Alexis K

Alexis K Mar 19

I see you.
Writing love lyrics,
Wistful dreamy poems
They are beautiful.

Everytime I read one, I smile.
Because they are beautiful.
I can't produce my own for the darkness controls me.
My words are venom, poison leaking from my veins.
My rhymes are sobbed and not spoken.
My lyrics bring tears to the eyes.

Because it's hard to write what's beautiful.
When the world is so vicious.
I envy the naivete.

Alexis K Mar 19

It Takes Time

It won't work for a few weeks...
Months...
Increases...
Med changes...

You have to give it time.
You have to work hard.
I've been fighting my entire life;
Just asking for some ******* help.

It doesn't seem worth the time,
When all my energy is used
Simply retrieving said meds.
Just for no change at all.

I hope it will be worth it anyway.

Alexis K Mar 19

Flesh Prison

My body
If I could control it,
If I was fully aware,
I would stop my heart from pumping.

Free my soul.
From this flesh prison
That keeps me down.

Alexis K Mar 3

Prisoner

In my own body.

Unable to life the weight.
Pulling me into the cement.
Unable to hear the world around me.
My heartbeat too loud.

Prisoner.

In my own mind.

Locked behind bars,
And Unable to need.
Numb, or screaming trying to get out.
Both locked inside the walls.
Nobody but myself to hear.

Prisoner.

#fatigue #depression #quietbpd

Alexis K Feb 28

Silence

Words scribbled in agony...
Cries screamed into the void...

Sounds of life.
Of coping.

Silence is the real killer.
When I need the most.
I say the least.

#mentalillness

Alexis K Feb 6

To My Lover

Whom hasn't been loved before.
Who hasn't learned to accept it.
Doesn't believe himself worthy of it.

I am excited.
To see the softness in your eyes,
As you realize just how much I love you.
I am honored to love you how you never knew you needed.

Alexis K Jan 21

"Why are you so tired?"

Because there's
Fire along my skin.
Ice shards in my lungs.
War in my head.
I've anvils for feet.
Air feels like water.
I'm drowning, unable to move.
Paralyzed in life.