I am the toxic one
The toxic friend the toxic girl the one
That makes me overthink and drive away
The ones I love
It’s me I am the toxic thing
Inside my head, inside my brain
The one that’s walking me and leading me
To pictures causing pain
The photos that you post online
It’s toxic that I type the words
to know exactly where to find you
In my eyes images burn
Into my dreams, my toxic dreams
Of this sick competitive spiel
That drives me to my hopes
And sticks to all things that are dear
I can’t believe that you stopped talking to me
I can’t believe how bad I feel
And all the while you do not think of me
As much as I do, clearly
Otherwise you’d text and message me
You’d wonder who I am
I just wonder if you see my pictures
I wonder if you see my band
Oh god I like these posts of cutting
all toxicity, be free,
but it is me
I’m the toxic thing that’s lurking in your past
And while I hope that we might talk one day
And become toxic friends
Even though I tried before
And it didn’t make amends
I can’t stop thinking about you, really
Even passively inhaling
All the glitter that escapes your skin
The makeup you are wearing
God, it’s me. I am the toxic thing
The thing that makes you run.
I’m the thing that people warn you of
stay clear, she is no fun.
I’m the monster in the dark
I am miss havisham I guess
Walking round this dusty mansion
In my torn up wedding dress
I am so stupid for believing
Years I’ve waited holding on
To the hope that friends once made
Will be there forever young
But I am clingy, I am weird
They mostly spit on me and swear
But even friends with back hand compliments
Just leave me in despair
But it is me
I am the toxic thing
My actions are just bad
And subjectively the role I play
In your story is sad
I’m the villain
I’m the spooky one
That won’t leave you alone
Because some ****** up reasons
Dumb attachment
Makes me hate alone
So there it is.
No more dreams of you
I cannot bear the sight.
You remind me that
I am a ****** up creature
In the light
So I am the toxic one.
Not just to you what you to me.
So I’ll write my therapy
And go to sleep just leave me be