#wrecked
Words are a sail,
that is either
Greeted at the port of others.
Or shipwrecked on the rocks
of
ignorance...
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 5:17 AM UTC
You needed a boat for self discovery
guided me to a cherished recovery
yes, I healed but you broke me again
Left me how you found me, in pain...
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 6:29 PM UTC
My pulse is raising.
Sweat appears in my palms.
My fingertips are turning ice cold.
And so, follows the rest of my body.
I keep asking myself why?
But I can never seem to settle on a proper answer.
It´s an unlike pain,
that doesn´t physically hurt.
An immense trembling
that touches every nerve,
of my wrecked system.
It´s something that I can never understand.
I cannot quite grasp,
what my body is trying to tell me.
Involuntarily,
I´m forcing myself to insanity.
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 6:41 AM UTC
The sight of you makes me happy.
When you call me by my nickname,
It makes my heart flutter.
When you tease me,
I seek for more.
Am I completely wrecked by you?
It is sad that I don't have chances for you too.
The sight of you with kids,
Makes me fall more.
Is this a chance to forget my bunny?
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 8:02 PM UTC
All beyond reaches of our own
Stretch of sea, land of the deep
In deathly still waves
Carried the weight of prophecy
Circumnavigating ---
Wrecked ship, so as I
Syphoned by the time
Pitch black in heart of sea
In this river of abyss, wake of sorrow
Darkness shrouds our being
Colors of my soul stolen
Fading, further and farther
From my spirit
Drowning into your darkness
As I gaze into abyss
And gaze upon mine
See no reflection
But drowned to your eyes
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
How do you still not understand?
Could never forget the life we enjoyed
You are a storm wreaking continuous havoc
With a single breath I am left destroyed
Every petal you touch gets wrecked
Hurts too bad to endure another round
Fingers feel like lightning burning my skin
Even removed tingled where your hand wrapped around
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
I once was found
But now I am lost
Took a wrong turn
Got my signals crossed
Used to know who I was
Now I don't have a clue
My world's been flipped
Since I first met you
My life was planned out
I had a grand vision
Now it's been wrecked
By our reckless collision
But I'd rather be lost
On this wild ride
Than find all I desire
Without you by my side
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 10:49 PM UTC
currently in a battle with a dream
I have not expected to be this hard,
to be this complicated & mind-wrecking
until I realized, I'm trapped
trapped inside a prison cell
fighting for glory without strength, without drive
I'm beginning to feel my flesh, my soul
gradually turning black, burning down
this is not what I wanted, what I wished for
maybe this is not for me
i'm failing, falling too many times,
too tired to get up again and again
years passed, this is the last
I wonder if I am to escape atlast
before the time ticks too fast,
that I'll perish into bones and pass
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 10:24 AM UTC
I’m sorry I never seemed to care enough
You gave me nothing but love
Maybe I was scared,
Scared of what it was.
I know I wasn’t just a complete wreck,
You always showed me through your smile
If only we could just go back in time
I might just have you for a while.
Thank you so much for all the precious moments,
For those I could never pay you back.
And for never giving up on me
It was I who changed all that.
I’m sorry you wrecked your car that night
You made sure I was safe and sound
I can’t seem to get you off my mind lately
I could only dream to see you around
You treated me like nothing but a queen.
Even tucked me into bed one night,
I just wish you were in my life right now
It hurts to lose you out of sight.
I always try to come off strong and independent
But even you have seen me cry.
I’m so confused with life right now,
So I end up on a plane somehow
Hoping that my scattered thoughts will clear up on their own.
Sep 27, 2018
Sep 27, 2018 at 4:57 AM UTC
It began so simply.
We met
and talked at work.
You unburdened yourself
in conversations
in between hours
caring for others.
I was younger then,
less aware how
the world worked,
how feelings can
carry away, how long
a simple day.
We started meeting
outside of work:
you making excuses
to your husband then,
meeting in a park
or some night-time cafe,
far far away.
