#uphill
It keeps giving me the chills,
Is it a battle of uphills?
How can I guess the outcome,
When I'm still not clear of what I'll become,
Can I make the perfect choice?
And will I be able to rejoice?
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 9:45 PM UTC
Sometimes it hard to see
Though the foggy land we walk
Sometimes its hard to know
There's support among the talk
Chatter blurs my head with things unsaid
Should I have even tried at all?
There's only one way to know
I guess I need to fall
When it gets dark, it gets easier
Not knowing who's around
Their candle light burns in my eyes
No peace of mind as I hit the ground
I know they've tried
And opened up their eyes
But mine don't seem to work
I just want to try to get there
Without getting hurt.
Todays the day, is always the day
But somehow it's still tomorrow
"One foot in front of the other"
Is just talk among my sorrow
No one can do it for me
I'm lost and scared and cold and lonely
But the worst sound of all is my own voice
Making promises continuously
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 10:04 PM UTC
Mouth over mind;
I could have said that better.
I’m sick and I don’t know how to be helped.
I am lonely in a crowded room.
Grasping for something that
simply isn’t there.
The silence is laced with disrespect,
and the disregard leaches my hope.
Articulation like strangulation,
each sentence a new meal
shoved down my throat.
Perhaps that’s where my appetite fled,
full of past statements
out of context.
I need a break that’s not from a bat.
I need compassion that isn’t laced with guilt.
Above all else I need honesty.
Without that all I have is chaos.
I’d ask you to keep me in your mind,
among all the impulsive desires
to self-indulge.
Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 9:02 AM UTC
I know you probably will not see this
Just in case you do I want to say
I really hope you are happy now
And I am sorry I couldn't make you stay
I will forever hold a piece of you
It does not matter where I go
I have showed you the deepest parts of me
Things no one else will ever know
I do not regret a single moment
Although I wonder what I lack
If I had to do it all over
I wouldn't take a bit of it back
This ordeal eventually made me stronger
I should actually be thanking you
For giving me the romance I wanted
Then breaking my heart in two
I should have realized you were too good to be true
Too perfect for a lovestruck girl like me
And now I am finally alone
Your ghost my only company
I will always be here if you need me
It doesn't matter how badly I am treated
I swear I will continue to love you
Even though I'm broken and defeated
You gave everything I could ask for
Now I have felt the magic of falling in love
And although I cannot have you anymore
You are still all the things I'm dreaming of
You are gone and it's killing me inside
Every lonely day the climb is uphill
I am still waiting for things to get better
But it is possible they never will
Apr 12, 2018
Apr 12, 2018 at 2:53 AM UTC
I got gapingly stare at her face
Admiring her boldness
And her grace
With the Summer Sun beaming down
I would love to reach your crown
The destination
Is just the journey's reflection
Of the slopes I have climbed
Of the views I saw go by
Of the flowers sent so sweet
Of the icy, snow 3 feet deep
And this uphill battle I will not stop
Until I have reached the very top
Not until I could see
All that could have been
Dec 14, 2014
Dec 14, 2014 at 11:39 PM UTC