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Your Physical Self
is not your only Self.

Your Physical Self
is not your only Self
enduring Growing Pains;

it seems that One's Spiritual Self
must either accept what is and learn and move on;
or be humbled
over and over
and over,
and over
again.

You are not alone in your Body;
Your body is a balance of trillions of Aspects:
from the microscopic to the psychologic
to the perhaps physically transcendent;
each Aspect of One's Self must undergo
a period of humbling we've come to call
"Growing Pains"
When encountering someone who selfishly insists on having the final word:
simply boycott their ******* by not dignifying them with a response,
and maybe they'll be too anxious in their own Mind,
and maybe they'll realize that what they said
really had no ******* place
being the last words,

and by then, it'll be too late.

A lesson in and of itself.
I'm sorry. I apologize. I never want to hurt anyone ever again. I know that sometimes we do or say things we don't mean, but even though we don't mean these things they still hurt people. I don't want to be remembered as  the girl who mistreated others because she was so upset with herself. I'm not going to purposely or even non-purposely make someone feel sad or upset. I care. If I've ever mistreated you or hurt you. Please understand that I made a mistake. I may not have realized I hurt you. But I'm sorry. You don't have to forgive me. Just know that purposely hurting someone was never my intention. And it will never be. I'm genuinely  sorry. Truly.
You don't seem to think with Reason;
root Chakra so loud and gratifying.

So very much louder,
and as if that makes it right,
and as if it makes up for
all that lack of self control:

You don't seem to think with Reason,
your root Chakra is your puppeteer.

Playing with Fire,
One gets ******* burnt.
What did you expect? Then again,
you don't seem to think with Reason.

Unbalanced Root Chakra;
so very loud and gratifying,
leaves you cracked and empty;
hollow. Wallowing. I know
this is hard to swallow,
but, do you follow?

You bring it on yourself!
You called it down, summoned it!

You played with Root Chakra Fire
and we're all still getting burnt.
You might have saved yourself,
but I am still enduring it;

Each time I think of Love,
Pain instead comes to Mind
because that is how those I have Loved have treated me.

"You're such a good person", they've said.
Hah! That's either ******* or just insincere,
'cause they've sure as **** shown me
what it is they thought I deserved:

Reap the words of one you've broken down.
Behold the Wrath you've ******* sewn about!
Dark Actions propagate dark Feelings;
Face the repercussions of your Actions:

This is a Reflection of you!
This is a Reflection of what you have done!
This is no appeal to Guilt;
for what good would that do?
--
I guess we must think differently, and that's fine.
I guess I am just so offended
'cause I hold *** with reverence;
To me, *** ******* means something,
and I thought of *** as an extension and expression of our Love and
not just another ******* Addiction.

Turns out it was just another ******* Addiction
and you got your ******* fix,
but where's mine?

You've become just another ******* Addiction
that I am now forced to quit
cold-turkey.

Just another addiction.
(I was) Just another addiction.
(You are) Just another addiction.
Just another ******* Addiction after all.
Honestly, I woke up crying this morning and this was the first thing that came to mind thereafter.

I wrote it in hopes it would help. It has.
I recorded in hopes it would help further, and it has:
https://soundcloud.com/apexparadigm/just-another-*******-addiction
I hope that as I lay upon my Deathbed
my thoughts are: "Well, I had a good run."
rather than having regrets for all of the things
that are inevitably left undone.

[I shall]
Strive to make it so.
Whether metaphorical or literal, or both!
I wouldn't want someone who wants me for them;
I would like someone who wants me for me.
Though, to have both.. mm.. now, that'd be a dream.
"You are what you do, not what you say."
The cardinal difference between a group and a cult
seems to be the discrepancy of knowledge (and, furthermore, intention)
between the higher-ups and those down below.

But, the problem looms
that by this definition;

.
..
..!
oh, ****!
..!!!
We need to do something!
It's kinda funny, in this Language,
that the following two words should rhyme:

Rise and Demise

To me, it sort of implies a correlation:
philosophically rationalized
linguistic ties;
phonetic lies,
the phonetics lie.
Which lie? Will I clarify?

Certainly not!

For it is
double entendre;
maybe more, maybe less.
But nevertheless, the moral of the story is:

[this] Language is kinda funny.
"I used to think the worst thing in life
was to end up all alone, it's not.
The worst thing in life
is to end up with people
who make you feel all alone."
-Robin Williams
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