Now the spirit raised
By a ******
or two.
Through hell
and back
But back
is where i choose.
A program of abstinence

Of ****** to ******
They know of this fire ice
thick and chunky.

The death
of one life
Birth of another.
Now i live
I give
No longer do i play,
But pray
For my brother
Who still desire
The fire.

a destructive force
that provides power
has resulted
in my darkest hour
The Sun has been hidden
And forbidden
from my eyes
through flaming hoops of despair
I must realize the son's eyes
worry for care.
sacrifice today
with tears of fear and pain
to enjoy a better tomorrow
       without sorrow
from the destructive games
the days will brighten
as the Sun clears the clouds
I will move the Sun
if my emotions are loud
one more day
allow me to stay
then plunge me into darkness
until I can bring the world
for
     which
            the sun
                       exists.

I saw the sun today.
it did not rise nor did it set,
it lingered
in the air
at first my thought was of despair
then it turned
turned
Turned
to you for whom I care
the lingering sun then made me smile because i knew
you
could enjoy it for a while.
so when you feel the sun
gently touch your skin
Know I'm smiling from within
this horrible place
dark and dank
still
smilin'
in my prison

Thoughts of a criminal father.
addict thief impoverished loss of riches gained.
wanting better for my only son
and only sin has brought us close
to our goal.
Thoughts move forward
putting criminality behind
while we are lowest in our life.
Overcoming these roaches and rats
no friends have come
and THEY have my son
I want my son.

go with what I know?
or take my time moving slow?
these are the thoughts of a
criminal father