Tired thoughts have taken over
Slacking on grammar
Word choice
Sentence structure
Originality
Plausibility
But you're still quick
And loud
In my sleepy brain and heart

You told me you
              Couldn't find your way
                                     In your darkest nights
So I left you a star
               A star in every poem
                               To find your way home

Oh no,
no, no, no, no, no!
I don't think of you like that at all.

Not during day's tiresome hours between odd jobs, even times
Not at nights when I lay down to sleep or when sleep is far away,
I do better jobs
Like.... like. anything.
I don't see your face among crowds, don't miss you when I'm between people
Don't hear your laughter
Don't find myself shattering
or struggling
to run away
I don't, don't still see your initials on the screen of my phone, shining
Don't visualize getting a message from you, oh, never
I don't go about hoping we could get out of it and be Okay,
I don't keep saying I believe in "good" byes. And I am not sad.
And I never lie.

Do you realize
that you still think of him
when you're thinking nothing?