I cannot place my finger on it
I cannot yet speak the truth
Instead I'll lay the baseline to it
And explain the concept of my youth
As a little boy, fear lead supreme
It held me back from achieving my goal
But now fear is my go-to scheme
By accepting this I gain control
Fear used to make me fight or run
I'd be volatile yet full of drive
But now I channel this loaded gun
And use it to help me survive
This energy comes and sharpens my view
I can focus completely on the task to be done
But before the use of fear sounds new
Let's return to where i begun
Fear, energy, focus and speed
The four main traits of my fixation
Have lead to illness, stress and ****
Because the word is ...
Procrastination
My skills in fear manipulation, energy creation, focus direction and speed acquisition have taken me through battles of stress induced Epilepsy, Crohn's disease and Asperger's syndrome (Autism). Its a shame these skills are too respected in the civilized world