#youareworthy
Why did it take so long
For me to face my fears?
To realise I was strong.
Strength would wipe away my tears.
A question asked by many.
Those looking within,
Those who cannot bury,
And feeling stretched thin.
Finding myself;
A life long quest.
'Look to thyself'
Given time, given rest
Your time will come.
Love and friendships will fade,
Depression that leaves you numb,
No doubt leaves us afraid.
Darling don't fret.
Your power is there,
Unseen as of yet,
Ready to glow and glare.
There are many nights ahead,
Soundless and sleepless alike,
Full of worry and dread,
Tears ready to strike.
These cannot be controlled,
Nor should they be feared.
Let the feelings roll,
Allow your mind to be cleared.
This cycle is found,
Over and over again.
Though you aren't bound
to hold onto the pain.
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 3:23 PM UTC
I was always told girls don't cuss
they don't speak out of turn
they let the guy control the relationship
I was 5 when my mom told me to sit
Even straighter than the 180 degree line
I sat at
She said boys were scouting
And I was their prey
I didn't know
the way I dressed
Determined
If I was a ***** or not
Because we live
In a society
where **** shaming
Is encouraged
And how many girls
Did you **** last night
was an encouragement
But if I try and tell someone
I want attention
And I’m not really the victim
Because it was my fault
For dressing like I wanted it
My father told me not to argue with men
So the second time
You encased
Me in my nightmare
I didn’t try to fight
bruises linger from the first time
I felt worthless
you made me lose my worth
because my shoulder was
too provoking
the spark in my eyes gone
the emotion held on my face
non existent
as you pined me to the floor
you said
don't tell anyone
and my father taught me
to never argue with a man.
Jul 22, 2018
Jul 22, 2018 at 7:01 PM UTC
Last night I saw the fear in your eyes
the vulnerability seeping in.
I made you vulnerable and you hated me for that
you hated that I was the only one
who actually made you feel something
so you had to go and cheat
but I was the **** all though your inbox
says different
A flirty message with a heart faced attached
it doesn't mean anything I tell myself
he loves me.
But I never truly believed. Us girls caught
up in our heads is he thinking of me too.
you broke my heart and I want to break your spine
my therapist says letting anger out is healthy
but I actually want you to die
I want you to feel the pain I felt when I saw you with not the first but the third girl. But I was the idiot for going back.
I want you to not be able to sleep at night
Having panic attack after panic attack
wondering why you were never good enough
I want you to die
because I see in colors and you shut your blue eyes and now all I see is black.
because you said you loved me
and her
and her
my liver trying to accommodate all the alcohol just to get a weakened smile
my veins screaming for me to stop
bleeding them dry my head spiraling trying to get me to think of anything else but you
your manipulative blue eyes and your sinful lips but I am my own worst enemy
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 7:21 PM UTC
I Longed for your validation
I thought that if you loved me
I could start to love myself
But fighting for your love only made me hate myself more.
-SelfLove ComesFirst
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 7:29 AM UTC