tiffy: Poems

tiffy Nov 2013

would it be sad to say that i thought about jumping in front of a train today
yet the thought of me leaving you here makes me hesitate and step back
how thrilling it is to stand on that yellow painted line
how it teases me with the possibility of reincarnation
the fast moving air passes me by , and takes my hair along with it in a smooth motion
tisk tisk .. the voice in my head whispers
the train doors open and i plop myself in
i had the chance
why didn't i just jump ..

- ts

cliff

tiffy Oct 2013

cliff

oh cliff ,
i'm happy with you it's probably the most craziest thing.
i think i'm happy again .. you make me the happiest .. thank you for being my friend first.
thank you ..

- ts

confused

tiffy Dec 2013

confused

i finally want it now
                        and it's all going wrong
                                           i finally want it now
                                                          so why won't it stay

                                                                               - ts

day 14

tiffy Jan 2014

day 14

it's already day 14
2014 has been nothing but great memories , and yet i'm not content
but then i am ..
it's all moving to fast
i can hardly keep up ..
yet i still manage to make it last second without counting
it's already day 14 of 2014
and i'm happy
and that scares me .. i don't want to ruin it
not this year .

- ts

finally.

tiffy Nov 2013

finally.

i was so shocked .. to see it really posted up.
no boy had ever done the honor , i was always the one to ignite the fire.
but he did it ....
he proved it to me , that i could finally let go and put my past behind me and let him in.
i was so shocked .. to see it really posted up.
all of a sudden " my " picture became " our " picture.
and i loved it.

- ts

halloween blues

tiffy Nov 2013

halloween blues

i'm such a depressed person
and well
depression loves it.

- ts

i never really knew

tiffy Oct 2013

i never really knew

i never really knew what i wanted out of life
i still have no clue what i want or need
i want so many things it's really hard to narrow them down
i mean to things that will benefit me in the future and such
but i guess what i'm trying to get at is that i am really lost
and i never really knew i was until now

- ts

let me go ..

tiffy Feb 2014

let me go ..

i did it .. i got into columbia college of chicago.
the greatest art school in my opinion.
i doubted myself , and got the greatest reward in return of an acceptance.
so happy for myself i was blinded by the other people who weren't.
my own mother .. with the excuse of " it's to far " " you can't hack it " " why " ...
i sit here now confused and baffled to why she isn't happy for me.
why is she holding me back ..
why is she being so selfish ?
the same question has been running through my mind ..
i'm so confused ..
i'm still going to chicago , even if she lets me go or not.
she has to learn to let me go.

- ts

northeastern

tiffy Oct 2014

northeastern

college is pretty weird for the most part
yet i don't find myself complaining
to be honest
it's kind of not all that
the hype really does ****
how sad when you're dying to leave high school so bad
you really end up missing it

- ts

nov 6th

tiffy Nov 2013

nov 6th

it's honestly just long over due
i'm getting tired of waiting and being the most patient in the bunch
i thought things were getting better ...
it seemed that way
i don't think fall is my favorite season anymore
it gives me to many expectations to wait up for ..
and i'm getting tired of waiting and being the most patient in the bunch

- ts

pillow thoughts

tiffy Oct 2013

pillow thoughts

i feel like every step forward i take i always end up two steps back.
i try so hard just to make him feel so special.
and yet it goes unnoticed on the days i want him to notice it the most.
why must love play so hard to get ?
isn't that my job ...

- ts

sunday .

tiffy Oct 2013

sunday .

this isn't really a poem , but more of just how i feel today.
i'm just here listening to good ones go by drake , and i can't help but just think of you.
and how you really messed things up for me.
and i just hope that one day you realize that you really let a good one go.
but honestly , i should be telling you this instead of just writing it here on some website.
but i mean it wouldn't matter.
but let me go , before i stay to long.

- ts

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