#wariness
i hate it when i'm with a group and a person's laugh appears and sounds to be so real
but then the smile is quickly wiped off their face as they stare at nothing in particular
when the joke's finally said
and everybody else is finally done laughing
when they aren't aware of my awareness of their wariness
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 5:20 AM UTC
I don't know what I'm feeling anymore.
He loves me,
so why can't I let myself love him too?
What's holding me back?
And he says he loves me too,
so why am I so wary of his love, and often
left feeling unfulfilled and deserted?
I don't love me right now,
and when I look in the mirror
I don't recognize this person
in front of me anymore.
My nights are filled with
stolen kisses and
drunken ***
yet I'm always left alone
at the end of it.
And it's then, when I'm
lonely and tearful
that I question everything,
most of all
myself.
Mar 11, 2015
Mar 11, 2015 at 12:37 AM UTC
I want you to be my princess
God willing I will be your prince
I need you to kiss me in the moonlight
I don't think you could make me happier
Than you already do
I knew my words were cliche
But how else was I supposed to say
That she made my heart burst with love
Love that could not be quelled
That begged to burst forth
But was kept inside
Because of the guardedness of my heart
Because of memories of the pain
That sprung from saying it last time
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 12:29 AM UTC
She couldn't have tried like she did
and they couldn't have missed it
so easily.
A pretty simple task,
but too many see too much
and her eyes flicker with what she
could know.
She could feel like they wanted
but who would she be,
then?
When found--they stared,
for their creation had fell apart,
not what they
foresaw.
Disconnected,
for what she thought she was,
or perhaps,
who she actually became,
had started to dissolve.
Gazing at herself,
the rise of what could be
withers
and with that her eyes
cloud over once more,
where she loses touch.
Her only want
being seen by others, but
distracted by her own being.
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 6:29 PM UTC