#unsent
It's a letter to my mum,
To tell her how miserable, I am.
I know you left,
Left for good.
But I still crave the taste of your food.
I know you suffered enough,
To get this sleep.
But I'm little selfish mum,
I too want to sleep.
They say I look like you,
Talk like you,
Behave like you.
But how can I tell them,
I just need you.
They say now you live in me,
when I cry,
You cry with me.
When I laugh,
You laugh with me.
But I want you to
live with me,
Not to live in me.
This is another letter I'm writing,
I know this will never be read.
I wish I could cherish you,
When we used to cuddle in bed.
I know mum, I'm too late,
But now I can't,
tolerate this weight.
I know i deserve it all,
But can you please,
forgive me for all?
You know mum,
They hurt your child.
Thinking that
I don't have my mayi.
I know mum,
You care for me.
So please come back,
And save me.
You know mum,
I'm so broken.
No one looks at me,
For once.
I cry all the night,
But no one even,
Look at my sight.
I know mum,
You care for me.
So please come back,
And save me.
Even when I'm burning up,
Drowning in the pain for months.
No one look at me,
For once.
Mum,
They say I'm acting up.
Taking your name,
for them to look up.
I don't wish they feel the same,
Let them be unaware of this pain.
You know mum,
I can bear it all.
Indifference,
or taunts they throw.
But my heart pierced,
at the thought,
When they say,
I'm the reason,
You are gone.
Mum i know,
You don't blame me,
for this.
But they all fed,
this to me,
I'm the reason,
You are gone.
I'm the reason,
You are gone.
Mum,
I'm sorry,
I failed you.
You wanted me to live,
But I failed you.
Just don't hate me, mum.
I can bear it all.
Just don't hate me, mum,
I can survive it all.
Mum,
I love you the most,
But can you please,
come home.
This home doesn't,
Feel the same.
As if the walls,
Lost their paint.
The flowers you had grown,
those forget how to bloom.
This house feels so empty,
So, come back,
and fill this home.
I'm sorry for the scars, I made.
I'm sorry for the trial, I made.
I was just tired, mum.
I just wanted to be numb.
I'm so sorry, Mum.
Please take me with you, mum.
I'm so tired,
to run.
Please take me with you,
MUM.
May 15
May 15, 2026 at 2:31 AM UTC
I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry you lied
I'm sorry for nights when I left your side
I'm sorry that I was the cause of your grief
Blind to your hurt as I chased my relief
I love you. _I love you._ You'll always be mine
I'm sorry I made you think you had to hide
I'm sorry that two years has made such a rift
I'm sorry for all the days I spent adrift
I'm sorry that I was the reason for hate
I'm sorry my back turned while you lay awake
I'm sorry my actions have led you astray
Just come back to me, I promise I'll stay
Oct 1, 2025
Oct 1, 2025 at 1:43 AM UTC
The day that faded into black, the mist that was thick
Tears that fell from the skies, the people on that list
I know that I told you , but I promise I'm not lying
I know that you don't believe me, but then why would I be crying?
I'm sorry that I hurt you, it's because I cared
I didn't know who to go for, I didn't know but I was scared
I thought I had a purpose, but I guess I'm just tied
I promise that I am these things, I promise I didn't lie
I don't want the day to fall, because then I will too
I don't want to go to sleep, because I might forget you
I know that it's not worth it, but where else do I go
This world is full of places that even I wouldn't know
A place up in the stars that seems to welcome my embrace
A world full of colors, and a world without hate
A world without torture, and a world without fights
A world without words that hurt, the fear of picking sides
Up above I could go, right here and now
Up above I could go, to escape from these words too loud
But fear keeps me in chains, and I know lord: You will question
Why I don't let go of it, why I choose to listen
And I know you see my scars, and me convinced I shouldn't
Believe in you, because I simply just couldn't
When in reality, I could, and I could hold them still
Even when I'm gone with my grave up on that hill
I'll become the night that blew up with color
I'll become the connection between two friends, or lovers
I'll become the air you breathe, and the water that you drink
I'll become the blood that you beat, and the vision that you see
And so...
