgun Aug 2015
I can't look at myself
I feel so ashemed
Scares all over
I'm the one who is blamed
Aug 2015 · 1.7k
Against Me
Tomlinsonsgun Aug 2015
Have you ever felt
Like no one loves you?
Experienced so much hate
And Violence too?

I'm so sorry
If you feel how I feel everyday
And all this hate against me
Just because I am openly gay
Aug 2015 · 1.9k
Break my Crown
Tomlinsonsgun Aug 2015
You are my best friend
Why do you ignore me when I'm down
But you know what, I'm strong enough to get up alone
Cause you won't break my crown
Jul 2015 · 1.2k
Born like this
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
You can't change me
I was born like this
This is how it was meant to be

I didn't choose to be this way
It always was a part of me
And this is how it will stay

I was born in may
And since this day
I knew that I was gay
Actually true
Jul 2015 · 1.5k
Coming out
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I am the one who has to wait
For the right moment
To tell you
That I am not straight

I think thats kinda unfair
I am waiting for the day
That you are struggling to tell me
That you are not gay
Jul 2015 · 14.5k
My Prom Dress
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
It's prom tonight
And my date said I look cute
Whats the problem when I am a girl
And I am wearing a suit
Jul 2015 · 1.5k
I want
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I hate lying to people
But thats all I can do
For my own safety
You know that it's true

Maybe someday
I can wear my colours
Without any insults on the streets
Live can be hard if you are gay

I really try to accept myself
Yes that would be great
But I don't want to have a secret
I want to be straight
Jul 2015 · 10.5k
The straight life is easy
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
The straight life is easy
I had a little try
But soon I realised that for me it feels better
To be Bi
Jul 2015 · 1.5k
Gay is perfectly okay
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I just want someone to walk over and tell me:
I know that you are gay
But you know what?
For me this is perfectly okay
Jul 2015 · 527
You don't care
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
You are in my head
But you only think about her
You make me wanna wish I was dead
But you don't even care
Jul 2015 · 2.7k
My Colours
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
You try to talk me out of it
But I am what I want to be
You can't change my colours
They are a part of me
Jul 2015 · 2.2k
Confession
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I can't sleep
Since there is a secret
I endlessly keep

I'm just gonna look you in the eye
Hold your Hand
And tell you that I am Bi
Jul 2015 · 1.8k
I'm not alone
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
You are important to me
Thats why I'm gonna tell you
You'll always be my friend
I hope it's true

No matter how you'll react
It will be okay
Since I know I'm not alone
With being gay
Jul 2015 · 387
She is not a He
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
She is the light
Without I can't fall asleep
Appears in my dreams
She is the one I want to keep

Her smile, it makes me lose my mind
When she looks at me
I could do anything for her
But unfortunately she is not a he

I'm falling for her
Every day
The whole problem is
That I am gay
Jul 2015 · 9.7k
Mirror's Doll
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
Mirror Mirror on the wall
What have I done
To deserve this all

Mirror Mirror on the wall
I can't take it anymore
They just wanna see me fall

Mirror Mirror on the wall
You'll see me on the floor
Mirror Mirror on the wall
I don't want to be your doll
Jul 2015 · 544
Written by a girl
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I will never be as beautiful as them
But I am what I am
And I sometimes think about
Beeing a man
Jul 2015 · 410
No Hope
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
To all the thoughts in my head
You shot me
I'm dead
Thoughts can be more painful than the actall words that someone said to you
Jul 2015 · 309
Infinite Friendship
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
I once had a friend
He would always defend
Me from the contend
Of the things that offend

And one day it happened
My life was about to expend
And he held my hand
Until the end
Just something nice for everyone who needs a friend :) I am there for you!
Jul 2015 · 646
To my best friend
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
If I told you
Would you understand?
Or would our friendship
Come to an end?

After that confess
Would you still be my mate?
Could you still show up with me
If I wasn't straight?
Jul 2015 · 1.1k
Mistakes (short one)
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
Every mistake I ever made
Is like a knife in my heart
And if I'd count them
Hundreds would rip me apart
Jul 2015 · 498
I am washed away
Tomlinsonsgun Jul 2015
She is the foam of the sea
Untouched and innocent
Smooth dancing on the waves
Every so slight movement making her seem vulnerable
But still in the most dominant way

She is slim so she can fit into the distance between his fingertips when he spreads his arms to beg for her
She is drowning him
He is inferior

He is the travelling wave
Never loosing his feeling of rythm
Playing the same song every day
Dancing to it
Looking for his perfect match

I am the puzzled Sand
Sticking to everything but nowhere wanted
Uneven, rough and misshaped
An offence to every coast
I am out of place

He is an unfinished artwork
Beautiful look of imperfection
A clear water beast
Rising explosive and
Settleing gentle
She loves the song he sings
It's like he is singing to her
The foam clings so good to the shifting water

And together they create
The perfect sea
Every edge uncurling
The unremarkable sand in their way

But with every dance they dance in union
Parts of me are teared apart
And send to every cardinal direction
By the fair-minded elements
Until nothing of the sand remains

So the sea is eventually merged
Joyfull dancing and singing
The song of freedom and affection

She is the foam of the sea
and he is the travelling wave

I am washed away
The poem is about two people falling in Love while another one loves one of them but is in their way. Everything compared to the sea. (3rd wheel) It's my first one so sorry for any mistakes ...

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