Thomas Alan

Thomas Alan Nov 11

00:23

could you put up with the pain for so long
only because you truly loved me?
or could you only leave
because you stopped loving me in the end?

perhaps the truth
sits somewhere in the middle
and that

is my worst fear of all

Thomas Alan Oct 7

we weren't ever meant to be

I'm happy that he loves you
in ways that I could not
because our story had to die
and so did the all the rot

I see it clearly now
that things weren't to be
because I just weren't for you
and you just weren't for me

and the reason is because
we weren't ever meant to be

Thomas Alan Oct 7

spite

are we both now someone else
living out some other life?
are we just strangers in the wind
just being happy out of spite?

Thomas Alan Oct 7

thin

you caught my heart
after the closing of the door
and so you weren't around
to see the blood stains on the floor

i wanted us
but then you wanted him
and making myself thin
did not mean that I would win

Thomas Alan Sep 2023

turning out the lights

I told myself you may have loved him
but only out of spite
and that I hide behind your eyelids
when he's turning out the lights

Thomas Alan Sep 2023

The wrongs I could not right

'suppose none of it matters
and who cares if i'm desired?
turns out brain and heart
have always been hard-wired

tired of the evening
even more so of the night
exhausted from the tears
all the wrongs i could not right

Thomas Alan Jun 2023

The mould

I was a star in your sky
that refused to get old
then I was the blue on your bread
when you scraped away the mould