Will all these roads lead to you?
If I just keep walking on, head strong
Even though my heart's wrong..
Will all these poems lead me to your love?
If i just keep writing on, eyes locked,
On your heart, but that's locked too..
Should I keep talking, or maybe I'll shut up and sing
Since you like my voice better when I'm not crying

Will all these moments we shared, remain in your galaxy,
Or will better ones take over,
And then you forget me?

Will all these stars still spell out your name?
Even if prettier names appear in my atmosphere,
Even then,
Will I still love you?

I wonder..

Even then...
Will I still want to?

https://soundcloud.com/sbdragonslayer/doubt-for-christina-grimmie

Please take a moment to hear my little cover for her.

Whether you knew her personally or just heard of her, whether you were a fan or just thought she was a sweet girl....

Give it a listen, take a few moments to also realise that...

Life is **** short, and often unfair.

Welcome to Cathytown where the grass is always pinker.
Where the moon and the sun fall in love and where everything's better when everyones together.
I had a heart to heart with my mum today, I was angry that.. She didn't understand me, I was afraid that she didn't love me and that it was my own fault.
She told me I couldn't be anymore wrong, that she shouts at me so I can grow, she's ******* me because...
Well, no one else is..
Not in Cathytown.

She said I have to grow up eventually, and see that the world isn't as sensitive as I'm going to be.
She said she loves me so much her heart hurts every time I stay out til midnight after every row and argument but she can't reach out because I'm too hurt to let her in.
She said I was born perfect, two eyes, two hands, two legs, perfectly healthy. So it hurts her when I say I'm not beautiful, not good enough.

Cathytown... Where dreams come true in a blink of an eye,
Cathytown, where friendship is forever
And true love can blossom and *** isn't as important as intimate conversations.

Please let me stay in Cathytown...
Where I can watch disneychannel and drink tea and make others happy by just being me..
I know I get sad sometimes,
But staying strong is my anthem
I know I get dramatic and weird and over emotional
... But hey, that's just me.

We go through life thinking
"Oh what if?" And about all that should have been..
Comparisons are poison, oh how it leaves me wondering;
Am I not as beautiful as the flower you have picked up today?
Is that because you didn't notice that flower yesterday, and I started to shy away?
Am I not as kind as the Sun, who lets the Moon shine in your darkest moments?..
Am I just a sad song, the same broken record stuck on repeat?
& Is that why you'd rather listen to something else more uplifting than me?

We go through life, growing, and changing.
I am not the same as I used to be,
And everyday I'm getting closer to who I will be.
So why does it bother me, if you think about me differently?
Surely this life of mine is my life alone; and I'm the one in control you see..

But I'm not..
No, not really.
Because I care...
I care so much.

I wonder who I am to you,
And if I'll ever be enough
I wonder about the parts you don't love about yourself
And how those parts are just petals and you, the flower, you're still gorgeous regardless

Tell me you'll never give up
Tell me you'll reach for the stars.
Cause who you are to me,
Is not a secret..
Darling, you're my heart.

I'll get a tattoo when you're gone,
Something just for me..
So at least then I'll feel pain from something else,
And by the end, i'll feel like a pretty art piece

I'll keep on writing songs even when,
You see me off with goodbye
Cause darling you're the catchiest song,
I've ever danced to in my life
So when it all makes sense in uni,
And you find the love you deserve
Don't forget, at 19 you met a girl who kissed you with her words

I'm working day and night
Just to make a name, make a life for myself..
Imagine where we'll be next year,
You seeing the world
And me crushing on someone else
Oh is it dark in your mind?
Cause if so i can be the light
If you just hear me out..
I know I tend to get so insecure and impulsive
Its hard to believe I'd ever settle down

But I know that the universe is on my side, I'm..
Picking up on all of these signs
Like, a heart to heart with a stranger at the right place at the right time
Oh I'll be alright,
I love late bus rides speeding down the highway
Whilst listening to sad yet beautiful songs stuck on replay
And now that I'm finding out you're not the one...
I'm gonna smile anyway,
Cause its a long way we've come <3

Some people are holograms,
They appear to be there but in reality they're long gone..
Some people are mirrors,
They see things that you don't see about yourself and they love those things.
Some people are artists,
And other people are the art
Few people are both
Because not everyone has a pure heart
These are just my views and opinions
I have these little Cathy theories I believe in,
Like how.. The Universe is always leaving us signs
Some people accept the good and the bad,
Most people make up their own signs sometimes even toxic people come with the signs.

Some people are lovers,
Two types; heartbroken & in love
Some people give up,
You did, I won't...
Some people are platonic.
Some people...
But not us.

I wonder what my future wife would be like,
If she'd be exactly just like me..
I wonder if she'll be the same height
Thats.. 5ft2/ & on a good day 5 foot 3
I hope i can make her laugh
Make her smile as soon as she wakes up
I would learn some ukulele,
just to serenade her at breakfast
And when the stars come out to play at night, we'll behave pretty wild, young and reckless
And if i ever make it as a star someday,
I'll write songs about all these moments
& I hope she likes how i met your mother and crosswords too
And inspires me like a camera to stay in focus
Oh I just don't want to believe that theres nobody for me
Cause i'm a truly, true romantic..
So universe if you're listening
Find the girl that I keep missing..
& send her a sign from me