Then came
the weekends
away in London
or at that seaside town
sitting on the beach,
watching the sea
with simple chat,
watching gulls in flight,
walking the streets
until night.
It began so simply:
evolved into
something larger
and in the end,
beyond our scope,
like some leaking vessel,
let in water of reason
or doubt,
and seeing it sinking,
wanted it over,
wanted out.
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 3:10 AM UTC
I’ll fall.
My tarnished ideals,
Heavy on my heart
And filled to the brim
With intoxicating…
Lust?
It sweeps through my veins.
Leaving me wrecked,
Lost in dreams
The kisses of memory
A hazy shimmering world.
Heart pounding.
Beating.
Thrumming.
I’ll lose myself in the mists.
Emerging, filled with fire.
Jun 15, 2018
Jun 15, 2018 at 11:59 AM UTC
do I engulf your every waking breath
like you do for me?
you're a salted
crashing wave
so quickly filling
my hollow body,
drowning my bones
with your ocean blue spit.
cocooning inside my body
is the foam,
the remnants of
the rage of your wave,
it was so colossal
my ship was wrecked
and left
delipidated
& crushed,
rusted
& sunken,
moulded
& worthless
under the force of
the sand.
May 31, 2018
May 31, 2018 at 7:35 AM UTC
Look at me.. U cant hear, can u **** well ******* see?
Im the one been standing right there beside u with a heart youve felt beat
After repeat of deceit,
Kicking proudly using all 10 feet..
Where brokenness is a treat
Making me stand while u take a seat
Where u just weren't satisfied till agony took defeat!
Acting blinded! Not once seeing what waz there for u to keep!
Makin it look like this world has u beat!
Where u ******* preferred the streets
Leaving me to cry in our sheets
Dreaming of the days we had of feats
You being the lion
Me being the sheep
Should be staying right beside me
Instead you creep!
Your confidence becoming to steep
Head all fillin with heat
With this **** living on repeat!
Just halfway u had to meet!
Got me wearing heart on both sleeves
Spend all ur time throwing out what i been trying to keep
****
Where without you is the opposite of how i wished us to be
Where i love u
Where feelings stay unleashed
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 12:54 PM UTC
I am a small boat in a big ocean, all alone tugging along a wrecked ship...
Nights pass with heavy loads and day breaks with hardwork, yet I tug alone my wrecked ship...
Many storms come along, with tide so swift that I nearly lose my grip on my wrecked ship, lightening so bright and thunder roars gives me shivers of doubt that I might not make to the shore with my wrecked ship...
With a high aim and certainty, I tug along with my wrecked ship...
Days go by and I still see no land, will I be able to safely shore my wrecked ship...
Sometimes I see land but my sight has gone so blurry that even reality passes my sight...
Thinking I was taking the right path to the shore but the waves sway me in all directions, it's hard to tell which direction I am in now...
It's a big ocean and am all alone tugging my wrecked ship...
©sim
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 8:51 PM UTC
The train runs too fast
My dear i can't keep up
Droplets of rain
Start to fall down
Pouring onto me
Standing between the line
Of Xs and Os
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 3:04 AM UTC
I wonder how the stars discern us way down here,
like how beautiful we see them up there
I wonder how pink blue skies seem so ravishingly beautiful,
like how every mornings of my every day with you by my side
I wonder how the combined colors of orange and yellow and red sum up a magnificent art of sunset,
like how a combined you and me could be a masterpiece in an art gallery
I wonder how every seas and oceans send a genuine feeling of serenity,
like how surreal the feeling is whenever we listen to the scream of every waves as your hands interlace in me
I wonder how amazingly clouds turn into cotton candies and popping bubbles,
like how it remind us of our childhood during a hazy sunrise
I wonder how every drop of rain could equate to a fascinating emotion of gloominess yet contentment,
like how you satisfy me with the simplest way possible for you are so naive and spotless
I wonder how it was possible to fall in love with you
in a span of weeks and hours
and genuinely say on a morning Sunday,
**** it was insanely and undeniably beautiful dancing with you under the rain."
Nov 30, 2016
Nov 30, 2016 at 1:32 AM UTC
You wrecked me, you made me a mess.
