#whenitissohard
You know what happens when for no reason you cry
When you are so tired that tears pour by itself
When you don’t know what you want and nothing to try
When you want to get lost like a snow on ice shelf
Sometimes I want to dance all day to loud music
Listening to hard songs with headphones in my ears
Trim hair, dye the opposite color, to be amusing
Or quietly lie under the blanket watching love films
Or go dancing whole night among strangers
Closing my eyes and feeling the rythme
Could I get drunk like the wayward teenagers?
Next day feeling sick, want to die once more little
Could I go fly to completely different place?
Where no one sees my fears, stay mislaid
Walk between strangers, don't feel to be chased
do not argue with someone, don't persuade
No! You can’t fly away, they’re waiting at home,
You have to be strong, carry this burden
You have to work, have to listen to some
Be adult, no time to fun, youth is murden
You can not wear bright funny clothes
You can not watch unpopular films
You can not dance with your eyes are closed
You can't listen to music that no one knows
It remains to pour tears when it's so hard
Sink to the bottom, so far only dream
True desire can not be strong barred
But it may become easier to scream
Could now I fly to where no one is looking
Be the one who owe nothing to you
Do what I want, to be no one's footing
Just a couple of days without saying "adieu"
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 4:39 AM UTC