#zoningout
the room is full
people talk
not in the dark
where the silence walks
but in the world where dreams can be told
where lives can unfold
in this room
whispers find their place
worries fade away
tomorrow isn't even close
hope I didn’t make the wrong choice
happiness is the main character
in this room
please let no one notice I'm on my own
when music is screaming
I'm just breathing
so when the time comes
when legs are too heavy
and the heart starts to carry
I sit
just sit
with my head against the wall
my back in position
and the vision way too dark, eyes closed
breathing in and breathing out
may the silent never get this loud
Jun 26, 2025
Jun 26, 2025 at 9:48 AM UTC
i zone out
when i find myself
falling in a rabbit hole
mid-comment scroll
to think of nothing
and everything
to think of where i am
where im headed
and where ill stop
to think of who i was
who i am
who im being
and who ill become
to think of why i do the things i do
what my purpose is
what it is to be in love with myself
like how all the other girls seem to be.
Sep 15, 2021
Sep 15, 2021 at 11:20 AM UTC
Intoxicated by my thoughts.
Wishing I knew what is making it all swerve around like snake or worm. I don’t know what caused it? It might had been the tragic event that happened on Wednesday? Even maybe this might be my next mental state prospective; that is strange like all of them.
I wish that everything was normal and that I could think straight. Too many things my brain can process, a tragic event or my brain trying to confused me with answers on a test cause I start thinking about my future. Wishing I could go back to the past and be in those comfort memories, that I day dream about and play in a movie in my brain on constant.
Only if I could dissect brain. Though I’m in this real world; I’m supposedly in. I could dissect it; however, it would be hard cause I have Derealization and Dyslexia.
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
2:17 PM.
It hits me, I'm late.
2:17 PM - 2:18 PM.
My heart begins to ache.
2:19 PM .
I realize my life is over.
2:20 PM.
I gaze through the car's window into the sky.
2:20 PM.
I question my entire existence.
2:20 PM.
A tear escapes my eye.
2:20 PM.
Driver asks what's wrong.
2:20 PM.
"I'm late, again." I say out loud.
2:21 PM.
I realize I'm actually 3 hours and 39 minutes early.
2:22 PM.
My heart continues to ache; my life isn't over. Ugh.
Oct 14, 2018
Oct 14, 2018 at 11:30 PM UTC