I can't believe its been over two years since we met.
And over a year since we stopped talking.
I ended it, not you.
Well, I guess it was kind of mutual.
But nonetheless, you wrecked me, you made me a mess.
You told me I was special, that you wanted to be with me.
Played me with your words, tortured me with your lies.
What else should I have expected?
We did meet on Tinder, but that means nothing, does it?
But here we are, you wrecked me, you made me a mess.
I was swiping left and right a few months ago and you popped up again.
New picture, still attractive, still the same **** I knew before.
I immediately swiped left, but did you swipe right?
I searched you again on Facebook, to see how you're doing.
It just reminded me, you wrecked me, you made me a mess.
I'm glad we never ****** I'm glad it was just fooling around.
Obviously I wasn't anything you actually wanted.
Maybe you just wanted someone to **** with their emotions.
If that's so, you're **** good at it.
But what else is new, you wrecked me, you made me a mess.
Go ahead, treat the other girls like they're worthless.
Taunt them with your lies.
Tell them you want to be with them the same way you wanted to be with me.
So here I am at 11:37 thinking about you because;
You wrecked me, you made me a mess.
Oct 22, 2016
Oct 22, 2016 at 11:39 PM UTC
There becomes a time when you realize that your poetry is better than your fiction
The deaths in your life, sap your creativity.
With all dead friends, what can blossom?
Bad decisions and body parts
Like the flesh from a tree, positivity follows suit
But the arms of which carry you are wrecked
Because they are the arms of the grieved
The beautiful, belligerent, alcohol tolerant lives that you have left behind
There are your friends, that die like a hard rain.
But they are just as refreshing and reflect just as much sunlight.
But they die just the same
Suns die, stars burn out
Just as you realize that the hoped for importance of your writing was never as important as your friend
Sep 22, 2016
Sep 22, 2016 at 6:22 AM UTC
I blame my mind
For believing my heart
And picturing a future
That was only a dream.
I blame my lips
For believing my heart
And surrender to yours
When you had another.
I blame my eyes
For believing my heart
And ignore the truth
That you weren't mine.
I blame myself
For loosing you
And letting you go
When I did nothing wrong.
I will keep blaming
Everything but
My stupid
Careless
Wrecked heart.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 9:07 PM UTC
It's what hollow feels like. The most empty object that ever existed. So cold you don't even want to acknowledge it.
Walking this earth and living by your side. When darkness falls it disappeares into the earth. Soaked into the dirt like the roots of the oldest tree. There it lays, there it lives. Watches the world pass by.
The saddest, empty thing that ever was. It terrorizes hearts and lives, causes chaos and weeps at the wreckage. Banished from town to town, leaving pieces scattered on the trail to another. Never finding a destination. Never understanding itself.
It wants to be understood. It wants to hold your hand. It's cold and alone in this big world.
Can you relate?
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 2:25 PM UTC
Some things you cannot compete with . You just a have to miserably tear yourself down and hope that the next person likes the "perfection" that you have built for them . I guess there is fun in waiting for your own funeral because death has never looked so beautiful.
Aug 9, 2015
Aug 9, 2015 at 2:31 PM UTC
I walked through the evening bustle at the market and that was when I saw a woman. The only thing making her stand out from the rest is the glow of calling surrounding her. Skin caved in and I knew for all the lines on her body creates the story of the way her heart got broken at 14. The terrible things she did and 4am yells to god to forgive her. She begs for his mercy and help. God bless her now 76 years later lays a smile on her face though skin carrying the emotions she had and will have in her life.
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 9:31 AM UTC
i'm broken down
on the side of the road
and when people pass
they just drive faster
so they can pretend
not to see
so they cannot feel guilty
about passing someone
who desperately needs help
and i wonder why
they can get behind the wheel
when i can barely stand up.
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 12:55 PM UTC