Tears that fell from the skies, people on that list
With names that dripped from the paper, I've welcomed d*ath's kiss
Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 2:35 PM UTC
i don't exactly know
why im writing this --
maybe just to say it out loud somewhere.
you probably don't even notice the way i look at you. or maybe you do, but you just don't say anything. which somehow,
hurts worse.
its stupid, really. how a simple glance from you can rearrange my whole day. you laugh and i swear that it sounds like something that i've been trying to commit to my memory forever.
i don't need you to like me back --
i think that i just needed you to know the truth.
and maybe that's selfish, maybe that's brave, maybe it's both.
but either way,
im not sending this.
ill just keep on pretending its nothing. like i always do.
Jul 8, 2025
Jul 8, 2025 at 9:13 PM UTC
There’s something about late September
that makes me want to text people
I only miss when I’m too tired to lie.
There’s a moth in my mouth again.
I try to sing and it *****
Some nights I rehearse conversations
with people I haven’t forgiven.
Some of them are alive.
Some of them are me.
I keep a list of people
I swore I’d stop dreaming about.
I keep dreaming anyway.
I talk to no one
like they’ll answer differently this time.
I wake up with a wingbeat
pressed into the backs of my teeth.
I think I’m leaking
something no one taught me how to name.
It leaves stains on my straws
It fogs the mirror before I do.
It answers to my voice
but only when I’m not using it.
There’s something about late September
that makes everything feel returned,
but not forgiven.
I don’t text them.
I let the silence say maybe I meant to.
Apr 24, 2025
Apr 24, 2025 at 1:37 PM UTC
If yesterday had come for you,
I’d mourn forever.
If today is that day you leave me,
still I’ll never forget you.
If tomorrow already erased you,
then maybe I should retrace it.
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 12:39 PM UTC
Dearest Parents,
I don’t even know where to begin, because there’s so much sitting in my heart. Some of it heavy, some of it aching and all of it quietly waiting to be heard.
I miss you both.
I miss home.
I miss the feeling of safety I used to associate with your presence. Even when things were hard, I believed, deep down, that love was somewhere in the room.
But now… I feel banished. Like I was pushed out from the one place I thought would always take me in. I don’t know if it was something I did, or didn’t do, or simply who I am. But the silence, the distance, it’s louder than any words you could’ve spoken.
I’ve been trying to be strong. To hold myself up without the foundation I used to rely on. To believe I still matter, even when I feel forgotten. It hurts. It hurts in the kind of way that lingers, that wakes me up at night, that makes me question my worth.
Still, somewhere in me, there’s a small flicker of love that hasn’t gone out. A part of me that wishes you could see me. Not as a disappointment, not as someone to cast out, but just as your child. I’m not perfect, but I’ve always carried love for you. I still do.
Maybe you’ll never read this. Maybe nothing will change. But I needed to say it, for me. I needed to let these words out of the cage they’ve been in.
With love and sadness,
Me
Mar 28, 2025
Mar 28, 2025 at 11:22 AM UTC
...love is hunter sick nerves you enter dream love is puncture it is green with life lush and suffering and kitchen frot and menial wreck and the reburn of childhood excite a spell and sale of a mental thing and incompletely rheumy-tunes...
Mar 25, 2025
Mar 25, 2025 at 4:43 PM UTC
_Wind kissed souls,
at midnight.
World move below,
from top it glow.
Stars cover the sky,
so high,
the scene made,
my heart so shy._
Feb 3, 2025
Feb 3, 2025 at 8:31 AM UTC
_W_,
When I talk about my past lovers,
it's only with the intention of making you jealous.
Love,
_ML_
Jan 20, 2025
Jan 20, 2025 at 7:37 AM UTC
_W_,
I kept thinking —
it'll be easier
if I get hit by a car
_instead of going to work_.
Love,
_ML_
Nov 5, 2024
Nov 5, 2024 at 8:15 AM UTC
_W_,
I don't think I'll ever trust you with my heart _again_.
Love,
_ML_
Oct 7, 2024
Oct 7, 2024 at 7:40 PM UTC
To _JC_,
I had no one to tell these things before:
When I found myself lost in this world
because we weren't _together_,
I caught it wandering in another.
