I put on a fake smile
Just so people won't
Ask if I'm okay
"Yeah I'm fine"
I would say if they asked
And give them a fake smile

I get help and hugs
People pray for me
And I accept them
But I don't know
If I deserve any of this
Why do you try to help me
When I am sad and crying?
Why do you care?
I am just another
Camp member
You don't know what is
Happening to me
Yet you want to help
Thank you but
I don't deserve such
Nice things

I'm surrounded by
People that care
And want to help me
But I feel alone
And afraid
I have tried not to cry
But even here
I cannot hold it in
I run away from
My friend that wants
To help me and heal me
And hind in the corner and cry

I thought getting away
And being with others
Would make it stop
But no, it did not
I think of you
A lot more now that
I don't have the
Distractions I have at home
I wish I could tell you
That I miss you
And that
.......

I carry it around
With me everywhere
It makes me happy
Every time I see it
A gift you gave me
I absolutely love it

I look at you and
Wish I could kiss you
I sit next to you and
I could hug and cuddle with you
You lie next to me and
I wish I could lie my head
down on your stomach
You smile and
I wish I could say anything to you
You cry or look sad and
I wish I could comfort you