#untruthful
i confess, i started hiding.
fake words with fake meaning.
i feel pain and real emotion in reality. i will be ok.
i need to let out the real.
real me.
pain, emotion, fear and prickly sensations running down my arm.
i need to really feel now.
i thought maybe if i was witty fake me, that would be enough to bridge my self-loathing and fear......
...on to me. real me.
forgive me for my lie, the untruthful self i now expose.
i am me, i really feel.
i am .
KT May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 9:59 AM UTC
Round and a round up and again
The pouding of fists and the breaking of lead
The moments of treatment the happiness fades
The beating of darkness the bleeding of trades
And my heart will not follow
To the depth and despair
Of the rounds of their tournament
This visage unaware
Of my feelings and tearful sighs from above
I'm a distant stranded character in a land called unloved
I don't string my ties in a knot or a bow my heart is all wound up and will never show
I can't think for anyone
I don't know the path
I find you a journey, but I can't make it last
I'm sad then I'm angry I'm one of the two
Pounding the walls turning them blue
The red in their color the pink in their shades
The granted walls
The absolute shame in my heart from above
It doesn't want love
My eyes scan in them
I don't see the one
Yet I march on
Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 12:39 AM UTC
They want me to be the old me
and dislike the way I am now.
Despite what they say behind me,
they smile whenever I'm around.
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 5:19 AM UTC
The kingdom I believe is within him
The night before last was the wind and it's sensations
I couldn't touch the grandness but I felt its nose peck at me with rays of swift fire
I didn't think the sand would bleed through my fists and the gold melted into my nails
(He was beautiful)
I was awake in another dimension asleep in a beautiful enigma of reality's hammock
The trees swiftly took me into the pyramids and strolled me into it's heaven and I couldn't laugh I couldn't lift, but in awe
My heart was thumping and my jaw was a quiver
Until, my lips were stale as he lounged on satin wire (my love is dyeing)
As he dove into his right fist his arms were wide
Until, the joy was unpleasing
and I couldn't lie around before I decided that I was to leave
The Nile was swift and fruitful
The lagoon was my midnight sensation
Dreams were further he was to close
I couldn't say the truth
The desert embers on my teeth
And every bite I bleed a lie
I don't think I care anymore
(I should go)
He left with cracked diamonds and their flesh sparkling and my name was on either ring
I wringed for anything in us
but drops were nothing
The sizzle dissipates into air
Our burn was to simmer sometime
( I will leave now)
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 11:48 PM UTC
You keep telling us LIES, and
keep FEEDING US FIBS,
you are CONCEALING
HIDDEN SECRETS,
to what you REALLY DID,
You keep TELLING LIES,
from ANOTHER to ANOTHER,
To back up THOSE LIES,
to use another LIE to COVER!!!
You keep SPREADING LIES,
We keep HEARING RUMORS,
But, your LIES will
COME TO SURFACE,
not LATER, but SOONER!!
Now, TELL US THE TRUTH,
You think that we are FOOLISH,
But, We Really are not,
So, come clean with
WHAT YOU DID!!!
Now, TELL US THE TRUTH,
You Keep trying to DECEIVE,
Your LIES sound so DOUBTFUL,
THAT THEY ARE HARD TO BELIEVE!!!
You think you got AWAY,
or that you are GETTING BY,
You BETTER CONFESS and
QUIT TELLING THESE LIES!!!
It's REALLY AMAZING,
The question is WHY???
You LIE SO GOOD,
you BELIEVE YOUR OWN LIES!!!
It not a SUPRISE,
we come to REALIZE,
The TRUTH IS HIDDEN,
Within the LIARS DISGUISE!!!
IT'S seen in your DEMEANOR,
You can't help BUT TO LIE,
Like the BOY WHO CRIES WOLF,
The WOLF ATE HIM ALIVE!!!!
He kept pulling PRANKS,
like HE was GETTING BY,
But, no one BELIEVED HIM,
The LIES lead TO HIS DEMISE!!!!
B.R.
Date: 08/6/2023
Aug 25, 2024
Aug 25, 2024 at 12:25 PM UTC
I try to think of what to say
To your story of why you were away.
But no words come to light
As I think of the times you thought you were right.
Your lies have become
A network of pain that can't be undone,
Your stories now seem to me
As untruthful as others told them to be.
I was blinded by love and all along you knew
That I'd never be able to see through
Your crap but now I know the way
To a life where you will have to pay.
Perhaps that's exactly what I'll write
Or perhaps I'll leave you lonely in the night
Just so that you can see
Just how much hate for you I have inside me.
Feb 9, 2020
Feb 9, 2020 at 4:11 PM UTC