One where you walked on solid clouds,
and I left the comforts of a solid ground.
I didn't want to leave
because you were there
and we were _together_,
but bells ring, days end,
so I came down.
_My feet touched the ground_.
Love,
_ML_
Aug 29, 2024
Aug 29, 2024 at 9:54 AM UTC
To Cristoforo,
It's often silent — but it's there,
the _cannons_ aimed above our heads
under their _white flags_ and olive branch.
Love,
LL
Jul 25, 2024
Jul 25, 2024 at 6:33 AM UTC
Dear lover,
I've been feeding the white wolf
while the black wolf sleeps.
The sun sets, and I sleep alone.
If I feed the black wolf
while the white wolf dreams,
would I find you at sunset,
at the end of this red string?
Love,
LL
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 9:57 AM UTC
To _MB_,
I'll love you forever, even from afar.
_Just think of the sun_.
_Always_ doesn't have to be near
just a secret, because we're both
married.
Love,
_SP_
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 10:00 AM UTC
Dear Hannah; Finch; Connor;
I'm not sorry you did it
but I'm sorry we failed you.
Sincerely,
LL
May 26, 2024
May 26, 2024 at 9:28 AM UTC
i finalised my "divorce" today. well, it was a breakup. 2 years together, lived together, shared our cats, shared a life... all that. so yeah, it felt like a mini divorce.
and i couldn't help but notice how relatable the song "happiness" by taylor swift is now...
_"all the years i've given is just **** we're dividing up"_
he left the house a week ago. today he came by, and divided up our shared things.
_"tell me when did your winning smile_
_began to look like a smirk?_
_when did all our lessons start to look like weapons_
_pointed at my deepest hurt?"_
when i first met him, it was the stuff of fairytales - like most relationships. we shared some of the best memories of our lives together. but like all good things, it came to an end. over time, we became stressed with life's responsibilities. we became toxic to each other, and both made terrible mistakes. towards the end, it became the inevitable to end things.
_"after giving you the best i had_
_tell me what to give after that?"_
i gave it my all. we both tried our best. it just wasn't meant to be.
_"haunted by the look in my eyes_
_that would've loved you for a lifetime"_
how i wished he was the one... given any chance, i would've loved him for a lifetime. i miss him. i miss the life we shared. i grieve for the future we will never have.
_"i can't make it go away by making you a villian"_
but just because the relationship failed, it was still extraordinarily beautiful. i hold zero resentment towards him at all. no negative feelings. i wish him all the best in the future.
_"no one teaches you what to do_
_when a good man hurts you_
_and you know you hurt him too"_
these lyrics hit me the most...
_"there'll be happiness after you_
_but there was happiness because of you"_
goodbye, lover. maybe in another lifetime, our paths will cross again. but for now, i wish you all the happiness in the world. i will always have love for you deep in my heart.
Dec 20, 2022
Dec 20, 2022 at 11:23 AM UTC
You are my best mistake
and if I could go back in time
I’d still choose you.
All was wrong
but felt so right,
following you down,
struggling to lift you up.
I’d make the same mistake
all over again
over anything,
over anyone,
I'd always choose you.
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 6:41 PM UTC
You are my unsent message.
The cursor blinking rhythmically,
With my heartbeat,
Waiting,
For me to hit send.
But I am not ready,
And I’m not sure if I ever will be
So I left it like that.
Unsent. Unseen. Unread.
“I miss you.”
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 10:21 AM UTC
I wrote it all down
What I wanted to tell you
About how sorry I was
And how much I wanted you back
But I left it in my car
As I set it on fire
So now we’re back to step one
And we have a few more to add
To the unsent love letters
Aug 14, 2018
Aug 14, 2018 at 1:33 AM UTC
Sometimes I want you for me
Sometimes I can’t even imagine what may be
Sometimes I care
And sometimes I don’t want to
Some days I love talking
Some days I don’t even want to be reminded you exist
And although there’s chaos in mind
I want you to know that there’s never a day that gone by where you didn’t cross mine.
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 12:30 AM UTC