Thepillar

Thepillar May 2018

Do you like breaking hearts?
Do you like watching me suffer?
It's been like this from the start.
Yet you always look for another.
My skin feels like it's set aflame.
And the pain won't go away.
My chest heavy with weight.
And my heart continuously aches.
But it's okay.
It's okay.
I'm fine.
I'll still stay with you.
I'll still talk with you.
I'll still love you.
Because each moment beside you just lessens this agony.
But leaves me yearning for more.
This is my personal hell.
My perpetual torment.
That I allow myself here willingly.
For the slimmest chance.
The slightest hope.
One time.
One day.
This will be worth it.
However, keep in mind.
Anything worth obtaining isn't easy to get.
So don't count me out on this yet.

Thepillar Dec 2017

Traitor.

You fiend.
How could I have trusted you?
Everything we've been through for what?
A punch in the chest, and not expected to get one back?
Telling me that all of that time was a waste?
Four years I called you a friend.
Now, you have the audacity to apologize to me?
What a joke, honestly.
Take your regret, and get out of my head.

#betrayal #traitor

Thepillar Dec 2017

Problems.

I tripped.
And hurt myself.
Wondering how someone can do that to me.
But I got up and dusted myself off.
Upon falling again I repeat this process.
Coming to the realization that.
I'm the cause and solution to all my problems.

#problems #solutions #self

Thepillar Dec 2017

Insensitive.

Cold.
I am cold.
I'm shaking yet.
I don't feel sympathy.
Why is that?
Am I heartless?
Am I just insensitive?
Or have I become numb?
Being cold for so long.
Losing feeling, yet still living.
Am I merciless?
Am I cruel?
Or have I grown unsympathetic?
Being cold for so long.
Even without feeling, am I living?
Am I an abomination?
Am I inhuman?
How long must I be freezing before it eventually stops?

#sympathy #empathy #feeling #cold

Thepillar Dec 2017

Nocturnal Thoughts.

During the night is when one can gaze upon true darkness.
The pitch black of not being able to see your hand in front of your face.
The veil of shadows cast over your eyes rendering you blind.
The unnerving twilight that consumes you.
The obscuring presence that surrounds you.
But all of that changes with the smallest glimmer of light.

#darkness #hope

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