#whatiswrongwithme
Anxiety
In your head,
In your soul,
Your biggest regrets,
Your darkest shame,
It might not even be real,
The thought too,
But anxiety is,
And it will make you fall,
And crumble until nothing is left,
Left to starve of happy moments in its sea of depression and fear,
Its your anxiety,
And it wont go.
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 6:44 PM UTC
i feel i am an acquired taste
maybe i'm not everyone's
cup of tea
i am one who will
not always
have the right words to say
but will search high and low
even down the back of the couch
to find ones that will fit
to make you smile
just so i know
you are happy
i won't always have the answers
to life's whys
and wherefores
but if you give me reason
i will believe in you
and follow your lead
to the ends of the earth
my only pleasure
will be in
my giving you
pleasure
i seem to be
wired
that way
it's just how
my heart works
i'm soft
and i can't change it
no matter how hard
i try
i guess most others
want the one
they share their life with
to have spirit
to be feisty
to be strong
but i am very often
none of those things
but
in my own way
i am them all
so
i come as a package deal
complete with fairy lights
a quiet soul
and a sunny disposition
i don't know if that's annoying
probably is
but like i said
i'm not everyone's
cup of tea
but i like coffee
so maybe it doesn't matter
all that much
so for now
i will keep it
to myself
for when the moment comes
and someone asks
to take me out to tea
until then
i will wait
patiently
with hope
behind my eyes
eyes which will always
look upon you
in wonder
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 4:40 PM UTC
One, two, three
What the **** is wrong with me
Four, five, six
I think my mind is kinda sick
Seven, eight, nine
Pretending that it will be just fine
Ten, eleven, twelve
Into my past, please dare not delve
Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen
My life's obscene
Sixteen, seventeen, eighteen
A ******* crime scene
Nineteen, twenty,
On the ground my blood is plenty
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 10:03 PM UTC
I am sorry
that I am rather obnoxious,
very unwanted,
and crazy needy.
I just always
seem to feel a bit better when
you take the time to
simply talk to me.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
It's driving me mad
I can't sleep and I can't read
Or knit to music
Or anything, and I'm done
I've had enough of it all.
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 1:14 AM UTC