You live in the building
across from me
you're four numbers away
away from hearing your voice
& it takes me in all
that I can try to do
to not cross that street
to knock on that door
or pick up that telephone
& it kills me
because I have never loved
a man
as I love you

But I digress
& I have regressed back
to someone
I never wished to be
I have to face the road now where
there is no choice in my lonesomeness
for at a minimum of the time being
simply to attempt to tap
into becoming me
find who I am
be the best I can
because the thought of you
fills me with joy
but by the actions of my mind
my mouth decided to take
we have parted for now
until a later date

compared to the actions
Ill make
to become who I need
to be for me
& who I will become
to gain back that trust
I so unintentionally lost
and beg to receive back
& be in your arms again
feel that addicting kiss upon
my lips that are blushed with
the mere thought of contact
to see those sparkling eyes
directed at me with unspoken words
across the room
in your room
under your covers
surrounded by darkness
and the faint blue light
of your stereo
tantalizing us with lyrics
at midnight.

I want to write descriptive
Whispers from the night prior
That dance on my fingertips
Itching to burst out
On billions of sheets of paper
Playing tag from line to line

But the flow from this inspiration
Insists on inspecting the quality
Of letters leaping from my mouth
With such positivity
That I can’t possibly keep
Control of the ink that
Spills upon this page

So my hand continues movement
With remarkable motivation to complete
A work of art compiled of emotion
Whether it be from pain, pleasure, or
Pure adoration and the need
Dwelling inside my core like
Flames erupting, tickling the
Roof of the hearths mouth
Taunting to throw out threats in
Billows of smoke that will
Cause millions of heart s to melt

Still the skill I hold to move souls
Ceases to exist in the severity of all
Of everything in humanity
And all that is humane
When all I desire is to display
This dedication to this mission
To gain the momentum for all to
Hear my screams for salvation
To save me from
Myself.

A soft cool breeze
Ran along my skin
In the darkness of slumber,
Settling in.

Like a child in a field,
Jar in his hand,
Chasing the fireflies
Struggling to stand.

He’s catching my dreams,
Smile shimmering like gold.
His feet trailing sand,
My heart put on hold.

I felt something stir
And opened my eyes
To find you there
Right by my side.

I cuddle in closer,
Not an inch left of room.
Holding onto your warmth
Scene one, Part two.

As I lay in a haze,
Head on your chest,
Your heart beat slows
As you fall into rest.

My mouth forms a smirk.
My eyes drift back down.
My body relaxes.
Comfort is found.

I’m at a bridge of a breaking point cracking in place
And my toes are itching to step forward
With my voice about to echo fiercely
Furiously raging out of the wrongs done
From all the miniscule things said upon me
Resting on my shoulders pushing down heavily
Bowing my spine in multiple directions
Twisting it ways it was never meant to turn

My eyes are filled with boiling flames
As I swallow it down burning my throat
Soon to simmer in the far corners of my mind
A fight will erupt from my chest charred inside
From the millions of matches lit beneath my feet
Climbing up my body on molecules God created
From ash was I made to which I shall return
To settle on the path below that I walk
Fearlessly ready to sink teeth into anyone in the way

At this point my only desire steps towards that threshold
Snapping at the heels of ferocious passion
Begging me to reach out and grab indignation by the collar
Pulling it into me like a lover long lost
And as the wrath seeps into my nails they dig into skin
Burrowing deeper into the bones of enemies
Who once swore upon my name leaving me disgraced
But my grip comes undone upon their unfortunate necks
As a cool breeze taps along mine swaying my mind

And I smile at the thought of silence covering me
Caused by a sweet resonating sound in my ear
Angels purring away a fire starting in my heart
Saving the only scorched senses I have left
The vibration of their vibrato lies upon me
Snuffing out a blazing inferno engulfing my soul
Finally able to breathe without the ignition of embers
They calmed the flickers of seething anger
And rested a glass of hope in my palm
Extinguishing the flames dancing behind my eyes
Quenching the hunger of resentment
Settling my heart after all that of which
Could never be fixed inside

I know the curve of your back
like a lullaby sung to me when young
imprinted on my mind

& I can taste the salt on your skin
On the tip of my very own tongue
like candy melting in my mouth

your eyes sparkle
dancing through my dreams
Thoughtlessly tantalizing me
tempting my heart to fall further in

& I beg to sleep forever so that I
remember that face & curly black hair
curving around each of my fingertips
as you stir against me in your slumber

& I hope you think of me
& my lips grazing upon your skin
that you never forget
the love I have for you
that I have never given
to any other man